Icecream Makes Me Happy (:
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your name
wrote at ;; 8:36 PM
Saturday, May 30, 2009
contemplating whether to blog about tonight's dinner
but decided to just post the pictures
went for cakes at cartel
dont reli have mood to describe so just pictures
two of my best friends
truffle cheesecake for grace
aunt amy's choc fudge for me
enjoying the cakes
mom gets to enjoy later cux i dabao-ed for her
best friends always
me and grace
me and qi
too dark
best we could take
feeling very bad now
i'm sorry i have been such a bad friend
my heart ached when i heard the news
please reply my call soon..your name
wrote at ;; 12:18 AM
Friday, May 29, 2009
went back to school for the trash-it-out session
then was supposed to go home after tt but saw saumun on the way
and we chatted alot abt university of Queesnland
which i've checked offers Bachelor in Public Relations (:
i am now so MOTIVATED to do well for my last sem
i shall forget about the MICE test today grrr
i even checked on the accommodations there and all
haha i am so ready!
going out for dinner with grace and qi
and for once after A LONG TIME
i am going to be driven!!
i am not driving today and grace is picking me up
whee! (: (:
yay shall post some cuteypie pictures before going for dinner (:
the always handsome lucky!
for the past few days rascal has been making me envious by sleepin super early in my room
and he dreams alot! i wonder what he dreams about..
haha so cute man
only bad thing about having rascal in my room.. my soft toys end up having a nose or eye being chewed up =.=
yay so cute the rubber bands totally suit him (:
disclaimer: the rubber band is tied veryvery loosely so i am not abusing my dog.
in fact he love the rubber bands so much he started playing with them! :Dyour name
wrote at ;; 7:27 PM
indeed as the title of this post says
it is a sucky ending to the tests
it was an hour paper today
NOTHING CAME OUT FROM THE NOTES
relatively easy paper
CASE STUDY
50m
aircon in the lt was SPOILT
so it was STUFFY like mad
people were making noises cux it was just too HOT
i couldnt get my thoughts together
and when I FINALLY DID
1hour was up
25m flies away
there goes my hopes of gettin a 3.75 gpa for this sem
damnit
can somebody say something to make the situation optimistic
zzz...your name
wrote at ;; 11:53 AM
its 3:15am
i am sorta done with my revision
so i started stoning away
and my thoughts just drifted to the reflections that gevin was talkin about
i realised there are many issues that i have yet dealt
i live by them day after day
i push them to a side and they accumulate
maybe it really is time to take them out of that dusty corner
and deal with them one by one
i guess there are times when we have to pluck up the courage
to remove the masks that we conveniently put up all the time
it doesnt have to be with someone
i just need to come face to face with these masks
and only when i have done that
can i be true to myself and the people around me
somebody shared this
the red indians believe in a diagram
whereby a triangle is surrounded by a circle
the circle represents your heart
when u first do something wrong
the triangle will move, and because of its sharp edge, it will prick you
however, as you continue to do the same mistake over and over again
the triangle will spin faster and faster
and soon, it will scrape out the insides of the circle (where the triangle used to touch)
when this happens, the triangle will not be able to touch the circle anymore
which means, it does not prick you anymore
which also means, you are numb to that mistake
an interesting quickie..
are we already numb to some of the mistakes that we are doing..your name
wrote at ;; 3:17 AM
Thursday, May 28, 2009
sigh.. i dont wanna study :(
i think as u grow older
u get less motivated to study
just one more subject
ONE MORE!!!
stay focused cass!!
today during public speaking class
this girl (i dont know her name :p)shared something quite interesting
she said
HAPPINESS = REALITY/EXPECTATION
expectation cannot be 0 cux in a fraction denominator cannot be 0 (if everyone rems maths :p)
so you still have to have expectations, but keep it lower than reality. then you will have happiness.
think she said smth like that
yep tts a quickie for today (:
going back to my notes soon
before that..
check this out!
