yest i went to watch click with wei xiong and hoi shek.. haha.. weird combi.. but yea.. anw.. main pt is not the pple is the show.. ( anw i noe i abit laggy.. BUT i busy ma.. =( lol )
your name
wrote at ;; 10:57 PM
Tuesday, August 22, 2006
today ran my 2.4... ok everyone STOP nagging.. haha.. fact is i did it.. =p so ya.. let me describe the thingy man.. hee.. Tze Jie said that he would pace with me.. sweet of him bcuz i heard he sprained his knee and.. he already ran!! thanks man!!i ran 1st 3 rounds with vv vv good timings.. thankfully la.. den 4th round start to pain.. i was like.. sharks vv pain.. the ankle pain was unbearable.. i tried to bear.. but i couldn.. so i told tze jie.. i think i need to stop running.. so we stopped to walk awhile la.. den i decided to run again.. but the pain.. whoa!! was like.. a knife pokin me!! =( tze jie asked me if i wanted to stop.. i was like no way!! the other time i ran 3 rounds and stopped bcuz i couldn tk it.. and in e end.. wad a move la.. like..waste my energy ma...so i told him even if i were to walk the next two rounds.. i jus wan to fin it. yea.. so i walked a while more.. at tt point.. i noe i wun get my A.. =( den last round.. i told myself sprint cass sprint.. but..in e end.. i sprint the 1st 100m den vv pain again.. den i was like sharks la... den we walked again lo... so imagine my timing la.. den last part.. tze jie say sprint! i was like.. sian alr la.. my timing sure vv lousy ma.. so wads e point rite?? so i sian diao lor.. den i didnt want to sprint. but he started sprinting and told me i beta catch up with him.. i pushed lo.. and reli sprinted.. the pain jus sudd disappeared for tt few secs.. i managed to do a 14 i guess.. but aft tt.. i almost died la the pain!! =p but at least.. i rpoudly proclaim.. 5yrs straight gold! woots!
den i went for physio aft my chem mock spa la..sonya made me run again on treadmill and do skipping and sprinting.. den i discovered an ugly truth.. for the past 17 yrs.. i have been running with one hand swingin and the other resting.. manz.. how did i make it thru track?? lol.. den i got discharged la.. and darek HAD to give me a present b4 i left lo. he told the almost all e peep dere abt my blog.. AHHHH.. haha but they vv cute la.. they went to read and all.. den i left lo.. oh ya! and David said.. hope to see u again.. i was like choy!! no!!! den he say.. not here la.. blading.. den i was like orh.. haha.. like tt i sure dun mind.. =p
it was a lifestyle for me.. 6 mths.. made it my lifestyle.. but now.. it is back to the normal life.. and i have to get used to it.. Memories will always stay.. but reality always sets in..your name
wrote at ;; 11:48 PM
Monday, August 21, 2006
went for service.. den aft tt go sunday school. we discussed abt the internet and how it affects us nw la.. den like whether virtual church will ver be able to replace churches now.. my stand is no lor.. as in.. the pple is also impt.. fellowship.. yea.. den aft tt went with joy shop for my gown for the ball la.. haiz.. sianz lo i dun like these kinda things.. went to try a few dresses..all so.. off.. haha.. den she started enjoying herself by trying th clothes instead.. =P den we walked ard lo.. den we saw this roadshow la.. do mk up for free.. den she was like. go do la! free.. den.. b4 i noe.. i was alr sitting on a chair with mk up on my face.. lol.. so weird la.. den sudd YH appeared.. why did he have to appear when i was doin my mk up!! lol.. ya den aft tt we went shoppin somemore.. den still couldn find la.. in between got some interesting stuff like.. i tried a 1000++ gown. and didn noe it was so ex.. so malu la.. lol.. ya.. den aft tt joy asked YH to treat NYDC.. den.. act i didnt want to go but was sorta pulled to go lor.. yea.. den aft tt went to tk neoprint but the machine got prob!! we onli managed to choose 1 piuc and cant design! sianz..den aft tt i rushed to meet WX... den damm sianz. i kept missing the trains.. like i reach den jus nice miss.. den i was like so sianz la.. den finally reached airport. den rushed to skytrain dere.. but skytrain oso left =( den i saw Isaac...... den.. got like say hi la.. but abit cold cold de.. =( but anw.. ya den went to meet WX.. den okok lo.. den ended e day..
