Cassandra Loh

Sunday, April 29, 2007

One week since I’ve been in a new school, with totally new friends..

Started off with nobody I knew.. reli nobody.. during orientation, I wondered how on earth am I gg to bond with this class.. den I found my clique, which has a bowler, shuttler and a SCUBA DIVER! :p private joke. Den slowly e class bonds.. and now.. esp aft HTM orientation, the class seem like we’ve been tog for long.. (:

Thursday
I had no school on thurs!! (:

How I LOVE slack time tables. I could make GOOD use of my time(: went to meet anna to teach her maths, (supposedly, but ended up talking abt being a Christian for life), den did some of my tutorials, den went to meet lemon for dinner.. den did some of my tutorial again, den met wx at nite. Fruitful day of catchin up.. sad thing is, I jus cant seem to catch up with the jc pple of my age. They jus seem so bz I dunno where to enter. But still glad I managed to catch up with ppl like son, wx, lemon, Jeremy and all e other non JC2 peep..

Friday
School started at 2. I kept sub consciously thinking it was lecture so can be a little late.. like u noe 5mins to 10. so I slacked ard. And before I knew it, I was rushing to sch bcuz it is act comm. skills tutorial.. haha.. comm skills is fun! Its somewhat like GP, and I love GP (heard tt mr wilson? :P u could prob hint to mr chung and ms lim tt I enjoiyed their GP for me.. hehe jk) aft school, we queued for like an hour to buy the textbook for research in HTM.. and I, being that foolish me, managed to entertain my friends (unintentionally).

We were quite amazed with the bookshop being an NTUC cus it has almost everythin. Then I saw this “hair spray”. The cap was blue and the brand was Gatsby. There was a tester available, so I took it and asked for volunteers to be sprayed. Of cos noone volunteered, so I went to wan zhen, and since she didn’t defend herself, I sprayed her hair. Seeing the blue streak on her hair, I was so amused! I pointed to her hair and said, “ reli got blue!” and she said ya right. So I was like “I AM SERIOUS!” and the rest of them jus seem to say ya right. I was in confusion state when wan zhen said “ how can deodorant have colour!” I was like “ IT IS HAIR SPRAY LA!” and when they saw tt I was reli serious, they burst out laughing.. ok fine, it was reli deodorant.. with a coloured cap.. :/ and tt was how I became the entertainment for the day.. :P

Aft tt we had HTM orientation. Wanted to pon, but last min decided not to la.. in e end, reli had fun and reli bonded with class! J oh and we played captain’s ball in an ULTRA MUDDY FIELD with ONE WHOLE UNCOOKED CHICKEN which eventually got dissected by us whilst playin. :p

Saturday
Saturday was fun.. went to church in the morning to give my disciples follow up.. (: reli enjoyed the time with them.. (: from the not serious stuff to the serious stuff.. (: thanks girls for making my first time being a discipler such a wonderful one.

Service was impactful. Worship was too.. I mean, ok worship is not for me.. is for God, but the songs reli reminded me of a lot of stuff.. ok I will come back to this later..

For cell, we had a new member..!!! LOBBY!!! Didn’t think she would come, but so glad she did..(: I met Lobby and e rest of the sports class sec1s during this outreach BBQ for all sec1s. prob bcuz I am a sports player, I managed to bond with them quite well.. tt friendship then wasn’t bcuz I had to mk friends since it was an outreach. It was more of, I reli enjoyed talking to them, and it sort of reminded of 2h’03. all e complaints of how teachers treat them unfair, how teachers belittle them, and of cos how trainings are titing but rewarding etc. did try to get lobby and the rest to come for cell, but she didn’t seem to mk it. So when I saw her yest..i was shocked.. (: pleasantly surprised.., hope I will see helmet soon. (:

We played captains’ ball instead of the book since Lobby was here. N I guess we reli enjoyed ourselves.. (:

Btw..
Lobby=Rachel (she is called Lobby because her face turns red vv easily- she act reminds me of twin)
Helmet=cheryl ( she is called helmet because her hair is exactly like a helmet.. but she is cute (: )

Aft cell, I had a fair share of whining to ppl abt how I needed to go back to Yio Chu Kang ALL BY MYSELF.. thankful though tt I had Margaret jie and Chin hang ge who could send me down the long AHS slope..so it was supposedly left with the mrt ride tt I would be alone.. when I reached the tanah merah platform.. I saw kai xiang! He is a tpjc senior.. whom I act never talked to before.. but he recog me and I recog him..haha and yest was e first time we talked.. (: he is reli a nice guy.. nice person to talk to. And he was gg to somerset.. so in e end, he pei me until I was left with 8 stops alone! Yay!! Hee..

