Tuesday, December 13, 2005
hey i am back!! heex.. it was quite fun la.. yep.. i reli saw my bro's fighting spirit.. this is like an international comp la.. yea.. alot of countried\s came tog.. haha.. den e seniors and juniors both went la..last yr the seniors.. hu were den juniors.. noone got in la.. sdo dis yr.. the coach oso expected noone from juniors to go in.. jus go try try onli.. so my bro go lo.. den in the end.. he culdn get in.. but he was vv close.. miss by 30 pins.. so he kept trying and fighting.. i reli almost cried when i see him fight DESPITE HIS INJURY.. yea lo. dere not bad la.. quite fun i guess.. there was dis vv big shoppin centre.. so bought sum stuff.. but most of the tym was watcing my bro.. act b4 i went i told my mom i onli support abit den i go out play. den she sae ok... but when i saw my bro fight.. i jus felt tt i had to be dere to support lo.. though he never get in but i am reli vv proud of him.. heex.. get back and i am sick.. think scream too much den throat inflame.. haha.. nvm.. it is worth it..
while i was dere.. i sorted out alittle things.. firstly.. abt my blog b4.. i decided to let God control everythin.. u wil always hear pple sae.. u muz let God control everythin bla bla bla.. but it reli isnt easy.. but i will.. wad ever will be will be.. wadeve r pleasing to His eyes will be pleasing to His eyes.. so i dun care abt the reply le.. though i still hoe smth positive wil happen.. but no high hopes.. yea... and i will still stay happy and strong de.. aft all there were good memories i guess... heex... =) duno if he read le and wad he feel aft reading it..
hmm.. now at siyao house.. tryng to blog but keep got pple msning me.. so i shall stop here first. thanks for those comments grace and sher.. buaiz!!
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wrote at ;; 8:32 PM
Wednesday, December 07, 2005
maybe i shdn be thinkin abt this.. maybe i shd jus get over it.. maybe...it was reli all my fault aft all.. maybe we r not fated.. maybe i;ll find a guy 10tyms beta..ok... let me get this str8... all these maybeS... i dun believe them at all.. how haf i been gg on these few mths without him.. self deluding.. deluding tt im fine.. tt i dun think abt him anymore.. tt.. i dun even care.. when o;s was here.. i started tellin myself.. dun care abt this for now.. study hard... but it didnt work.. u noe how i managed to study?? i told myself.. if i study hard... den he'll want me back again... if i study hard.. when o';s is over... we can haf a gd tym tog... ok sumone slap me for being dumb.. but at least.. i have finished my o's.. but now when i finished my o's... all these stories tt i told myself.. is gone.. it didnt cum thru... i told my mom abt our relationship le.. i wanna sae dis to u if u r reading.." dar(so long nv call u dis le), u noe wad?? the time we r waiting for is reli finally here..!!! rem how we wished tt my council term will finally end?? it has ended.. rem the tyms we hope tt my o's will be over soon.. so we finally be tog without considering my o levels.. rem the tym when we hoped tt our parents will all noe abt our relationship so tt we can guang ming zhen da go out... the tym has come..!! but where r u??? i reli finally realised how u felt tt tym when u were tryin to get me back.but why aren;t u giving me any chance to get u back??i haf not seen u for months...i want to ask how r u.. but i cant find u... pple tell me u have changed... have u reli?? i guess.. u will nv read dis.. i will give us a tym limit..lets make it x mas ba.. if our telepathy is still strong.. if by sum ways or other.. u manage to read dis.. and wanna give us a try again... tell me k?? i'll be waiting.. if not.. aft x mas.. i'll give myself a total new start.. you'll be erased from my memry..dar... r we still meant for each other?? will u get to read dis?? i jus wan to tell u smth... dar... i reli regret wad happened.......i reli learnt my lesson.. i reli reli miss u.. u noe aft we broke up.. i tot back abt our relationship.. act.. we were jus moving on to a new stage.. a stage whereby we were vv close le.. not awkward.. rem how we used to be afraid of holdin hands.. but we in e end.. we got past tt stage.. evry stage with u was memoravle.. i wana tell u.. even if we dun get tog again.. can we be friends? at least friends?? rem e msg u sent to me aft we broke up?? u said tt ven if e world falls u will still be dere for me.. u rem sayin tt.. u can still be my da ge ge and we can be best of friends.. do u rem?? when haf u seen best friends not seein each other for months.. if u see dis.. till dec25th.. can we end dis.. happily? either we become good friends tt meet up.. and i promise i wun ask more than dat,. i;d treat u as my best friemd and jus tt.. i promise.. and if u decided tt we shd still be tog.... i promise i will try my best and put more effort into this relationship.. either ways... i hope to get a reply from u.. act this is not good for both of us.. u noe... i'd rather we be friends.. and we reli meet and all.. and i'll try to get over u.. rather then.. u dun talk to me..and i keep missing u.. i'd rather get over u by myself.. do u understand.. 25th dec.. aft dis.. the whole issue will be settled once and for all.. once again. im sorry and i hope u will read dis..
okok.. wow a long para for him.. sorry ar.. reli felt like saying all out.. and also.. my mom encouraged.... okok.. err... i no mood to sae others... err. i gg to sunway dis fri.. so to my dear friends.. tata!!!your name
wrote at ;; 9:28 PM
