Cassandra Loh

Friday, July 27, 2007

been reli reli bz..
rushing projects after projects.
and before i noe it
its FYE

grr..
jus hate exams
ever since those gruelling times at tjc
okok mr fan, i hear u

but anw
i think i am quite screwed for the FYE
which means i gotta start real soon
means tmr
YES TMR

handed in 2 proj today
left with 3 more to go

and the weather nowadays is
reli cold
reli reli cold
never like to leave my bed
ok stop whining cass

gg for bak chor mee later
miss those tpjc days man
when i go every tues and thurs
with raymond and jordan

of cos not forgetting those track days :)
tiring but fufiling
mr yazid, who is missing
and all the track peeps
those drills we did
those parachutes and weights
those starting blocks
always praying for it to rain so it'd wun be hot..

awww.. nostalgic

but here i am
trying to do my macro proj
but getting distracted at EVERY single thing

and my proj mates have to ALWAYS scold me
for being hyperactive
for being restless
=p

but i still love e class
i love all my proj grps
though at times bcuz of stress
we see each others ugly sides
but we are understanding and all
and things always turn out fine
(=

i somehow love this bz life
apart from some screwed parts in my life
i am happy (=
i guess
every phase of my life is planned alr
and it has a purpose
and i shall just embrace every phase

HAPPY BIRTHDAY MR WILSON!!

its time to step out of the past
i jus love that smell

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Tuesday, July 24, 2007

thre weather's getting cold
kinda like it
though it made me sick

went for btt trial today.
passed ALL the tests
tmr is THE day
i hope i can pass
:)

went to meet yj
and i seriously got so freaked out by the damn frog
jus hate these slimy things.
thanks for being such a great a*h to me today :D
and bearing with me being paranoid

tmr is sch again
i have like SO many things to do.. but i feel so sleepy now i guess i will do them TMR! :D

for now..
i need to jus shut my eyes
i am tired
i am groggy
nite world

now i am confused

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Saturday, July 21, 2007

pics from proj and t3 :D

me and ryan :D

me, kx and he monkey

me and kx

me and jia en(who jus cut her hair)

wan ning, yeeting, jasmine and me:D

me and sarah. my face is abit weird cux jia en said i looked vv black, and i was tryin to retaliate

okok maybe i slept awhile too

my 3 proj mates =)

Kx playin crazy taxi

Jan slpin (she was the 1st)

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your name wrote at ;; 11:36 PM

how i wish i have 10 lolipops now.
projectsprojectsprojects
=
duedatesduedatesduedates
=
stressedstressedstressed

it doesnt help when these projects never seem to end
and ppl start to get grouchy
grrr
i will jus chiong all e proj once n for all

yest stayed over at JJ's house to do FnB
it was quite enjoyable i mus say
anw the pics(which i will post later) shall do the talkin la

went to T3 with sch today
erm honestly the place is beautiful
but prob i was jus too tired to enjoy it
anw, let e pics speak again

jus came back from pwj's bdae party
feel bad i couldn stay
feel good tt i didnt stay
went there late
prep for pwj's special item
went down for games
den came e video

the video sorta struck me
things tt were said, like
" Stewards have touched the deepest of my heart"
it was prob a raw nerve
imsosorryicouldnstayoverorprepforthespecialitemsorryttwhilsttherestcrazilysangesongthe2ndtime,
icouldonlilistenbcuzirelididntnoewadicoulddosorryttwhenusaidttsentenceifeltguilty
sorryttifeelguiltywearinttshirtsorryttijustwantedtoleaveasearlyasicould
sorrypeiwen
thanks for tellin me tt all will be fine s
orrysec1cellttihavenotshownmycommittmentasacgl
sorrydearestdisciplesfornotlovinualllikehowashepardshd
sorrystewardsttijuscantseemtotrymybesttoblendin
sorryworldforhavingsomanysorries

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Thursday, July 19, 2007

some pic from the poly-ite comp.
wil put more when i get it from ty.