i got an invitation to the showroom to see this pretty car(:
don't really like the exterior
but still, think its quite pretty (:
kay notes time!your name
wrote at ;; 6:46 PM
during apel, gevin talked about stoppin to think and reflect
he said smth about ppl being too busy nowadays to stop and think
and i think tt is damn true
days past like nobody's business
and we seem to be fighting to just get through each day
we dont reflect about the past
we dont learn from our mistakes
thats a quickie to ponder about
then i met Denise yest coincidentally under her block
we chatted for quite some time
and i told her about what some ppl say about me
that i am high and mighty full of airs want people to worship and all the crap
and she pointed out something
which made me think
she said maybe its the car
like after i got a car
i interact less with people
its always me in my car rushing here and there
tts not totally untrue
like in sentosa in yr 2.2
aft school
all i will do is to rush into the car
blow the aircon and drive home
i never interacted much with my classmates
and its only recently tt i know
that on the last day of school in TAS
there was a junior in the square thingy (party)
I DIDNT EVEN KNOW ABOUT IT!!
so now i am very seriously contemplating on going on a car strike
hmm
i don't know how i will survive
but i guess thats a step towards a change
omg but i reli cnot imagine myself without a car now zzz
anyways
got a test tmr again
and again i still have 2 chapters
so just a short update!
bye!your name
wrote at ;; 3:42 AM
Monday, May 25, 2009
its 2:05 on my clock
and i still have got 2 chapters un-studied
which actually seems fine
just that they are so short i could have finished it in the afternoon if i was more focused
this is the third time i am bloggin in a day
(which sorta shows how unfocused i am haha)
he blogged again..
but i am going to stop these lameass blog attackin
cux like saumun said
someone has to stop
and it shall be me
(:
i knew spencer was going to write a post to encourage me
so i kept refreshing and refreshing
at the back of my mind i was already expecting something like
don't be sad
or don't bother
but when i finally saw the post
it sorta caught me by a small surprise
Whenever you feel like every single detail of your life
is going to ruins and the stress and the pain and the suffering
and the sorrow and the emptiness threaten to bring you down and stomp all over you
know that God will help you come out of it
stronger and more loving and more caring and more compassionate every single time
and
Whenever you need a friend to remind you this, know that I will be here for you =]
maybe in this whole saga
i lost sight of what's most important
maybe this whole time
i have lost sight of THE most important thing
and today when these shit happen
i admit that i thought of the stewards
i thought of how they would analyze things from their point of view
committment is probably my weakness i realised
i am humbly admitting this now
looking back
from a past relationship, to cell, to trngs
i see committment playin a big role in causing the distresses
guess that's smth i have gotta work on
back to books..
before that
spencer.. thanks for being there for me
esp at the most trying times
though u often lame me, bully me, and bombard me with 10000 songs tt i dont like
i see a true friend in you
thanks bud
isaac.. thanks for giving your opinion
and telling me smth that i have been tryin to tell myself
but hearing it from you made the difference
and i did smile during tt convo so thanks (:
son.. i know it is tough for you
to not tk sides and remain objective
i just hope that
table tennis will remain as table tennis
and mother and son remains as mother and son
(:
and to my darling ben
thanks for just the hugs that helped me suck up my tears
thanks for leaving me alone when u know i needed to be
and thanks for coming back again when you know i just needed a big hug
okok dr. aloysius lee is calling me
i can feel it totally
bye for real!your name
wrote at ;; 2:04 AM
Sunday, May 24, 2009
k i've calmed down
lol i was quite pissed jus now
but found a way to vent my anger
that is to play with my dogs (:
innocent dogs that are definitely not as complicated as man
this time i played with rascal more cux he was in my room so only 1 pic of lucky
lucky with his infamous soulful eyes
ever-naughty rascal
love this pic cux he look cutely distorted
pulling my sheets
and again
that's my darling rascal thanks to those who talked to melike immediately after i bloggedwowhahathanks guorong for tellin me not to bother about what others saythanks qi for standing at my sidethanks grace for talkin to me so i wont go insane being pissed myself
i guess its reli these friends+dogs that make trying days not that badwith you guys, i know that i will definitely not falter even in my worst timesplease be as nice if one day i go bankrupt k :p for now i shall finally pick up my gaming textbook to study for tmr's testi've wasted enough timefeeling angry, sorry for myself, accused, etcnow its time to get myself togetherand focus on whats important
bye!your name
wrote at ;; 5:12 PM
i'm trying to swallow all the misunderstandings and accusations
i've seen the word worship twice
and i am not sure if they know the meaning of that word
why on earth do i need people to worship me
i dont even think of myself as anythin great
in fact these years like my friends know
are shit for me
so many big stuff happened to me
that i dun give a damn about people worshiping me
sometimes i am just so tired about everything
i mentioned that i still like table tennis
like means like
i determine what i like
who are you to determine whether it is like or stubborness
"last year and the year before we don't have enough players that's why we had to find her to come back and play for us" (i've been thinkin, who is us?)