To kai xiang: erm ok u wont ever read this, but I reli enjoyed talking to u..and of cos sms-ing u now. (: and u noe wad, I will definitely be praying for your admission to uni.. may u be tt person tt will impact others’ lives soon(:

And from yio chu kang, my grandfather offered to fetch me.. so.. I reli wasn’t alone for long!! Yay!! (:

Sunday
Today was supposed to go church, but in e morning wasn’t feelin too well.. so aft a long time deciding, decided to rest at home.. prob gg out later to cut my fringe.. hmm wonder if I shd..haha..I reli njoy tp.. reli love the friends tt I made..i mean in class.. but in table tennis.. I feel so.. left out.. like they r all from NAS.. and all.. so ther reli clique tog and I reli cant blend in.. so I am always alone. Sitting there alone and all.. shd I quit table tennis? I love table tennis, but I cant seem to blend with the peep.. maybe I shd quit.. maybe tts e end of table tennis for me. But I say this with a heavy heart.. bcuz I prob love table tennis too much to leave. Wad shd I do..and i also feel so alone.like i am not in the lives of my jc2 ahs friends anymore.. and now tt i cant mk it for cell animore, i also feel tt i am not part of them.sudd feel totally new. like all i can rely on is the new friendstt i noe for 1 week..the only comfort is prob, like the songs i sang on sat. alot of reminder that i am not alone, and tt He is with me in everything, everyplace, everywhere tt i go..

Don't you ever wish you were someone else, you were meant to be, the way you are exactly. Don't you ever say you dun like the way you are, when you learn to love yourself, you're better of by far.

nice verse from a song "stay the same." go figure!

prayer:
- kai xiang's uni admission
- anna, qi xi, eunice MYE
- JC2 friends in their studies
- me adapting with school life

Labels: i am me, like it or not

your name wrote at ;; 12:11 PM

Wednesday, April 25, 2007

i mus type fast fast fast.. haha.. cux the connection can die on me anytime.. :p

school has alr started.. to those hu have been prayin for me, and wishin me well.. thank u. reli appreciate it.. (: err grace.. sorry always reply u so short.. bcuz u sway la.. always msg me when my phone batt dying.. :p

kk abt sch.. i made firm friends alr.. sorta called clique.. haha.. but the class reli quite fun tog. (: hmm.. lectures are darn long now.. 2hrs.. but it always ends early so tts good.. (: lessons are interesting bcuz its reality.. (; this week has been slack beczuse there is no tutorial la.. so all lectures.. today i onli needa go school at 2. haha.. tmr no sch! hehe.. isnt it great! (:

yest i went shoppin with my poly friend.. bought the sandals i always wanted.. and a pair of shorts.. and had my first ever carls' junior..its nice but huge.. :S aft shoppin, went to meet son.. had a great talk la.. but. e day ended with some disappointments... :( also got to talk alittle to mr wilson.. haha.. hope u r doin fine!! and if u r readin, how's ms chan and mr eugene? help me send my regards to them k. (: thanks!

cell outing
went for cel outing on sunday.. played bmt.. played withalmost everyone except pei wen, and shuling who's sick.. (tk care girl) and aining ( who came for dunno wad since she was so late) and lingting(who came for dinner onli) play with lianghan until i almost died..haha.. vv challenging but vv tired..lol.. play until vv pia.. den played with wei xuan. tts when i hurt myself.. ya ya ya ankle again.. lol.. liang han say its bcuz my pride is on the line. tts why so pia.. haha.. wadeva.. anw it is jus a ligament pull..(:

summary
i am doing fine in YCK..although i still dun like the fact tt it is so far..!! but the good thing is.. the place is reli comfy.. (: and at least ive got a home.. but i miss my house!!!! anw i prob gtg.. in case i cnt post in e end.. but.. will be back soon!! (: meanwhile, everyone.. tk care and smile!! (:
to **: i noe u r feelin beta.. on the outside.. how abt doing smth for the inside now?
to U:disappointed.. tt u would say tt.. but some part of me refuse to believe u act said tt.
perhaps i shd jus give up on everything..i am beginning to fear smth i have never feared

Labels: away from home

your name wrote at ;; 10:34 AM

Wednesday, April 18, 2007

ahhhh!! i am homeless..

seriously.. i am now "secretly" using marcus's laptop to blog :p.. cux i am in church now. whilst mummy goes to a meeting, before she fetches me and bring me to a hotel.. yes.. i am staying at a hotel..

today morning... 9am.. ppl came into my house. thats when i realised.. mummy is not intending to jus do the wires.. its the whole house.. lol.. we had to evacuate immediately.. and my my.. before i even started, dust and cement were fallin on my stuff alr.. yes tt is how effecient they are.. haha.. now i need a place to stay for 2mths at least.. ARGH!! kinda sian..

anw.. 2 ppl in my life are like facing disappointments.. one is my bro.. and one is.. ____ all ppl close to me.. :( bro had a comp today.. played vv badly.. he said.. "there is always ups and downs in sports" but i noe he is upset.. :(

anw.. i may not be able to use the internet often bcuz i dunno where tt i stay will have internet.. :( so.. ciao ppl.. do msg me k.. though i may not reply :p

tmr school's staring,. kinda nervous.. new life.. and i am gg to sch from a hotel. like wad a move! haha.. ppl do pray for me k.. for our moving and all.. thanks!