this is VERY unglam of me :S

okay okay i DO slp EVERYWHERE

even ryan calls me this now :p

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your name wrote at ;; 11:06 PM

school was short
9-11
project made it much longer
-_-

went to ikea+giant with mum and aunty wai teng
bought like many stuff
have been spending like hundreds everytime we go out nowadays
consequences of throwing everything durin a renovation
:p

went back to school to wait for yj to fin work
watched movie in sch
~~breandon~~ brandon (tks yj) joined on 2nd disk
and he is reli funnY!
pls tell me again he is 19!
:p (he'll prob kill me for tt)

i didnt pinch u and i didnt scream! :P
i win again! :D

had dinner at xing wang
when i walked in with yj
i reli didnt see shuling and family AT ALL
den sudd i felt like
ppl are staring at me
and ta da!
they were jus BESIDE me
lol

feel kinda bad i cnot attend pwj's chalet
feel kinda sad i cnot join stewards and e rest in all the fun
:(

anw.. i was walkin into school today
a qns sudd float into my mind
do i regret tt i am in poly
ans?
NOPE not at all
putting aside tt i am doin sth i like,
i also have made alot of great friends
friends who dun care if u are smart or not
friends who are reli friends
=)

tmr is sleep over and JJ's house to do FnB proj
call me crazy but i am reli quite excited
:p
though aft wad mr chia said
i think our grp is in deep shite
but still
its a slp over!
:D
YAY!
and i am gg to terminal 3 on sat
=)

i chose to walk this path

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your name wrote at ;; 10:50 PM

went for my first trial test today
within tt ~~50 min~~ 40 min( i was late)
i managed to do 3 papers
passed 1
failed 2
didnt think i would fail
ahh complacent
the qns wasnt exactly kindergarden-ish
as told to me by TY

ok guess i need to reli study
bcuz test is
NEXT TUES

went to sch for macro
and my gosh
it is reli getting complicared
GRRR
act who cares if the aggr expenditure increase or wad
who cares if the curve would shift or not
RAHHHH
it speaks for all e other subjects tt are brain-ful as well

went ikea and courts with mom
bought woks and all
and also bought this impractical cushion ( it was jus too comfy)
and bought the waste paper bins

tmr we're prob gg to buy sth REAL COOL
it is a rice cookers tt can bake cakes
WOOT!

project datelines are ~~creeping~~ storming towards us
many many things to do
now i regret not keepin an organiser

i cant wait for my ~~room~~ to be done!!

i cant wait to pass my BTT (KC u gotta stop cursing me)

i cant wait to see the rainbow

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Tuesday, July 17, 2007

something's reli wrong with my arm
and i dunno wad

today was the last day for poly-ite
won 5-0
when i was playin my match
i was doin quite well

tts when
my arm had to suddenly ache
so bad dat i couldn raise my hand
i couldn serve
i couldn smack
i couldn even use my forehand

there was dis ball i TRIED to smack
and my hand just had this
SNAP
and i was like OUCH
considered walking over
but i didnt
in e end, won 3-1
quite disappointed

o wells..
anw we got 2nd!
coolios!

nw tt season is over
its time for stamina
and reli studies
i am lagging!

all the projects are piling
i reli need to get my mind to focus
no more play cass! :S

on my way back
the bus uncle insisted i was sec sch student
luckily chong ling was there
to help me
think uncle see him
den scared so return me my card
thanks cl!
and thanks yj for loli! :D

and oh..
i reli need to do sth abt my arm =X
i reli didnt mean to be spiteful towards u. jus felt angry abt wad u said. though i kept sayin i dunwan u to win, inside, of cos i was rooting for u-as a friend. i reli wonder when will u get it.

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Friday, July 13, 2007

MY BIRTHDAY

me cutting my birthday cake

the LUMINOUS green bikini 1H02 bought plus the mud facial

yi ting jus stuffed the whole choco ball into my mouth :S

check out my mud facial

blowing off my candles. thanks josh for holdin my cake for me (:

UN-GLAM me

AT THE ZOO

orchid mks me look happy (:

i REALLY love tt monkey on me

Sarah, Cass, Jia En

Bi Zhi, Sarah, Cass

me and the strangles turtle

me and the cuties (:

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your name wrote at ;; 12:41 AM

my 18th birthday!!!
(:

thanks for all e msgs..
esp those tt i didnt even think would rem
my pri sch friends
and some others
appreciate them

thanks for all e presents
Yj: July princess
R: Sunflower
1H02: cake+ green bikini
anna: cake
J: wallet
L: watch
Swensens': Firehouse ice cream :)

thanks for all e cards
thanks for tkin e effort to write them

thanks 1H02 for getting e cake and the bikini
and thanks for smashin cake into my face
(:
wati: next time i wear show u onli k! :p

so i had a great day
onli dampening was tt msg of urs yest
but its ok.
u need time

shall jus post some pic..
from the zoo tt time
and also my bdae

once again
thanks for all e efforts

I AM SO LOOKING FORWARD TO..

A) MEETING THE CLIQUE TMR
B) BOOKING MY BTT soon

attn master: i will drive u to supper SOON :p

i'm blessed
dunno why i made tt wish, but when i had no time to think, the onli wish i could think of was reconcillation between the 2 of us, as friends.

