Cassandra Loh

Sunday, January 20, 2008

autistic:
a pervasive developmental disorder of children, characterized by impaired communication, excessive rigidity, and emotional detachment.

whether or not to serve in children sunday school was a struggle
huge struggle
it just seemed politically right to serve in youth
after all my disciples are there
my age ppl are all there

it was actually a silent decision
pwj asked me a few times if i wanted to serve in children sunday school or youth
i just kept avoiding the question
then suddenly, i was not informed of all PABA activities
and i realised
the decision was alr made

discussed it with grace before
prayed about it also
finally, i made my decision

this year, nursery class seem to be a bigger challenge than last
despite havin only half of the size last yr
the kids required more attention
one of the four regulars is autistic

today i had a chance to interact more with him(usually i would be with the other kids so that one of the teachers could keep her attention on him only)
from the first lesson of the year
all i could hear from him was his screams
he refused to speak
not even a single word
whilst the teacher is teaching
he would stay at one side
hitting the pins with a ball and patiently setting the pins again(bowling)
today was no different
as the teacher who usually looked after him was busy with two other girls
i went to play with him
decided to try getting him to say colours

used the bowling pins
asked him for the colours
at the start
he ignored me
but slowly he treated it as a game
and he enjoyed it
he started shouting out the respective colours of the pins when i ask him

the joy i felt when i heard him is indescrible
the pronounciation wasnt accurate
nor was is clear
but he was happily laughing and shouting the colours
I was just overwhelmed with joy

God works wonders
Nothing is impossible
Like how He loves that boy
He loves all of us
He knows our weaknesses and our strengths
and He uses us in that special way
the way He planned when He created us
:)

*Stay hopeful!*
~Dear Jesus I pray for En Xiang. I pray that in Your own timing, You reveal Your plans for him. God, let him know that, he is no different from the other kids. He has Your love, and his family's too. May he grow in love. Thank you Lord, for loving us for who you made us to be. Amen~

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Casting Crowns - Stained Glass Masquerade

Is there anyone that fails
Is there anyone that falls
Am I the only one in church today feelin' so small
Cause when I take a look around
Everybody seems so strong
I know they'll soon discover
That I don't belong

So I tuck it all away,
like everything's okay
If I make them all believe it,
maybe I'll believe it too
So with a painted grin,
I play the part again
So everyone will see me the way that I see them

Are we happy plastic people
Under shiny plastic steeples
With walls around our weakness
And smiles to hide our pain
But if the invitation's open
To every heart that has been broken
Maybe then we close the curtain
On our stained glass masquerade

Is there anyone who's been there
Are there any hands to raise
Am I the only one who's traded
In the altar for a stage
The performance is convincing
And we know every line by heart
Only when no one is watching
Can we really fall apart

But would it set me free
If I dared to let you see
The truth behind the person
That you imagine me to be
Would your arms be open
Or would you walk away
Would the love of Jesus
Be enough to make you stay

saw this song on mingli's blog
reli like it
the lyrics of the song simply depitcts reality

~are we happy plastic people~

~would the love of Jesus, be enough to make u stay~

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Saturday, January 19, 2008

projects project project
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datelines datelines datelines

have been reli bz nowadays
and my laptop just revived not long ago:)
anyone noe where to buy nice laptop covers??

nth to blog abt
cux all thats is my mind is projects
and i dun wanna bore u guys with it
so ciao!
will blog when my life gets more interesting
:)

love is NOT a game

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Friday, January 04, 2008

suddenly smth strucked me..
new yr resolution 2008
spiritual life point no. 3
wwjd
haven been practicing that
be a good testimony
not exactly practicing tt since new yr eve

ok resolutions are not rubbish
i reli shd slow down and think

wwjd

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sch started early today
9am
spent like 3hrs in lab
but wasnt even conc
kinda regret not concentrating and doing other things
cux now i am lost
again
thanks wati for being my ears during lesson
and being so patient with me
:p

aft bcs went to biz park with jan
we chat alot abt friends and all
and interesting things came out
and surprisingly
we agreed for the first time on stuff
lol

1. Losing girlfriends because of boyfriends is dumb but it happens
2. There must be a clear line between bf and girlfriends
3. If bf talks bad abt our gf, we will definitely stand up for gf and tell gf after tt (think sher agreed with me on this)
4. If gf talks bad abt our bf, we will ignore unless there is concrete evidence
etc
etc
etc
i forgot the rest le
haha but jan we did disagree on smth!!
but i shant write here
but u noe la hor..
the thing that u like but the rest of us prefered the other way
:pp
okok i shant say anything else abt it

