Cassandra Loh

Saturday, March 10, 2012

unscathed

was radomly looking at fbs of friends i was once close to
drifted apart... not because of any disagreements,
but just because of the sheer fact that time just push us in opposite directions
as i looked at their photos, I realized that they actually do tell a story
your life story.
it's like.. I've not met a person for a long time, but I can get a feel of how she has been
through her photos.
real smiles, or just facades,
well i can't tell
but at least it's an avenue.

had the sudden urge to blog again
i guess it may be because of the studying
people say you get distracted most when you're doing something most important
anyway, i just wanted to blog
not about daily happenings that much
but just continue to try and pen down emotions and thoughts
so that one day,
when i forget myself, or forget how I've walked through a certain phase
I can look back at my blog.

thought of starting on a new blog add
thought i wrote too many silly things on this (well i was only 16 when i started)
but i decided
that was who i really was
that past made me who i am today
so i'm going to embrace them
not just brush them off as "some lame pasts"
laughed at some of my ah-lian lingo
cringed at some of the real pain I had to go through
wow-ed myself with how I was so good at keeping to formats (wonder where that has gone to)
and just reminded myself
how blessed I am, to walk out of my teenage years unscathed (at least no bad scars)

what phase am i in now?
a phase of self-searching
a phase of grasping who I really am inside.
starting to feel the age catching up
starting to actively do things to prevent my body from disintegrating
take up yoga, cardio, go for massages.
studying hard (most of the time) for my last two sems in UB
making many new friends
losing some old buddies. you.
piling up on the "regrets" basket
throwing in some "should haves" and "i wish i had
nevertheless
it's a journey
and i will walk through it.
and come out
unscathed.

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