my house beta turn out well..

prayer:
- **'s disappointment
- my family as we adapt to our change
- my bro to overcome with the disappointment
- school tmr for me, cliques and all.. (:

disappointed tt i still dun see any respond from her.. wonder if you told.. hope u did..dun tk it all urself k..take care..i will reli be praying for u..hope to see u smile on sat (:

Labels: hope all is well for you

your name wrote at ;; 8:34 PM

Tuesday, April 17, 2007

woke up at 10 plus.. all thanks to.... _______ -_-

was only hungry at ard 1 plus.. so decided to cook noodles.. cook fin alr.. looked at the bowl of noodles vv longing-ly.. took my first mouth.. hmm.. ok.. took a second mouth... oh my.. it is certified.. dead.. there was no taste at all!! think bcuz i added too much water.. :( decided to salvage by adding an egg into the bowl of noodles.. but the egg couldn cook.. so the whole bowl of noodles.. was ruined! argh!!!!

LUCKILY met shuling afterward for ben and jerry's.. supposed to go with chyr.. but i was havin bad cramps..:( but in e end.., decided i have to get out of the house if not i will be food-less! hehe.. so i went and queued for the ben and jerry's.. haii singaporeans... =X i reli dun wan to admit i act queued for a FREE CONE.. lol.. but anw.. ate the ice cream and went to tamp to shop for a BAG.

in e end.. i got a shirt instead.. haha.. it always happens la..haha.. shop for the wrong thing.. :P and shuling dared me to say this on my blog.. SHULING ACTUALLY SAID I GOT A flat chest.. thanks woman.. herh.. urs not meh. lol.. but i reli njoyed e shoppin.. tried clothes over and over again..haha.. (: i bought a shirt from giodano. and.. HAHAHA ths shop keeper act peeked at my card to see my name.. and said.. "thank you miss cassandra".. :p and i think he has a great voice! oops.. haha..

ouch.. it hurts.. icantdoanythingtohelpyoufeelthepainrelidobuticandonothingithurtsitrelihurtsinoeyouarehurtinmorewhycantibeherefor youpleasebehappysoonpls tkcareerainbowwillbeoutforusomehowdeibelieveinyouirelidopleasepleasebehappypleasetellherabtitpleasedun takeallthesealonecheer uprelihopetoseethecheeryuagaineverythingwillbealrightbecauseGodlovesyouandunoethat
prayer:
- **
- **
- **
So do not fear, for I am with you; do not be dismayed, for I am your God. I will strengthen you and help you; I will uphold you with my righteous right hand.--- Isaiah 41:10-11

SOME TRUST IN CHARIOTS AND SOME IN HORSES, BUT WE TRUST IN THE NAME OF THE LORD OUR GOD.--- PSALM 20:7
sorry i couldn do anythin to support u.. sorry im not e one to accompany u through this.... God please take away any hurt in him... please hold him in Your hands.. let him get over any sadness soon.. and be happy again. pray tt she will be able to accompany him thru this too.. God.. please please please watch over him.thank you Lord.. in Jesus most precious name. Amen!

Labels: pls dun be sad

your name wrote at ;; 10:38 PM

today is a bz day.. (: ok not bz. but at least i didnt rot at home. (:

met jeremy at TP today at 1130.. i went to hand in my forms, and he went to get some transcript thingy.. ate at TP.hmm the food is act worth it.. and the food taste good too.. (: and yay! Jeremy drove! haha.. aft eating, we went to TM to get the tickets for the show "Freedom Writers".. aft tt, we went to Siglap for tea.. chat alot.. and reli enjoyed the catching up session.. went back for the show..

the show is nice..haha.. err duno how to describe la.. jus tt.. yea... we shd reli give respect to every single person we know or dun noe lo.. (: and reli.. wad we say and do, may affect someone directly or indirectly..

aft the movie, we went for dinner.. shilin plus bubble tea.. which i didnt finish cos shilin was way too spicy for me. :( and chat again.. abt our future.. abt our parents' jobs.. then we went to macs.. to do the present i am giving qi xi. (: and WAITED FOR MO REN(somebody) met mo ren and went to cartel to help mo ren do his project work.. haha.. mo ren owes me 2 treats.. :p as i said. i will force my way to get the cartel cakes.. haha..

but i didnt enjoy the cake.. :( bcuz... i started havin bad tummy ache... haha.. so oso couldn focus on project work ( sorry wei xiong) hehe.. but still finished it i guess.. called my mom to send me home bcuz my stomach was reli acing bad.. waited for my mom for so long.. and i confirmed my tumy ache to be cramps.. and i had 2 MEN lecturing me abt eating cold and bla.. lol. thanks ar mr kan wei xiong and mr jeremy hong. haha.. but thanks for waiting with me.. (:

tmr is an uncertain day.. full of uncertainties.. am i gg shopping? i dunno.. am i gg for a movie? i dunno.. dun like uncertainties. but the pple involved dun seem to be replyin me..:( or am i gg tjc tmr..