"now she stubbornly refuses to leave, which is absolutely unacceptable for me, because when she comes back, the team's morale will be affected negatively to a certain extent"
this is quoted from the captain's blog
exact word for word
the other time i felt that wad he said to me was harsh
but i had no proof
and calmly thinkin, it may be cux we interpreted it differently
like i felt that it was harsh
but he didnt mean for it to be
but this time
i quote these 2 sentences straight from his blog
i never changed a single word
he also said that i was making up stories to make myself sound pitiful
what stories did i make up
all i said was that i was quarrelin with him and thats why i am not gg for trng
which i got comments that was an unacceptable reason
in which i accepted and apologised in my previous post
so if people know thats the reason
whats the sob story that he thinks people know?
i wonder if what he said he is speaking for the team and committee
or just for himself
cuz i went for trng on fri and it felt fine
unless everything was a facade as well
damn i am jus so tired to walk onyour name
wrote at ;; 2:11 PM
my msn and hotmail account got hacked
only found out when i keep getting signed out of msn
used my other account to go online
and realised that i was still online on msn
zzz
decided to change to a damn difficult password
hehe see who still can hack my acct
wanted to mug for exams today but only managed to study abit
and this is because of
tong xiao mahjong yest with bf, jan, jan's bf
time flew like anything
didnt even realised tt it was alr like 5 plus (or was it 6)
lol
cant wait for next week to be over (3 tests)
i need my short 3 weeks break
its very much well-deserved this time
(:
before i end
HAPPY 21st BIRTHDAY ISAAC CHONG
finally saying this after 4 years (:
have a great year ahead! :D
a picture that i left out
from babes' night out (:
your name
wrote at ;; 3:22 AM
Thursday, May 21, 2009
i am in the midst of chiong-ing project
when i suddenly got pissed off by a blog post of someone
and the danger of saying someone is because
it is unclear and others may think it is them
so i wanna disclaim
son this is not about you
we have met our set of problems and quarrels before
but they were ALWAYS solved
and this is just a small thing
which is so freakin external that i dun see how it should even affect our friendship
the previous post wasnt for you either
so dont worry
aiyah on second thoughts
i shant broadcast again about what he said about me in case he gets pissed again
just wanna say
this is the MOST bitter friendship i have ever had
and you tell me that people think bad about me and have bad things to say about me
i wanna ask you
who doesnt get backstabbed by others?
at least i have a bunch of TRUE friends (i hope you do)
whom i am sure do not talk bad about me
oh but on a side track
he said i was broadcasting to the world with regards to the post that was about him
which was half true actually
cux i just realised that i have readers from switzerland ( i am guessing shawn), ireland, germany, malaysia etc
haha quite shocking
HI WORLD (: (:
but anyways, i dont want this to be some petty thing lah
though it seems to be already lol
but i am just angry la cux i reli dislike being accused
hey boy you treaded on my tail
this table tennis thingy is just a small thing
and while the people involved are not making a big hoo haa about it
some non related people have to do so i dunno why
I HAVE NOT QUIT THE TEAM
and
I WILL BE GOING BACK
hope that clears any misunderstandings
and i am sorry to the team for not coming for trainings
i know it is my fault on my side to not come because of some small disputes
yea that all
going back to my projects
gosh you wasted so much of my time
-.-your name
wrote at ;; 12:07 AM
Tuesday, May 19, 2009
sigh this is the first time i taste rejection from a job
when i saw the email my heart dropped
i got rejected by meritus mandarin :(
this is such a bad news..
zzz
now i gotta chiong my two individual assignments
which are all due on friday
so many things to do
but so little time
sigh..
ahhhh what a bad day!!!