tday.. went to buy new sports shoes la.. den with ANTICIPATION i went to physio.. bcuz i noe tt i will be DISCHARGED.. but in the end.. i was late and so she say not enuf time for me to assess me bcuz discharge ma.. so have to wait AGAIN..mm was quite disappointed la.. den i injured my back again.. den nat help me ask darek to help me.. bcuz i was reli in pain..den act i dunwan ask him de. like weird weird ma.. but the pain was unbearable.. so i asked him lo.. den he helped me la.. he put hotpack.. 20mins.. den stil pain lehz.. den he said he couldn do much and all la.. bcuz he not my physio and bcuz my time is over or smth.. yeah.. den i oso dunno y i jus teared la.. bcuz reli vv pain ma.. den i was so embarrassed la..like infront of him lehz.. manz.. hehe. no face liao..
tmr i shall go physio again.. i shall try to get myself discharged again.. and i running my 2.4.. like i said in my previous post.. i reli like the pple dere.. but still.. physio.. errs.. i duno la.. so i still hope to discharge.. grace u noe why rite.. =)
*masked.. but not for long b4 the mask will be torn away and all will pour out*your name
wrote at ;; 10:48 PM
Wednesday, August 16, 2006
today's post shall be solely dedicated to tokin abt physio onli.. =)
on the 10th may.. had my first physio.. hated physio!! manz.. i did the ball thing.. and i felt like puking.. do until very giddy.. didnt like it at all...
supposed to like go once a wk.. but i always made excuse, eg: dance, council, trainings etc... jus dreaded going =(
On the 26th May.. aft physio.. i hurt my neck.. i think is neck la.. sonya already left.Darek and Pauline attended to me..they hot packed me for like 1hr!! and tot me some movements.. Darek kept sayin "u can do it.. come on.. move ur hand a little.. u can do it.. come on.. i noe it is painful etc.." whilst Pauline "good girl u can do it.. come on.." However aft 1 hr or so.. still no help.. so they had to send me to AnE.. den Darek helped me carry my bag and laptop.. reli vv gan dong.. haha.. he like a nanny lidat =p (oops dun scold me!) den like waited quite long... den finally can go in le.. den went in.. den they started speakin in foreign language.. reli!! wad spasm here and dere.. lol.. i reli didnt understand at all la... =p then aft see doc.. den darek sent me home.. but of cos.. cannot onli me ma.. like a girl and a guy and i dun even noe him.. wad if he is a.. haha.. ok nvm.. ya den he sent me home wioth a nurse in the car lor.. den b4 tt went macs to buy dinner.. his treat i think.. =) haven thank u leh.. thanks alot! =D den he sent me home lo.. tt is when i realised.. the pple here are quite nice aft all.. mmm...
On the 8th june... sonya dunno go where.. darek took over me.. hmm.. he took me for quite long.. slowly i started to enjoy the pple in physio.. although i was still quite sian abt it.. but.. at least i noe the pple are nice.. and they will go the xtra mile to care for us lo.. so i never dun go le.. i listen and be guai..
aft tt.. i go consistently twice a wk.. improved.. esp my planks.. i m sure they will all agree! my planks at first cant even do.. now can le.. =D
on the 16aug.. sonya told me that i could be discharged le.. vv happy of cos.. bcuz finally dun need to keep gg le.. but... when think awhile.. probably i will miss the pple dere.. o cos wun miss physio.. but the pple dere.. the bubbly fawzli who keeps askin me not to slouch, edmund who keeps cheekily laugh at me (from the 1st day!!), kit who always ask me to slow down if i cannot, sonya who always nags abt my shoes and my postures etc =p, darek hu never fails to tease me, pauline hu says i always yaks, david who always asks me ok not? =D these pple.. reli sweet... =D
21aug.. its most prob my last day.. mmm.. duno wad to say.. happy but bu she de.. yea..
to the peeps at CSMC.. thanks alot for being such great motivators and making my time at physio so much more enjoyable.. =D will miss u guys de.. =(
my journey to physio shd end here le.. well... guess tts life la.. always have to part de.. hopefully still can keep in touch ba.. =)
physio ends here... but will always rem u guys and wad u all did to my stubborn muscle and tendon and wadeva not.. =D come to think of it.. i paid the price for all the physios dere.. all tk me b4 leh.. hehe.. thanks guys!! u all rawk!!your name
wrote at ;; 10:49 PM
Tuesday, August 15, 2006
so disappointed with myself.. hai.. i tried my best.. ok maybe it was my fault. didnt listen to my parents.. physio.. teacher.. friends.. but.. i was jus tryin to prove myself.. i m left with nothing i can prove abt except sports.. but it failed me too...