speakin of tjc.. I AM NOT WITHDRAWN YET bcuz if a stupid library book. soon i shall go and report lost and pay tt fine and finally be WITHDRAWN from tjc.. ARGH.. congrats jud for getting champion for the 100m heats.. wished i was competing too.. weixuan.. i reli pray you will make it for the selection, and if u dun, pls dun be upset.. bcuz all for the glory of God.i always will rem wad u told me, abt how you leave your bball to God.. i reli pray tt everythin will be in His hands, and no matter wads e outcome, you will accept it.. (: but i still hope u get in. :D

seriously, its all abt having child like faith

prayer:
- GQ's church and his faith
- my programmes tmr
- my QT material
- **'s bball selection tmr.

God i pray Father that if it is Your will, may weixuan get into the team bcuz God u noe he wants it so badly and you know how hard he is trying. Father, i pray Lord that no matter what the outcome is, that You will be with him, and tt he will thank You all the same.. Father, help him not be nervous during the selection. Father help him not be anxious. Father help him play his best like never before, all for Your glory. thank you Father, and with all praise leave weixuan in Your hands. in Jesus most honoured name i pray, Amen!

Labels: praying hard for u

your name wrote at ;; 1:27 AM

Monday, April 16, 2007

thanks SHULINGGGgggg for the blogskin.. i love e new look! and i managed to get my slides back!! but now alot of ppl also have slides.. :x but anw.. the image is supposed to be on top of the post.. directly above.. but i have to put my slides in.. BUT... haha i think it is quite artistic now.. (: (:

Saturday
met scared and loud ( corine and shuling ) for lunch. before lunch me and cor went to do... MANICURE!! she did pedi! haha.. my mani.. i do is not express tt kind.. so got those massage etc. haha.. nt bad la. haha.. cor say like tai tai!! lol.. but this kinda thing also not always do de la... once in a yellow moon..(yellow more frequent :p) bcuz mine took AGES!!, cor and shuling went for lunch first.. in e end, as expected, i had no time for lunch.. :( grabbed sushi, and cor went to buy drinks for their cell's outreach aft service.. then we cabbed to church..

sat with shuling and corine for first time.. (: and pei wen jie too! (: sermon was how to glorify God in your studies.. here's some main points..

- we should find joy in studyin because it is GOD's blessings, and He wants us to participate in His kingdom

- protestant's work ethic

a) work hard

b) save dilligently

c) offer generously

- ways to honour God in studies

a) Dont't waste time

b) Don't waste our opportunity

c) don't waste our talent

verse for e day: 1 peter 2:9-10

act still got alot of main points.. the sermon was vv.. understandable and applicable.. but.. bcuz of the sermon.. i got a little affected la.. shant say why here. (:

cell was alittle unprepared.. as a CGL, i forgot to assign who's to do word tt day.. so in e end i did lo. and bcuz alot of seniors did not come.. ( i wonder why) there was no worship.. we had a round of sharing instead. and bcuz they r all sec 1s, sharing had to be done in a game way.. (: but they shared.. and enjoyed laughing and listening to each other.. the lang barrier is slowing getting better.. (: for bible reading, i made half the class read in chinese, and half read in eng.. most of the china girls were made to read eng, and the singaporeans chi.. tts to reli make them step out of their comfort zone la.. and to reli overcome the lang barrier.. (: it went quite well.. the cell was restless (as always) but it went quite well. (: thank God. and thanks mr wilson for listening to me whine..

at night, we went to KFC for dinner.. long time since we went there. there was this period of time tt we would go their every fortnight!haha.. sat with my 2 disciples. reli needa spend more time with them. esp now tt i have a new cell, i sorta leave them on their own, resulting in some prob with one of my disciple.. haii.. :( aft tt.. the oldies.. i mean.. the older peeps- ming li, shuling, van and i went for cartel's half priced-cake.. haha.. and apart from being half price, tt's $2.30.. me and van shared a piece cux we were fulL! so it cost us $1.15 each onli.. haha.. we talked alot, from boot camp (aww...) to student camp last yr to student camp this yr.. abt families, to ren ai.. many many.. abt ren ai camp last yr, i also explained the bathing incident.. to van who was present. reli glad we could jus talk so casually.. someday i will tel van how scared i was of them.. :p or if u r readin, can ask me. haha.. (:

tts abt it lo.. went home and slept quite early (: and thanks dearest mummy for buyin me a new fan aft jus hearin me complain how not strong the old fan is.. she went to buy at 12:30 am.. and in e mornin today, i realised how cold i was feelin.. tts my mom.. always so effecient. i wonder where i got my slow and not effecient genes from.. hmm..

