Cassandra Loh

Thursday, August 30, 2007

its quite funny
people start thinking i am sucidal
bcuz of my previous post

i was jus being alittle emo
and so i got quite irritated by those hu tot i was gg to die
but come to think of it
kinda hilarious too
lol
ok now i am being crazy
but dun worry guys
me being crazy
is not equal to me killing someone
lol

on a good note
exams ended
on a HIGH note
:)

and tmr
CASSANDRA SHALL GO FOR HER FIRST JOB INTERVIEW
at duty free
kinda cool
and it doesnt tk up alot of my time
so i guess i still will have a life
and the rates are good (not the main point. yea rite)
:)

took up the courage to ask abt cell peeps tday
but aft few qns
abit withheld again
at least i noe one thing
they are mugging like mad now
and i am praying for them too

so.. another point is
i finally booked some practical lessons which have been
DRAGGING
due to exams
=S
booked 4 lessons
but onli in oct
unless some new slots appear
*fingers crossed*

Dr Eng cup drawing near
super duper excited
not bout the winning
its the grouping
i am grouped with
sandra and huimin and some unknown
huimin and unknown i guess is random
but i am QUITE sure the sandra wasn a coincidence
*winks at guo wei*
ok maybe not.
anw, tt time lost to her 3-2 dews
had high hopes of winning her
but thinkin abt it
i am not even trng yet
and doubt i will to the comp itself
argh

manymany things to do
but the supp papers jus mk me groan a little
but argh
shant let it affect me NOW
it hols
:D

strive for the best, even if it means diving for the worst
( a quote i created at sportmag)

can i change it? to..

strive for the best, even if it means losing hummainty
tts the spirit of many many ppl, and i am tryin my best not to get diffused over there

shd i go for a bangkok trip with friends?

Labels: hols job competition BANGKOK

your name wrote at ;; 12:33 AM

Tuesday, August 28, 2007

k i realised my posts were getting whiney
so decided to upload some old photos instead
reminiscing those got old times

lobbie and me

gd friends who just cant stop squabbling =p

half way up the mountain

tiring but who cares??

one of my fave photo for life. the man who made
my life in tj07 exciting(tryin to hide from him)

the 4 of us

once upon a time when we were close

during paba retreat

during paba retreat again

i jus love this photo and the team =)

grace and jaren :)

the 3 lame gals

physio intern @ NYP

physio intern at SSS

hui hua and me :)

Labels: photos good old time

your name wrote at ;; 12:18 AM

Monday, August 27, 2007

why must i fail wherever i go?

why do i always fail to prove that

i am not useless

that i can do well

i am tired

sick and tired of this materialistic world

this materialistic world

that i cant excel

even my best subj can fail me

wth is wrong with me

now i und

why she chose to do it

your name wrote at ;; 12:40 PM

RAHhhhhHHHHHHHH

why must ppl keep telling me things
that i just dont understand

how i wish the end of the world just come now
but even if it came
i wouldn think i am ready
to face the Lord

grrr
so all i can do
is to take a step back
and look at reality
and wad is reality
this dark world

ok emo post. who cares!

Labels: rahhh i bite

your name wrote at ;; 12:40 AM

Friday, August 24, 2007

its reli funny how..
sometimes our lives are revolving around ppl
not just around them
but beating them..

a few days ago
me and my classmate were laughin abt this friend
who kept competing with others to get better results
we felt it was foolish
and totally nt needed

but yest
i realised
i too, am guilty for this

and the worst thing is
i didnt realise until yesterday
that my success in poly
was actually based on others

a large part of the reason for me bein like this is prob due to my jc time
always tryin to be the best
not lettin myself lose out to anyone
and that is not good at all
i wan to step out of it.
studyin to meet my own targets
not others

i dun care if they get A and i got B
i dun care if i get A and they get B
it will onli be my target
i wun try to fulfil theirs

after all
its MY life
i'm tired of living others' lives

Labels: my life

your name wrote at ;; 3:39 PM

Monday, August 20, 2007

back for a post. :)
saw son's blog
saw some unglam pic of me and her MUGGING
aww i reli miss mugging with her
compare these pics with the ones below
dun hang out with her tt often alr
reli cant wait for her to go back to sch
and we will start mugging tog again k!
:D

me and dan

today had a short chat with serene online

talked about tjc

NADIAH!!!!

darling how are u?

i haven talked to u for SO LONG

i miss u!!

pls lets meet up soon!

plsssss..

and to all the RGs

i heard some of u are doing reli well

and some are still trying

dun ever give up yea?

we wont let others look down on us yea

i wonder if tt MDM CHAN is still there =pp

to my j2 buds

stressful time yea

hang in there

itd be over like

SO DAMN SOON

to ex 26/07

how's jc??

when are we gg to meet up?!?!

reli miss u guys!!

