Cassandra Loh

Thursday, June 30, 2005

hi there i am here again.. ok i told like 4 pple abt my blog.. oh wad an achievement.. and grace left me not one but TWO comments. haha thankew ar.. haha..hmm.. k act i m here to update the 4 pple.. okok.. honestly.. is to jus tell myself la.. wad i haf reflected lo.. i think this life reli does consist of ups and downs.. and this is jus a deeper down that i am facing now.. i haf absolute confidence that i will get over it soon.. thanks alot oki.. for reli standing by me la.. i cant sae i'll immediately step out of this confusion and upset zone.. but all i can sae is.. i'm not a no hope situation.. things will get beta de.. Grace.. rem i told u at the start of this term that i m a new person.. yeah.. i m stil trying oki.. heex...aniwae now is like super late. ok at least quite late le.. but i still online.. u noe why? bcuz i haf to do jaw therapy.. haha as in home de.. super lame ok.. i tell u e process of the appt i had yest in SGH ar.. it went like this... i went there.. den muz wait for my turn.. no. was 5541.. ooohh go buy 4D.. hey i jk ar.. i dun approve gambling. yea anw.. so i aited den go in lo.. den got dis doc.. quite young and.. ahem good lookin. came and ask me to open my mouth la.. den i did lo.. den he check like so long.. den in the end he sae go X rAY.. den i was like ok.. den went to x RaY room la.. den me and mummy wait outside first ma.. den mummy tell me.. muz injection one leh.. den i was like WAD!! den i wan save face ma.. so i was like orh ok lo i not scared anw.. haha but in me i was like OH NO OH NO la.. yea..den finally after the ordeal of waiting.. den i went in lo. den nurse ask me tk out all metal things on my head.. den i took out my hairclip.. den she ask me if i was wearing earrings when obviously i wasn't.. ok nvm.. den she ask me bite smth la.. den i bite lo.. den suddenly she sae ok.. so i let go lo.. den in the she was like AIYAH I GOT THE GOOD POSITION ALREADY ASK U NOT TO OPEN MOUTH U STILL OPEN.. haha.. oops.. i didnt mean to.. too nervous la.. den in the end got this weird lookin machine tt went round my head la.. den jiu ok le.. den on my way out i was like.. STUPID ME.. WHERE GOT X RAY WITH INJECTION DE.. haha.. den go out mummy was laughing at me.. ok wadeva.. den went back lo.. den e doc use sum light see my jaw.. so cool i nv see b4 ma.. den he sae i got 4.. listen carefully. is 4 wisdom tooth k!!!!!!! if need to pluck all next time u all will hear nuts from me le.haha.. then e doc check super long again.. den aft tt sae call specialist.. den in the end outcome was.. go home do therapy den one mth later cum back,.. wa super waste time man.. haha..den brought mummy to magic wok.. she complained about EVERYTHING.. haha.. ok lo.. ya den home den nite was when all e qNa stared and got me irritated.. ok supposed to be a happy and jovial blog.. so unhappy stuff wun write le.. so ciaoz for now!

your name wrote at ;; 11:20 PM

hmm.. my first time blogging.. oh well..i nv tot i wud ever blog la.. bcuz i oways tot it is quite stupid to write a diary and let everyone read.. but i now i reli need to get things off my chest.. den in a moment of rashness.. here's my blog.. okok i shall start.. it goes like this.. i jus broke up with this guy la.. he is one yr my senior. no doubt we had the best times when we were tog.. den sum things happen i guess.. den the feelings like suddenly fade or wad.. like u noe. i felt that we culdn compliment our characters la.. bcuz things that shd be e same we r diff. things that is beta to be opposite, we r e same.. so after thinking for very long, i decided to break up with him to prevent a longer hurt next time la.. i wanted to tell him after my bdae-- which is 12july. but he suddenly guessed it like on the 28th june.. so i jus told him.. it reli took me alot of courage to tell him.. so i tot things will jus end there and let me get over this asap.. however.. it did not turn out that way.. he wanted to patch.. and he reli sounded so sincere.. i admit a few times i was vv moved and i reli almost grew soft and re accept.. but it is reli my principle not to go back with a guy hu i broke up with b4 le.. u noe last time allen oso like dis ma.. so i keep saying no lo.. although a few times i was on the verge of accepting.. act all these are ok. the prob is. suddenly he seem to haf so many supporters.. like everyone asking me" wad e reason of the breakup and tt i shd patch back..etc.." that's when i reli got so frustrated la.. i mean.. y is everyone pressing me? thank GOD i still haf a few good friends.. grace u all rocks!(not onli grace la.. those hu were there for me.. ) thanks for being there for me!! and to lemon and jer.. thanks alot.. like on msn i become so.. frustrated then mite haf thrown a little temper or ap u all.. but still thanks for supporting me! =) hmm.. i hope these ordeals will go away soon ba.. tml sports dae le.. i dunno if i wanna run.. dun tink i can conc la.. i jus wana let him noe.. if he ever were to cum la.. that i am reli very sorry for wad i haf done.. but i dun think there will be any turning back.. i m reli sorry.. it is all my fault.. but hey pls get back to normal k.. i dun wish to see u neglecting studies or wad.. if u reli still care for me.. pls dun harm urself in any way.. im reli vv sorry.. oh today i also had my o's CL oral.. i tink still ok la.. hais but in anw i tink i wun get a1 le.. bcuz my paper dat time i sick ma.. retest lo.. haiz.. k la.. my mood act vv rotten now.. so i shd go.. ciaoz!

your name wrote at ;; 5:53 PM