sunday

woke up alittle late for service but made it on time.. ming han ge led worship! was like smiling to myself like a fool. bcuz he so long never lead, bcuz he said he need to settle some stuff with God.. but now tt he is back to leadin jus goes to show tt everything is settled! (: it was also anglican high's dedication service for the GB girls.. cute how young they are, but all with tt confident look on their faces.. while watchin the slide show, i was brought back to the times in AHS.. when we sec4s were like kings! haha.. and my clique tt will never part.. (: Grace, Chyr, Jul, Qi!! i miss all of u!! :( all the fun they had.. reminds me of all the fun we had.. all the.. hitting of each others ___ and slpin in classes.. gg toilets tog, finishing up tt a maths qns tt always seem hard to fin before gg recess.. doing up notice boards and preparing for performances.. many many.. aww...

aft service i went to kope food tts supposed to be for the guests :P aww.. comeon its jus bee hoon.. haha..had a nice talk with samuel.. and had loads of fun with le le.. haha.. tool alot of pic! but the nicest is with chin han ge.. and i suppose he wont be comin online today :(

aft tt went to watch floorball organised by the sports ministry ppl. haha i wanted to play.. but of all days i was wearing a skirt. :( so had to have discipline to sit and watch lo. u noe how restless i get watchin ppl play sports and me not being able to :( but anw.. i decided to sign up for the nite cyclin. hee.. from ECP to SENTOSA! aint tt cool!! haha.. (: shuang! tts wad i like! cycling!

thanks chin han ge for talkin to me today abt the sermon yest. though i still stubbornly not und.. i noe u und how i felt. thanks.. (: and thanks for promising to send me tt photo! :P i want to understand!

thanks allen for sendin me to TM.. (: was supposed to meet bro there, but last min change of plan so went home.. was so tired.. ambitiously tried to watch the serial i was watchin, but fell aslp soon aft the song at the start of the show finished.. :p. and when i woke up, it was 10pm. supposed to meet wei xiong at 10pm to do stuff.. but in e end change of plan. haha. change to tmr.. (: and i have got a good idea man wei xiong.. instead of meeting at macs tmr..lets meet at cartel for half priced cake! anw u cant say no. :P the aunt amy rum cake makes me go whoo! haha..bcuz u caused me to have no dinner tonite! :P :P

tmr i will have smth to do. cheers to Jhong who is as bored as me.. haha.. (: and thanks to wei xiong who can onli make it so late tmr.. :p

"the main thing is to keep the main thing the main thing"

so was wad i act heard wrong? why is this stil affectin me anw.

prayer:

-mr wilson to be able to cultivate a healthier prayer habit

- my 3 disciples' studies

- my cell's studies

- nadiah, who is sloggin at tjc all by herself now.. :(

- * and **'s relationship

- my last week to be fruitful, esp used to catch up with ppl

Labels: cartel cakes

your name wrote at ;; 12:02 AM

Saturday, April 14, 2007

yay i am back!! hee..told u the blog skin makes me not excited abt bloggin.. :(

this week has been relatively boring.. :( hmm

monday
i packed my room!! i mean like reli pack! took pic of b4 and after. and i am amazed myself!! (: *one pat on cass' shoulder* and thus, i eagerly migrated back into my room.. from mummy's room.. (: hmm smth cool abt monday.. i wore my pyjamas in e morning, packed my room, till evening and bathed and changed back into.. PYJAMAS! hee..

tuesday
my most exciting day of the week i guess.. (: met chyr in the morning.. then went to eastpoint to get poppers and all.. called for pizza delivery.. to be sent to tjc.. at 12.20 sharp! me and chyr headed for tjc.. told grace and qi i wanted to tk pic with them in sports com since its my last day. so w/o suspectin, they came over.. den we took our first photo.. as in i took them. haha.. chyr, who was alr hiding outside the OAC room, sticked out her hand purposely so i could capture her hand.. den i prompted grace they all to see e photo.. den realised.. theres a hand!!! so they went up. and SURPRISE!! they saw chyr! (: warm surprise i guess! (: den we cont to tk photo.. haha. den aft tt i said smth dumb. but tts bcuz i dunno wad to say alr and i wanted to eat pizza!!

cass: LET'S FIND A LOCKER WITHOUT A LOCK!

then everyone blur.. like it was tt random.. haha. den i jus opened the locker tt alr contained the pizza.. and tada! everyone laughed at my stupidity and sillyness in e way i revealed the pizza.. haha.. but for the sake of the pizza.. i dun mind.. hee.. we made qi and grace blow their candles.. andme and chyr alr bought trick candles.. haha.. so we made them blow. andthe moment they blow, the candles will come on again. it wun stop! haha.. so funny!!! lol.. i kept laughing like a fool! hehe. aft awhile they gave up.. tts when we told them abt the trick candle.. :p funny.. ate and catch up and chat.. (: den me and chyr went bugis.. walk walk.. before meetin my twin for dinner.. at pasta mania.. haha. had a nice time chatting and jokin. went for half price cake *as usual* before gg home.. (:

wednesday
did nth until i went to meet my son for dinner.. (: chat alot. abt church, abt relationships, etc..tried the downstairs hong kongcafe.. notbad la.. i suppose.. beta than upstairs.. ambience was there.(: chat alot alot.. den went to meet wei xiong at 11pm.. to help him with some stuff.. stayed at the macs till 1am.. mummy picked me up.. (: enjoyed the chat with wei xiong also.. laughing at the childishness of all the pple there.. haha (:

thursay
DID NTH TOTALLY

friday
went to sch to tk my pw results.. got a B.. nt rel happy la. but i guess.. all of us didnt do too well. and i reli think it is bcuz of no moderation.. hmm.. like my class had no As at all.. and i heard SAJC onli got 8 ppl got A? hmm.. nvm la..act it doesn affect me.. jus feel tt some of my friends do deserve A or at least B but got C.. felt bad for them. instead of consoling, i joked with them. (: saw mr wilson..haha had a brief chat! *hope ur wireless is up soon!*oh on the way to sch.. smth BAD happened.. ARGH..

i took a cab from home.. this is wad happened..

c: Uncle Temasek JC
d: at tampines ar
c: no no.. bedok south
d: orh ok
*he droved off.. and at the highway there was this turning to go into tampines.. sensing he is gg to turn, i said*
c: uncle go straight
d: orh ok
*continues to turn and enters tampines*
c: uncle i am going bedok south leh.. not tampines
d:wa lao
*cont to drinve until reach Teamasek Poly*
c: uncle i said bedok south!
d: wa lao
*drives on*
*sudd stop bcuz he got sms. he reads his sms before driving off again.*
* starts playin with his dentures, mking alot of irritating noises*
*drove up SImpang Bedok!*
c: uncle i said Bedok South!
d: ya i noe
*drives down from Kechil road, which is a total waste of time, cux he jus went up and down instead of jus go straight*
c: uncle i am rushing to get my A level results! (ok i noe this is alittle exxagerating but i was angry)
d: wa lao
*another msg came and he stopped at this bus stop to read and reply!*
*finally reached school.. cost12 plus*
c: uncle i usually only pay 6 plus
d: den u dun say 6 wad.. 6.10 and 6.90 oso 6 plus! *fiercely*
c: ok 6.10
d: no 6.30
c: fine

*paid and left quite pissed!*

see.. how to not be angry.. worst case i ever met man! argh!!!but ok la.. aft seeing my friends.. forgot abt it.. good natured cass. :p

went to bugis with dang shi grace and hui hua.. haha. had some lame game.. grace and hui hua wanted to let me and dang shi lose them bcuz we were supposedly "married" haha.. but me and dang shi are smart pple so in the end. they lost us! yes! haha..

went for cell.. and ohman cell is interesting. act talked abt sheep and shepherd. den sudd dunno who talked abt pre destination.. which i duno how linked to sharing of the experience me and shuling had at FCBC.. which led to holy laughter.. which led to speaking in tongues.. and led to choosin to believe God's works instead of bein skeptical.. which led to me sharing abt... smth.. haha.. reli interesting.. (: was quite a heated discussion.. ok maybe not heated.. enthusiastic! like.. everyone took part! haha.. so exciting.. and i think it was likang han who started. haha. his RJC brain tot of the predestined topic. (: and we were all interested.. (:

tmr i am gg out for lunch with shuling and corine.. excited bcuz i am finally gg to try manicure.. corine trying pedicure.. oops am i starting to be vain.. haha its reli fascinating to see ppl doin nails so dedicatedly.. maybe bcuz i can never do it.. :p alrite wad a long post.. (:

anw.. i jus counted the coins that i have saved since young.. quite nostalgic.. haha.. cux like last time.. no money inside.. den i will try to dig jus for 70cents so tt i can buy ice cream.:P i emptied all the coins, and found... tt i have 16 dollars.. exculding all the one and five cents coins.. changed for notes with mummy. and bcos of this, i think i will prob do the full mani+pedi tmr.. maybe la.. haha.. sudd feel like i wan to save money.. (: and whilst countin, i am reminded of the discipline i had in pri sch,, to save a 50cents coin everytime i go home.. from tmr onwards.. shall save a 2dollars note everyday. (: hee..

finally.. i wan to say this
disclaimer: not meant to mk anyone jealous!

I WANT TO THANK GOD FOR THE 10 HOURS SLEEP I GET EVERYDAY.. IT REALLY RE-CHARGES ME.. AFTER ONE YR OF JC LIFE, I RELI DUNNO WAD IT FEELS LIKE TO HAVE A 10 HOURS SLEEP. THANK GOD THAT THOUGH I ALWAYS GRUMBLE OF BEING VV BORED... AND HAVING NTH TO DO, YOU LET ME HAVE A GOOD REST, AND FIND PEACE IN THE HUSTLE AND BUSTLE LIFE THAT I LIKE. GOD KNOWS I LIKE A BUSY LIFE, BUT HE USED THIS TIME TO KEEP MY PACE SLOW.. TO REST AND RECHARGE, AND SMELL THE FLOWERS ALONG THE WAY. THANK YOU JESUS (:

ready for what's ahead..

prayer:
- yanhui's relationship prob
- mr wilson's church mission team
- friends who are not satisfied with pw results
- * and ** who are nt happy abt pw results
- kiat shing's spiritual walk with You
- my spiritual walk with You
- my fear...