oh and whilst talkin
we also talked abt like
for her case, after her best friend and bf issue
she lost her best friend for good
how it suck to have it tt way
and then talked abt like how little friends we had
den think think awhile
eh no act i do have alot of friends
not those hi bye kind
but reli friends
but reli like neglected alot of them la
like the clique girls
grace, qi, twin, chyr
wah for a period of time
despite their efforts in askin me out
i like keep rejecting
like now grace keeps asking me to go sales tt aunties go
lol
and i rejected all e way
den there is tanud
who keeps talkin to me online even in switz
but alot of times i dao him
=X
ok now i shall be more aware of my friends ard me
but grace.. tt does not mean i will go auntie sales with u
=pp
k la the most once
:P

today's match was a disappointment
the whole team didnt do well
me and jean who were supposed to confirm win lost
and we jus dropped the team's morale aft tt
cux we were the 1st 2 to play
i noe why i didnt do well
and i feel sooo bad
cux the reasons are not due to my skills
but other things like
lack of trng
mood
cold
lack of warm up
lack of using brains
LACK OF MENTAL
pai seh team
=S

had a super long talk with sher abt stuff
at first tot we didnt agree on alot of things
but den realised we act agreed on most
except tt she tackles it diff
quite impressed by how she analyses ppl and noe the best way to tackle them
haha
anw she said i was teachable
and immediately
BCS tutor came to my mind
i think he thinks i am super unteachable
bcuz i jus seem to not do well with computers
hehe
but sher reli thanks for listening
and more imptly
tellin me the negative things abt myself
that i reli didnt noe b4
but thanks for pointing them out
will try to change
:D

anw.. jus being curious..
my readers (though not alot) can attempy commenting on these 2 qns
1. what will you do if your bf talks bad about your good friends
2. what will you do if your good friends talk bad about your bf
go figure :)

true friends are forever, no matter wad happens

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Wednesday, January 02, 2008

whoa whoa whoa
2008
man think i m slow
was blog hoppin
and almost everybody had some new yr thingy on their blog
wanted to do one long ago
but life w/o laptop is just inconvenient

owell.. but never too late
so here it goes =)

2007
this year has been by far the most eventful one ever.. faced many first time failures, and consequences of choices that i had to make.

start of 2007 was a downride. choosing to retain in tjc meant that i had to face problems with pride and of cos, pressure. The times i spent in Mr Fan's office, with him tryin to knock some sense into me, and the times i tried to run away from counselling by the scary counsellor.. they weren't that long ago. I will never forget this tough period, whereby going to school everyday WOULD HAVE been a drag. However, this tough period was not totally bad after all. I made friends with the best people ever. The RGs. All of us faced similar struggles. All of us (almost) dislike that stupid counsellor. All of us had to bring down our pride to mix with our new class. But the good thing is, all of us had each other. Remember those times me and the 3 girls would sit at the sports com whining. Funny how at each point when one wanted to give up, the other 2 always had some strength to pull that one up. of cos not to forget my new class 26/07, who reli made me feel belong in. That was my first quarter of 2007.

After that, it was the tough decision of switching to a poly. Whether anot to switch was like the worst headache. As much as i tried to consult people and all, the final decision was still up to me and God. Starting school in Temasek Poly was sort of a culture shock. I guess aft singing the national anthem for so long, and reaching school ay 7.25 for so long, it was like a total change. Didnt take me too long to adapt though. people there are nice, and i slowly started enjoying the result of my choice.

Then there was the 2 months break, whereby i went to work at my dad's. Got to know a whole bunch of different people, whom are reli different from people i meet usually. Most of them went thru alot, and they made me realise how blessed i am. People like Desmond, Eileen, William, Danny, Joanne etc..Had alot of fun with these people. =)

School started and it was like madness. before i knew it, tests were here and then 2 wks break. that 7 wks of school flew fast.. reli fast..

2 wks break will include christmas and new yr. Had a great Christmas countdown.. and vv thankful that before christmas, i managed to go back to cell. new yr was rather sian.. went to dad's for countdown, before meeting liuying and sheri.. went for supper then back there again...

END

2008 new year resolutions

Studies
- keep my gpa at 3.5
- do all my tutorials
- attend as many lectures as possible ( fingers tightly crossed :p)

School
- be a good testimony in school
- stop ponning school

Spiritual Life
- go church on time (oops)
- Finish at least 3 books
- WWJD?

Relationships
- take initiative to talk to people whom i either have not talked to for very long, or dislike to talk to
- Set my priorities for friendship right
- get together with disciples more frequently + finish up follow up

okay!! i am done :)
this week will be a SUPER hectic one for me
1. psycho due TMR
2. Table tennis comp (vs NYP and NUS)
3. Comm skills reflection journal
4. Econs article
5. Marketing proj

bz bz bz
and my back has to be injured today
when tmr is the match
whilst i put in alot of effort to protect my ANKLE
my BACK was neglected
grrr..

HAPPY BIRTHDAY LIANG HAN :)
YOU ARE LIKE OLD

Labels: BAD BACK, HAPPY BIRTHDAY LH, TT COMP

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