i ran my first run with ease.. good timing of 1min plus.. 2nd round felt the pain.. but still 2minplus to 3 fin le.. den third round.. couldn tk it.. teacher saw me and asked me to stop..i stopped.. and i realised. my ankle is vv injured.. swollen.. then the pain started growin.. and soon.. i couldn walk.. wow.. mr fan ( my teacher) who happens to noe Darek(my physio) ask me to call physio and ask immediately wad i shd do.. lol.. i was like no need la.. rest can le.. den dey say no.. muz ask.. if not dey stand me str8 to physio.. bcuz swollen.. so i no choice lo. i called.. but of cos nv call for darek... called for pauline.. den.. ya lo.. she sae rest.. den mr fan say i shd go home.. he said " sorry i cant let u move ard in college" so no choice.. called my ma and went home.. yea..
disappointing isnt it.. but i doin my 5items.. and if possible retake my 2.4.. yea.. but tt one i think mr fan MOST LIKELY won let me =( but 5items.. WO ZHUO DING LE!
anw. also realised tt mr fan talks like darek.. haha..when he came to check on my ankle.. he spoke exactly like how darek would. haha.. super funny.. den he called darek.. ahem.. shan't say.. =p but he vv nice la.. although he ps me halfway.. k shant elaborate..and he said i was like his daughter.. =0
k i gtg study chem and geog. wad a BUSY week.. Manz..
*i wan to be able to do smth.. i dun wan to feel weak and tt i cant excel in anythin.. but i realised i cant do.. anythin..*your name
wrote at ;; 11:28 PM
Monday, August 14, 2006
whats going to happen to me?? why are my results dropping?? why cant i seem to study and get things into my head?? i m not angry with myself. i m disappointed.. reli disappointed.. and i m lost..
Daddy i wan to go home le.. take me home wil u?? i want to go home with u le.. to the place where nothing except u is impt. Daddy can u please hear me?? take me home... i am frightened.. abt wad to expect.. my heart is masked?? i wonder.. how do i manage to laugh in the day.. but end up cryin at nite? howamazing my heart is.. that i can cover my real feelings in the day...and onli release it when imhome..how amazing my face is. tt i can use those muscles to smile.. when it wants to cry.. i'm tired.. reli i am..take me home will u? i wanna go home..
* i m tired*your name
wrote at ;; 8:25 PM
Thursday, August 10, 2006
1) let go. we have to let go of all our burdens and all.. and reli jus trust in Him in everything u do lo.. trust as in reli trust everything.. even ur results.. or wadeva la. everything! believe that He is in control and we'll be on the way to an intimate walk with Him
2) we have to desire for Him.. desire as in reli desire..
3) we need to experience Him.. sometimes He is speaking but we cant hear.. bcuz we are too far away from Him
4) know with absolute faith that He knows u and He onli gives u e best..
there are more.. but these are the more applicable de..i think this was a timely talk la... bcuz u all noe.. i vv down these few days lo.. yea.. thank u Lord..
*God will make a way, when there seems to be no way..He works in way we cannot see.. He will make a way for me*your name
wrote at ;; 10:17 PM
have been feelin quite down.. bcuz of some stuff.. ok maybe many stuff.. crashin down tog.. i tot aft 3mths it was ok.. but i realised it wasnt.. i tot aft i tried my best everythin will turn out fine.. but it didnt... i tot... i could do it.. but i couldn..please Lord.. please dun do this to me.. please.. i need a break le.. i cant keep wearin this mask.. bcuz i will soon lose sight of myself.. who am i?? its gettin freaky.. bcuz i dun seem to noe myself..
Lord.... when i am weak, U are stronger rite?? when i am tired.. You'll carry me thru?? will You please carry me now.. bcuz i m tired.. so vv tired.. carry me home ba... i dunwan to go on lidat le...
*i tot i was strong.. *your name
wrote at ;; 3:02 AM
Wednesday, August 02, 2006
* lost...insecure... *your name
wrote at ;; 9:20 PM