realised i haven been blogging for the past 234821741481748841 days actually i haven even been online getting a little lazy to blog but jus felt like penning down some thoughts
human related problems i was sort of talkin to one of my church girls and she gave me this feeling tt she was in depression because of some human related problems at first i reli didnt und how big an effect it could be but as i think abt it we shd reli be more sensitive towards the ppl ard us
results got back my results wouldn say i am satisfied but i am thankful bcuz i was sick during the exams and i thought i would do much worst =)
work i've been workin since 5th sept tts part of the reason why i am so uncontactable nowadays the ppl at work are fun reli fun but sometimes i will jus wonder why am i workin when i always believe in enjoying whilst i can working is robbing away the precious free time i have
friends haven been talkin to any friends recently the onli ppl i talk to are family and colleagues caught up with son today but a short time onli due to some disturbance -_- reli need to catch up with my friends soon
church i must DECLARE I HAVEN LOST MY FAITH i guess i am jus walking down a downslope in my faith the decreasing amt of time i spend in church is probably one of the bigger accomplice haven been gg to cell for the past 4mths WOW tt's about 16cells tt i have missed and now bcuz of work i cant attend much of sat service i know everythin abt priorities but its jus not up to me to decide at times quite thankful i have sunday service and a serving ground in children ministry starting to have this bad feeling tt i will be kicked out of ren ai oh well fingers crossed for now
cell i am onli daring to write these cux i am quite positive tt my cell mates dun read my blog and i reli reli reli jus need to write how i reli feel as i have mentioned i haven been gg for cell for almost 16 weeks it all started with the trainings tts why then when trng stopped it was more of the i dun dare to go for cell because it jus seems wrong its like even on sat when i see them(cell mates) we are like strangers aliens guess it isnt anyone's fault its jus we haven seen each other for long so we duno wad to say and the animosity jus grows until this walls start to build up there were a few times i could mk it for cell and set my mind to go but at like 4:45pm i change my mind wanted to sms them a verse for their prelims but jus felt like weird tt i sudd msg them and sound so holy when they prob also think tt i am backsliding or sth which i am NOT so i decided not to as much as i think this is a die die situation and i dun see a light on how things can change for the better i still hang on to that thin line of hope bcuz i am still a part of steward no matter wad even if stewards onli write all the best for prelims and never write all the best for cass's exams (WHICH IS COMING OMG) even if i reli am chased out of steward i will stil be a part of them i dun care cux thats where i grew awww I AM SERIOUS lol emo
i still wanna blog but i realised this is a long post and it is getting late so night world!