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Thursday, July 12, 2007

was act a not too good day
thinkin of many stuff
like why, how, what to do etc

so i guess tt why i played so badly today
22 miss on serves
many many misses on YA
and many many more slow reactions

ended trng playing with yj using dan's bat
was reli kinda frustrated with how i played
thanks yj for being so patient
and for e last last last ball
for letting it go into the net aft i served
thanks

went to this great place at pasir ris park
shant say where
:P
secret
but anw..
thanks yj again for helpin me think thru
and sort out everythin
i noe i made e right move
and i am SO happy now :D

oh and also..
thanks for being the first to cel my bdae
and first to gimme a present on my bdae
:D
hey seriously thank you.. :) u've been a great friend, and i noe u will always be there.. thanks! :D

happy birthday twin!!
happy birthday cass!!
=)
feel better tellin u all i want to say. though i changed wad i wanted to say abit, i feel so much better now. there are just so many misunderstandings we need to clear. im closing the chapter now till u feel its right to open it again.. till then, i've moved on..
p/s: i get to see tripp on my bdae!! JANICE JEALOUS NOT? I SEE BOTH CHIA AND TRIPP ON MY BDAE!! :P

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Wednesday, July 11, 2007

cass u're so full of

*****

cass u're such a

****

cass u need to just

**** **

cass u gotta stop being an

*****

go figure!

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Tuesday, July 10, 2007

played np
we won 3-2
i won

didnt play well though
cant believe how much you could affect me
even on court

tmr will be a great day!
going to top table fine dining
doing for training
many many many things to do!
ouch it hurts...

thanks yj..
for all the logical reasoning
and jus being there
i'll recover

oh and today my dg mates came to cel my bdae for me
it was a pleasant surprise!
thanks gals..
for starting my day on a high note
though it ended on a low one

i wana slp =)
it reli hurts.its like..now i know ive been thinkin wrong all along.wad shd i do, wad shd i choose. thanks for being swo truthful. wouldnt help if u lied. this is the 2nd time. right b4 my bdae. happy bdae cassandra. so happy bdae...

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your name wrote at ;; 11:24 PM

played against nyp
lost 3-2
me and jean won

i was nervous la
bcuz if i lost den team lose
was playing tt crucial score
did some stupid mistakes here n there
but luckily caught myself back in time

played side by side with him today
we both won
there is this weird sense of familiarity

last yr i was also ard
just to support him
this yr its side by side

the timing was jus so perfect
he was the 4th singles
i was the 3rd
but the guys played faster
and lada lada lada
we played at the same time

ok why am i makin such a big fuss over nth
over a coincidence
bcuz it matters

i will do my best again tmr
to fight for tt one point in my hands
if i give it another shot, would u give me another chance

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Monday, July 09, 2007

today's e first time i went to help out at sunday school
was in charge of the nursery kids
the innocence of the kids, i jus cant help but notice
the child like faith
i will never forget

i learnt things from them
many things.
they're young
4yrs old
but i learnt SO much from them

smth interesting tt happened..

Joy was in tt class
she is the daughter of my mu shi
she has down syndrome
when i went into the class, i jus cant help but notice how she was always alone
i tried to talk to her
but i got no response
but after awhile, she felt more secure
and she started talkin to me
telling me she wanted water
or tt she wanted red colour marker
was reli happy tt she could open up to talk to me
acc to Geraldine, she usually wont speak so much during Sunday Sch
jus so glad she did
(:

this little girl
accidentally wet her pants during class
the moment tt happened, i saw
without thinkin i carried her to the toilet
and aft cleaning up, helped her change her pants
it was after everything
tt i realised
she act pee-ed on my hand
*at this pt, some will be disgusted*
call it mother instinct (though im not old :P)
i wasnt disgusted at all.
far from it.
i jus shrugged it off

i jus love these kids
they are jus so simple
and simple is beautiful
i always believe in that

anw.. also went for proj aft tt
had a great, though stressed time with grp mates
and me sarah and JJ formed a clique
its called..
CANBINGGUOLA clique
(:
exclusive
:D
all e crazy stuff we do =)

tmr's comp, and my knee is like..
freaking pain
rahhh
tmr will be beta
it will it will
mind over body does e trick =)

the rainbow convenant... a beautiful promise
thank you Daddy for reminding me of this convenant and tt everything is within Your control. when the storm comes, i know You have prepared the rainbow, and all i need to do is to wait in faith, and You will definitely turn those rain into the beautiful rainbow. thank You Daddy.

