Cassandra Loh

Sunday, May 24, 2009

if life was a roller coaster, i am very much sure this is the lowest point of the ride

i'm trying to swallow all the misunderstandings and accusations
i've seen the word worship twice
and i am not sure if they know the meaning of that word
why on earth do i need people to worship me
i dont even think of myself as anythin great
in fact these years like my friends know
are shit for me
so many big stuff happened to me
that i dun give a damn about people worshiping me

sometimes i am just so tired about everything
i mentioned that i still like table tennis
like means like
i determine what i like
who are you to determine whether it is like or stubborness

"last year and the year before we don't have enough players that's why we had to find her to come back and play for us" (i've been thinkin, who is us?)

"now she stubbornly refuses to leave, which is absolutely unacceptable for me, because when she comes back, the team's morale will be affected negatively to a certain extent"

this is quoted from the captain's blog
exact word for word
the other time i felt that wad he said to me was harsh
but i had no proof
and calmly thinkin, it may be cux we interpreted it differently
like i felt that it was harsh
but he didnt mean for it to be

but this time
i quote these 2 sentences straight from his blog
i never changed a single word
he also said that i was making up stories to make myself sound pitiful
what stories did i make up
all i said was that i was quarrelin with him and thats why i am not gg for trng
which i got comments that was an unacceptable reason
in which i accepted and apologised in my previous post
so if people know thats the reason
whats the sob story that he thinks people know?

i wonder if what he said he is speaking for the team and committee
or just for himself
cuz i went for trng on fri and it felt fine
unless everything was a facade as well

damn i am jus so tired to walk on

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