Labels: smelling flowers

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Sunday, April 08, 2007

im listening to at the cross now.. gr8 song!! (: praise Lord!!

Friday

Its Good Friday!! a day to commerate the day tt Jesus died on the cross for us, out of LOVE..it was reli great to see so many youths on sunday again.. (been like a yr since so many youths took up the front few pews..:D) the service was a reflective one. after every few verses, diff pastor will speak and, i will reflect and praise Lord! Jesus died for us on the cross.. He was the sacrificed lamb.. He did nothing wrong, nothing at all. but He took up the cross, and died for us..

*reflection: it is not tt i dunno of His love, it is tt i choose to tk it for granted, and dismiss the thought of it, thus continue living my life at it is..*

after service, me, cor and shuling went to bugis to get things we needed. me and cor got the SAME wallet!! (: jus tt mine is the longer kind. *FRIENDS, PLEASE STOP CASSANDRA FROM SPENDING!* ok ok.. act it is not splurging.. it is.. jus buyin stuff i need! serious.. i bought a new phone *needed*, a new wallet *needed*.. and now.. i wanna buy a bag.. *needed* but i am broke.. hmmm.. soon..(:

aft buyin and all, we went to commonwealth, to this church called Queenstown Methodist. attended a combine service there, and wad was spoken was reli good. ABout God being the vine and us the branches.. about us having to bear fruits.. about testimonies not onli in church, but oso out of church. about not tkin up soo many service areas, and neglecting our basic life with our family. reli a vv realistic sermon.. (:

at nite.. we went to ikea at queenstown for dinner.. it was like CROWDED! y do ppl go ikea to eat? is e food reli nice.. i tot it was jus ok.. anw.. aft tt we went to queensway (shoppin centre selling loads of sports stuff) but bought nth! jus walked randomly.. and tada. we went home..thank God for zhi hao ge who drove a van tt day and could send all the pasir ris tampines ppl.. (:

Sat

went to church early to.. ahem.. let ming li try helpin me do french manicure.. which turned out... hehe.. lol.. but anw thanks mingli! enjoyed the process though the outcome was alittle.. nvm practice mks perfect! u can ask me to be the tester again any time.. (:

went for service, which was evangelistic..there was this guest speaker who was reli quite cool and bilingual.. she didnt look like she was serving in youth ministry, but she reli could connect (i feel)

aft service we immediately proceeded to this red bean game.. whereby u play scisssors paper stone and if u lose u have to give one red bean to the winner.. so u jus try to earn red beans.. and.... I LOST! (according to some, i keep coming out stone but i seriously didnt realise.) so anw, i had to do forefeit (i was the oldest doin tt forefeit and it was a vv image-spoiling forefeit!) so jus did with the younger ones lookin xtra stupid.. :p

aft tt they watch eight under.. i watched it before, and had to leave early for class outing.. so i left and met dearest 26/07! had like e fullest dinner ever! each ate like 3 pieces of pizzas( i ate 2 since the last wasnt nice *i reli onli like hawaiian*) and may drumlets *which rocks btw* and soup.. man we were like bloated!!! chit chatted with the class.. and had a great time as usual :p aft tt pong treated us to ice cream cone.. yay! *did i jus say we were bloated!!!!*

sun

went for easter service.. JESUS resurrected!! HE is a LIVING GOD!! it is reli undeniable!! like how he came out of tt tomb w/o removing the rock tt covered it.. the easter service was evangelistic so it was kinda informal.. kinda weird seeing mu shi and all not wearin robe.. and the ending song wasnt a hymn. (: talked to my sec1 cell aloysius aft service.. reli thank God I am a table tennis player.. so even if he is vv closed up to alot of others, he opens up to me once i start the conversation with table tennis (: and he is coming on sat!! for cell!! (: act he doesnt come on sat.. (:

aft tt went for lunch with shuling and gab (lao pa) at tm.. aft talkin and eating, me and shuling left for expo..

we attended the healing service at FCBC..expo was SO CROWDED!! it was an exposure since we have never been to one.. the worship and sermon was good.. (: then it was the healin part.. the pastor invited all who needed healing to go forward.. alot went.. i didnt at first.. aft singing and praying, i decided to go..it was kinda overwhelming, seeing God's works right before my eyes.. ppl healed and all.. (: praise Lord! i guess i still couldn admit the real prob with me even until e point when i went down.. :(

aft the service, we went to get orange julius before gg to white sands to meet gab again.. ate at the new kopitiam.. and now i m here (:

the past 3 days reminded me again of God's love. Yes we fail Him, we often do.. Yes we sin, we always do.. Yes we disappoint Him, we often do, but His grace covered all of that. He forgives, He has mercy and He loves.. (: when we are lost, He draws us back.. Just like when one sheep is lost, a shepard will leave the rest and look for it, He also seeks us.. He wants to come into our lives. BUt our hardened hearts often reject this love.. and smth impacted me..

