Cassandra Loh

Wednesday, January 11, 2006

who can i blame when everythin happened bcuz of me.. anw for those hu r concerned.. yep we didnt patch back.. but hey it is ok.. bcuz i m moving on!!! =)i jus read this book "kissing dating goodbye" den i realised smth.. atrocious cassandra.. WHERE DID U PUT GOD IN UR WHOLE RELATIONSHIP WITH HIM?!?! suprising eh? wad a question.. in every relationship God shd be in the focus.. and i muz sae.. dat wasnt my focus when iwas with him.. God shd be in the middle of the relationshi[p, controllin everythin. we shd haf been suppporting each other in prayer and all.. but... tt seems to be non existent in our relationship... i guess.. if we did put HIM in us, it wouldn haf ended unpleasantly.. yep.. so smth to let u all ponder.. is every relationship u hafin now God-centred?? if no.. reflect ba.. and also.. in every relationship, marriage shd and muz be ur end goal.. u shd ba able to see it coming.. u dun haf a relationship jus for nth.. yep.. okok.. enuf of my nagging..

okok.. i shall go on with smth else... i realised tt ive moved on to diff stages in my spiritual growth vv quickly.. alittle too quicly i feel at tyms.. ok u see.. i onli started gg to church like.. in jan... but onli started gg to cell like in june.. from a newbie.. i became a leader in youth camp, den a cell grp "leader", den now i m like giving follow up sessions to pri 6... is it too fast?? but i reli hafta thank God, bcuz He haf always been quietly carrying me thru my doubtful moments, sad moments and He walked with me thryu my happy moments too... He may seem non existent but He's dere.. He quietly watches u as u His child fall and pick urself up.. He trains us in His own way how to face diff situations in life... He watch us grow and He guide us thru our trials or obstacles.. who is the He we're talkin abt? Our dear loving daddy above.. i reli duno how i can put to words e amt of UNCONDITIONAL love He has for us.. it is so amazing...lookin back, i ve not been a vv good child of His.. reli.. from the start of 2005, i go church as a "christian". yes a "christian" why " "?? bcuz. i dun live a christian life at all.. and i duno much abt HIm.. i still doubt Him, i still choose to do things e way i wan it to be.. den slowly slowly now i begin to realise.. how foolish i haf been to keep God outside e door. He keeps knocking at our door.. but we simply refuse to listen to the knocks.. ="(

wanna noe my new yr resolution? 1) love God more than anything
2) love myself
3) love my friends
4) love my family
there's more to it but i shant elaborate la.. yep.. okok.. now abt jc.. i was kinda forced to stay in track and field.. and trust me the training is no play play.. haha.. but okok.. wadeva it is.. we'll see how... =) so yep.. to pple reading this.. shall we all hunger for God like we never b4?? shall we believe that HE is the LORD GOD OF OUR LIFE WHO HAS EVERYTHING IN CONTROL!!!! AMEN!!!!!

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