i am not sure if this is the life i want to be pursuing sometimes i wonder how come my life can change 360degrees in just like half a year oh well maybe i really need to re evaluate what i want in life like what i really want
thanks wx for tryin to talk to me but like i said prob i reli need to re evaluate what i reli want in life and prob muster all the courage before i decide to step into the life i was living before but still thank you for always being one of those who try to pull me back
i guess many htm yr 2 students will have the same sentiments as me it is FINALLY over SSM SSM SSM is OVER last thursday was my last week of SSM and i HAD to be the headwaitress i tell you i was freaking out since two nights before every now and then my mind will go back to the checklist of wad to do and wad not to but vv proud of the team bcuz like Mr Zainal said we reli did improve alot (:
and so jus as i promised myself, i went to DO SOMETHING about my hair immediately after ssm is over my my my hair was like a bush alr (for those who do not noe wad ssm is, it is a module whereby we work in a functioning formal dining restaurant, and it sorta function like in army. yea go figure) so ya we had to tie our hair into a bun ( and by bun i mean reli bun with NOT A SINGLE STRAND OF HAIR NOT IN PLACE THUS I DID NOT DARE TO CUT MY HAIR) and we had to have our hair in black (which meant i had to spray it black every wk) so ya today i went to dYe my hair and layer my hair phew i finally feel neat
exams are coming hehehe i shd start mugging SOON i wanna go for a leg massage first!!
oh ya thanks chyr for coming to support on thurs and thanks for leaving so late so we had more time to clean up without being timed:) and thanks for that comment you left on the comment form, which chef immediately identified was written by my friend :P
i have a few pic of me in ssm. shall upload next time when i have more courage :P
i feel so screwed oh God i feel so screwed ssm test thurs ssm proposal due thurs BESE proj due on fri geogtravel on fri geogtravel test mon
my results are like a mess everything is not going on smoothly now my results, my lessons.. after all those busy hustle bustle i feel like i am down to zero the emptiness is like engulfing me i am afraid so afraid of the world i am putting myself in i am afraid that i made wrong decisions that now i have to bear the consequences
some things i just kept to myself i feel like my heart is hardened hardened to feelings hardened to care i feel the mask grow thicker and thicker and i am starting to lose sight of everything
please tell me its not over please tell me it is not game over
sometimes it is really about perspective i remember the time me and son set at cartel of course that was when she still had that short short hair haha and we made a whole list of must haves but when it comes down to reality i think son will agree with me that it isnt reli all that impt so son, i am glad i gave you my support that time glad that you are still happy and that you never ever regret love ya!
i am now so bz though projs are mostly over left a few individual stuff but my exams are coming and i am quite screwed because i aint exactly vv on track so yea mugging time for me
anw i moved out of one more phase of my life the kallang phase though i didnt blog much i reli did enjoy myself there teaching these peeps english seeing them improve from literally zero building a bond with every single one of them so much so that the girls tell me everything i felt like a family there but i guess its time for me to move on cant keep staying there
i need to get my life back back onto the lit road wait for me, don't leave me behind....Jesus
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the girl
Cassandra Loh
Just a simple girl blessed richly by God
"Let go and let God"
"Safe in a simple world"