When you feel inferior, you are sinning, cuz He loves you so much!!- pastor Kong
please rem this cass!

even when i fail You, i know You love me...

prayer
- for the non christians in AHS who have heard of the gospel during these 3 days, tt their hearts wil be softened.
- for the student camp prep
-mrwilson's decision to tk up tuition ministry or not
- my spiritual health
- my time management
- patience
- * and ** to be able to accomodate each other, and to show Jesus' Love to one another..

Labels: Jesus is love

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Thursday, April 05, 2007

i must say.. the template thingy is mkin me lose interest in bloggin.. but o wells..shall fill in abt my life..

err.. on sec thoughts.. shall jus write bout today..

went to church in the morning to help out with the holy week stuff.. learnt to fold a cross with ketupat leaves, and it reli looks cute (: whilst busy teachin the kids (ok i meant sec 1-4) how to fold, i saw the passion in their eyes for the crosses they were mkin.. at the same time, i knew they were lost sheeps.. all of them.. reli wanted so badly to tell them of this God who loves them..

one of the activity was also to nail their qns or messages about God on this plank.. like reli usin nails and hammers.. i walked past and saw qns like,

"when will i die?"
"where is God"
"where are You"
"will i get 10 As?"

these qns come from mostly non christians.. qns tt show they r reli lost.. i posted a qns too.. do You see me when i am sad?

i noe e ans.. jus.. knowing and having the faith sometimes is reli 2 diff things..

aft tt, had a friendly debate with my uncle ( who is 19 who is pastor Loh's son :P) and he's my uncle!! haha.. anw.. we were debating abt emo kid. he says they are jus wellowing in self - pity.. i feel tt there must be a reason why they want to hurt themselves. unless u certify tt they are insane. maybe they lack the love, maybe they reli feel vv hurt.. i feel we shd go into their lives and und them.. hehe.. and pastor koh came in jus in time, and sided me!! hehe uncle u lose!

anyways.. den i sat in the church library waiting for trng at TP to start.. there, i fin reading the book daniel gave me-- from faking it to finding grace.. reli good book (: aft tt, i reli stoned there for awhile.. den i decided to take a walk outside e library, and i saw pastor Koh.. act at tt moment, i got alot of things to share with him tt previously he asked but i couldn share.. jus when i was abt to share, shao wen jie came, and we started talkin abt my decision to poly etc.. "if u were my child, i would beat u to death for choosing this route"she said :(

pastor koh had to go so we didnt talk.. he lent me a book, and left.. i decided i didnt want to stay in church too, so i left despite being early.. on my way out, i saw eileen.. she was super early for MM pract.. she's e WL, and she was so early.. we decided to go 85 market for dinner..

at first it was alittle weird.. aft all, i never talked to her like personally b4.. so was abit.awkward.. but soon, we talked alot.. and reli.. touched onto topics tt, we nv would share normally.. she shared her story, and i listened, vice versa.. we chat for like 2hrs? many things tt i tot she wun understand she understood, and many she tot noone will und i did.. guess it was His plan tt we met outside church.. nice talk sis ! (:

guo rong called to say trng cancelled.. i was like.. wad!! i waited for nth. but then i was reminded.. if i didnt stay, wouldn get to talk to eileen, and if there was trng,i would have wasted money tkin cab.. :p so since no trng i went up to church again, to watch MM prac..

as i listened to the songs, i tot abt wad shao wen jie said, and wad eileen said.. and sudd i felt.. so.. lousy.. but now im fine... (: i guess worldly standards will have to stay, so prob i dun meet to worldly standards tts y..

thanks mr wilson for talkin me out and being there.. for listening to me whine and sulk.. and thanks for the 4 reasons why i will do ok in poly, esp the 1st, 2nd and 4th one.. (:

prob i jus dun meet the world's standards..

prayer:
-mr wilson to feel better and get his intimate walk with God back
- students in AHS to feel and see God's love, and soften their hearts
- cui fen jie and jia mi jie who seem to be sick
- tmr's prog to go well
- me sending in my withdrawal tmr
- my walk with Him to be back on track
- my old habit comin back
-me not to dislike mr moi for irritating me

Labels: worldly standards

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Sunday, April 01, 2007

my gosh.. i dunno wad i did! and the whole template is gone! so is the tagboard and all..SON PLEASE HELP ME!! for nw.. please comment instead of tag. sorry for inconvenience.. and erm.. some contents may be surprisingly different from wad u read b4..llike they suddenly pop up.. tts bcuz it sudd can be seen due to the template...ehh.. try not to read k. they are act supposed to be secrets.. erms..thanks.. i will do it up again soon!!

Labels: IN A MESS

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