:( :(your name
wrote at ;; 7:11 PM
Sunday, May 17, 2009
yay somebody's 20 already
2 big candles (:
met the birthday boy for dinner at a steamboat buffet place at beach road
i enjoyed it more than he did i guess
then we went to pasir ris beach
where i gave him my surprise (:
*smelly* durian puffs to replace boring birthday cakes
spencer with his fave durian birthday cake :p
make a wishh!
and blow off the candles
oh and this is a spastic look of how nice the durian puffs were in his mouth
and we cheers for the first time like some ahpekshappy birthday dear friend (:may your 20th year be a happier one for youthanks for being such a great friend,and thanks for being by my side when i needed a friend(:sigh this is supposed to be happy post for spencerbut jus wana rant abt some stuffthe table tennis hoo haa is gettin kinda out of handand i am dragged into it as wellfrom my point of view, people have different priorities, and different levels of liking for everythingsome people like table tennis to the maximum that they can forsake EVERYTHING else for the sportsome may be like bf who likes it so much he played it semi-professionally but knows when his career comes to an endsome may just wanna play to win and not care abt anythin elsesome may be like me, who love the sport, had the most wonderful memories with the sport, and thus DO NOT WANT TO FORSAKE THE SPORTsome may be like tseyun who just wanna keep playin the sport to stay fiti guess different people have different reasons why they joined the team and noone can criticise anyone for their reasonsrecently tseyun is thinkin of quittingand she got REPRIMANDED (i insist on using this word) i am not trying to stand on her sidein fact, regarding the PT, i stand on the committee's sidecux i know that the PT that they do is usefulbut maybe she joined the team with a different motive?she just wanted to enjoy the game, HER gameand when she saw that PT was compulsory, she decides to leaveso that she will not AFFECT the rest of the teampaul did suggest that she could be EXEMPTEDbut she knew that would affect the rest of the teambut what did you do?you REPRIMANDED herand you made it sound like bcuz of this 1 decisionshe will fail in her lifethat she is relying on her mom now and that she will fail in future?who are you to determine that?you say its the attitudebut if she is doin the game leisurely, and she doesnt find leisure in the game anymorethen what has that got to do with attitude?perseverance? endurance?comeon she just wants to play to keep fitjus like how we go joggin jus to keep fit, but not train like trackand when she realises that her goal is different from the teamshe chooses to leavesimple as thati dont see why you have to link it to everythin else=_= haiz..its reli sad to see friendships of years being DESTROYED and JEOPARDISED cux of a sportwe are talking about years here..3, 5, 7 years of friendshipdown the drain like thatnt only tseyuneven i am affectedwhen i haven decided to quit yetmoreover the friendships that i am talking about are friendships that went thru so much togthe ups and the downsdont know if these ppl rememberbut the downs that we went thru together were actually one of the most intense onessome of the biggest downs in my life were spent with these peoplebe it studies, relationships, etcwe experienced our downs before togbut because of table tennisJUST TABLE TENNISthe memories can jus be written off i am just disappointed and upsetwhat reli defines true friends?this is a sucky feelingthe feeling of losing people that are important and significant in my life:( anywaysHAPPY BIRTHDAY SPENCER(: (: (: (: (: (: (: (: (: (: (: (: (: (: (: (:hope that made the post happy at the ending tooyour name
wrote at ;; 1:08 AM
Friday, May 15, 2009
" Good afternoon. Today i will like to talk about failure. Failure is a word that everybody shuns. Open the papers and you will see many news of people who either choose to escape from their failure, or just simply choose to deny that they have failed. And what's the most common way of escaping? The answer is suicide. It is heartwrenching to see the number of suicide cases rise. It makes me wonder, are people just too proud to lose, or are they afraid to start over?