aud=bimbo partner

eunice=HL milk?

elaine= diao hairband?

val= french plaits

sarah= run tog?

wenqi=chem prac?

etc

today tried to mug

but still didnt reli cover much

ok tmr onwards

i am full gear!!!!

grrr

watch me

tmr onwards

DO NOT DISTURB

=pp

cant wait for the 2mths hols!

but for now

it is back to books...

its ok

son jus reminded me

how much i love mugging too!! :D

ok i shall have a good rest

full force tmr!!

oops... lemon jus said maybe supper later

hehe

and yay

nad darling jus msged me

we prob will meet in the weekends

i treasure every single phase of my life

though the downs are reli painful to rem at times

i still will look back at them

and smile to know

i once shaped that memory with that someone

who stepped into my life

why do i feel different in the same place on 2 different days?

Labels: reminisce

your name wrote at ;; 11:32 PM

whee i am back!!!

ok it is like study week now
and i am STARTING to feel the stress
but as everyone noes me
i am last min queen
oh well
as if now isnt last min enough
><

recently have been gg out alot
went for a drink with chyr
vodka and tequilla
plus escargot
damn cool
i never dreamt eating SNAILS
but high class means high class
even those little things in shells could have
such an enormous taste!!
:D

yest aft church went with yj to study
and i got so bored
and fidgety (as usual)
i started some SERIOUS cam whoring
never so serious before
will put up the pics plus some overdued ones later
:D

today also went to study with yj
this time more of business
studied more
and i got an extra present
i saw pokiat!!
my dearest gp buddy
we shall go out study tog one day k
:)

hmm okok kinda short update abt wads happening
in my life
now
at this moment
its mugging
for 2 weeks
den break
for 2mths
woohooo!!

okok.. for tmr, its back to
"there are 9 types of beers.. lagers, ales, dry beer, light beer, malt, white, ice, stout, draught"
( i typed these without looking at the notes k! :D shows some qualitive studying there)

days pass fast when u aint thinking
no matter wad, memories are still memories

Labels: mugging

your name wrote at ;; 12:40 AM

Wednesday, August 15, 2007

got back coursework grades
got B for both macro and RHT
whilst the B for macro was totally disappointing
the B for RHT jus made me so motivated
to study hard for that subj
=)=)

have been splurging these few days
ahhh
let's push the blame to exams
its exams soon
and i am stressed
so i splurge
(ok bad excuse)
act..
a beta ~~excuse~~ reason is..
i need those stuff
so i bought
okay wadeva
i splurged
but i am happy
=)

went shoppin with yj today
splurged like alot..=pp

and tmr mom's gg to splurge on me
yay!!
shoppin with mom tmr
been ages since i did that
i am so looking forward..
:D

glad tt all the projects are done
and only 1 presentation left
but tt means
its mugging time
for exams!!

okok cass
stop procrastinating
u gotta start
like
TODAY

Things bought/got
1) A pair of canvas shoes
2) A shirt
3) A new pair of shades
4) A new pair of slippers
5) A new pair of slippers ( i bought 2)
4) A new backpack-thanks unoehuuare=)

friends, dun be mistaken
i am not turning into a materialistic person
its jus
some stuff tt i accumulated tt i needed
and jus nice got them tog
=)
its true

i must learn to cherish

Labels: shop and splurge

your name wrote at ;; 2:02 AM

Saturday, August 11, 2007

been a long time i blogged..
sorry.. reli have been bz..
like reli very bz.
oh God, i feel it

jus feel kinda shitty today
and i really dont know why
things went okay today
the guilt. yes i am feeling it

presentation was not bad
i think we did okay
role play was funny enough i think
i know fully why You said everything in Your word

comm skills test was
i dunno
i think okay?
argh wadeva.
but wad do i do now

have been feeling vv uneasy these few days
prob e gulity feeling
its jus coming over me
and it is engulfing me
i jus feel so damn guilty

the feeling of ~~hatred~~ fear is also all over
ready to rob me away
and i dun like it this way

i dont know how to explain the reasons behind these feelings
its just
i know it is there
i know the reason for it being there
but i dont know how to explain them
did i make a mistake?

now i am even afraid to step into the building
i am afraid to do anything related to it
i feel tt all eyes are on me
i feel tt..
even i doubt wad i can do now
is there reli a way i can stay in this place now

there was this one day
chyr chat with me online
she said she was reli too bz
tt she neglected alot of things
i love the place, i love e people

i took it with a pinch of salt then
but now when i think abt it
i guess it is true
the busy-ness ( i noe it is not an excuse)
is making me neglect alot of friends
and my life is topsy turvy
i cant imagine myself leavin it

it jus dont feel right
but, i cant see myself stayin in it

ok wad an emo post..
wad the hell is wrong!!
i am sorry. i was wrong

Labels: emo

your name wrote at ;; 12:13 AM