I have had a failure in my life that impacted my life greatly. In 2006, I was a happy student in Temasek Junior College. However in 2007, I was crying almost everyday i entered those gates. I scraped through my promos in JC1, and teachers were telling me that JC wasn't for me. I took them personally, and felt that the whole world was against me. I got depressed, and started skipping school as I did not want to see these teachers that "hated" me. However one day, a teacher that i respected most told me, "Cassandra, sometimes you just have to admit that you hav failed." This struck me. I realised that all those times that i skipped school, were just a form of escapism.
I picked myself up. It was far from a smooth ride. I switched to a poly, and had to face my ego. In fact, I had to conquer it. The good thing was, I didnt have to go through that alone. My family, friends, and surprisingly, the teachers that I thought hated me, supported me all the way. Now I am a happy student again, on my way to gettin a diploma. I survived two years, and i am starting on my third. Looking back, I'd not be as happy as I am if I did not admit that hiccup in my life.
To conclude, I think that people just have to recognise the fact that failures are just stepping stones for us to become a happier and stronger person. Allow the people around you to help you brave through the night, and you will definitely see the break of dawn. Bottomline, do not give up hope.
Thank You."
this was my public speaking speech for today
Carolyn said it was good
she said i had good content
i saw the audience listening attentively
not one of them were bored
they liked my story
they bought it
but what about me
do i buy it?
i probably buy 10% of this speech
yest during the SIP interview
the lady said
life in a hotel industry is like a stage
everything is fake and you have to wear masks
maybe not only the hotel industy is like this
life is like this
we all wear masks of different kinds
just to save ourselves from the judgin eyes of others
we're all actors on the stage, so we have to be professional about ityour name
wrote at ;; 12:37 AM
Wednesday, May 13, 2009
damn tired..
duno wads with me these days
sleep like usual.. 6 hours
but VERY tired :(
went for my first interview for SIP
at meritus mandarin hotel
think i was too nervous and all
but i shall just wait for the results i guess
what will be will be (:
after interview went with darl to airport for popeyes
went with my hair still gel-ed =X
its our __________ anniversary
spent simply cux i was reli just too tired
sorry darl for not being THAT excited about it.
dun mind my damn neat hair lol
silly look
imagine if i had my hair done up like this everyday
(:
haha supposed to be ugly but both of us ended up actin cute more
yay happy simple coupledarl.. thanks for everything you've done for methanks for taking my bad tantrums with less than a pinch of saltthanks for giving me the most amount of trust and freedom in the worldthanks for keepin quiet when i throw my temper at u cux i'm tiredyou're the silliest sweetie i knowi love you (:
silly look again (:ps: i've finally reached a yr! no more triangle plate in my car!! (:your name
wrote at ;; 11:11 PM
Sunday, May 10, 2009
yea as the title suggests..
it was BABES night out yest!
we had a night filled with activities
we had to do our hair, attend sarah's surprise birthday party, go for a photoshoot, and lastly party!
so first on the list was to set our hair and make up for the night
mine was easier so had to wait for janice cux her hair needed a haircut
what else could i do to pass time right (:
hair and mk up done (:
hairstylist eddie doin janice's hair
yay all set (:
second activity for the night was to attend sarah's surprise party
she's 20
which reminds me..
i am gg to be 20 soon
my oh my
the bday girl blindfolded
me and teddy at the party (:
mac party was hmm
quite fun la
but the food was reli too lil for us to last the night
so we went for another meal at a hk cafe
beef noodles (:
went for our photoshoot
before starting the party
free entry and we hopped 3 bar/clubs
janice was amazed by my canon hehe
so we had our own photoshoot this time
thanks to her bf who became our photographer for the night
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one of the nicest pic of the night (:oh and yea yeathat time janice actually recommended that face shop's masks are goodso i bought to tryand indeed its reli effectiveyou can see the difference with just one maskand to make it betteruse it everyday (:i choose to keep to myselfyour name
wrote at ;; 12:48 AM