prayer:
-isaac's health
-my knee
-yj's throat and knee
-lobbie and jing2 friendship
-tmr's match

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Sunday, July 08, 2007

friday
had a great dinner with family at no signboard
it was act meant to cel my bdae since bro wun be ard on actual day
but i guess it turned out to be more of a family bonding session
had a good chat
abt our lives,
my crazy lecturers
etc etc..
love my daddymommybro

oh and we went to mustafa
act its reli a gd place to shop
things are cheap
and not bad
though its like crowded and messy
:S

Saturday
met pei wen for a short lunch bcuz i was late
thanks to some idhfasnfk; taxidriver
but had a good short talk (:

service was cool
challenges faced by youths these days
with all the opportunities and options and all
we reli face alot of challenges
but all these can be overcomed with His strength :D

i reli need to be organised
like when to do those tutorials
which days to do those projects

season's here
like so fast
n i have this nagging additional pressure from e team
to do well
rahhHH
i MUST get tt 1 pt!

quite pissed abt the arrangements made for the follow up. sorta feel tt it is jus biasness. but i reli learnt how to tk things in my stride.and jus believe tt they tot abt all the possibilities b4 mkin e decision. if they have any doubts, then i jus gotta accept.anw..i am reminded tt i am onli answerable to Him.
all for Your glory
-pray for projects tmr
-pray for jing2, lobbie and classmates relationship
-pray for yan jie's knee

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Friday, July 06, 2007

went to sch today
thanks to yan jie(:
thanks for e encouragement!!
reli sweet of u to msg me this morning..

went back to tjc
nice to see those familiar faces again
nice meetin up with shara, nad, hui hua, mr chung, mr fun, mr wilson(like how come u were there?! lol), the tt pple, eunice, aud, mrs goh, zhi hao, jing wen, and err.. did i leave out anyone?

went to get request for cca records cum train
the trng here is so much more disciplined than at tp
but then again
the stuff we train are pretty much e same
tp comp is this monday
AND
i dun feel confident at all!

ahhh.. confidence..
i sudd feel a lack of confidence..
a) i've a RHT test tmr,but i'm onli gg to study it tmr
b) i haven got the email from the CYAA thing, neither have i got the email mr tripp said i would(which may mean my hotmail has some prob)
c) i think i need to org my time better, bcuz all e proj meetings seem to be too many to rem!

had fun with the soccer ball too! (:
Ryan/KC, bring the ball more often k?

i realised tt, probably i reli made e right choice
hey bro, reli prayin for u. know its reli tough, with all ur expectations and all.. but comeon, i noe u can do it, if u set ur mind to it. dun be demoralised k.fight on, and win e battle! dun give urself too much stress too, cux u noe how much it affects u. stay strong bro, and u will make it thru!

HAPPY BELATED BIRTHDAY LESTER! I REMEMBERED, BUT FORGOT YEST WAS 4TH.. :S HOPE U HAD A GREAT BIRTHDAY:D

Labels: no time for regrets

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Thursday, July 05, 2007

went for trng today
took cab which cost me
$16
mom paid
bcuz she ps me at sports school

went to sports school before trng
bro's teachers wanted to meet us
they talked abt some results stuff
and they banned my bro from 2 important competitions

and he cried
so did i
sometimes i wonder
how sucky i can be as a sister
i knew he needed help in his studies since eons ago
but what did i do to help him?
nothing.
and now he has to miss those competitions..
and tt is definitely gg to demoralise him.
not to forget..
this move the teachers made..
jus ate away his pride as well..

feel the hurt he feels
and i am reli sorry
tt i was an accomplice, tog with the teachers
in stabbin him today
i am so so sorry
sorry i didnt help u
sorry i didnt spend more time with u
when i heard those stuff from mr mak
i jus cant help but tear
bcuz i noe e embarrassment u felt
the pride tt got stamped under your feet
but i love u
and it reli hurts me to hear u say tt the sch can decide wadeva they wan abt ur future
pls fight on
it may not be easy
but we are with u

at least,
i am
always
love u yan

i love him alot alot

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Wednesday, July 04, 2007

got back my econs test today
97.5
all to the glory of You
thank You Lord

celebrated KC's bdae today
(:
hope he had a good day
his blogpost made him sound so touched :P

met dearest ai ning for lunch
haha been quite a long time since we had lunch tog i think
talked and laughed abt everything
(:
decided to drop on shuling
to encourage her for her last paper
BUT
to realise she was SLEEPING
instead of STUDYING
:P
but in anyway
we had a great time of fellowship again :D

read this from apel
"there are many ways to success,
some are longer, some are shorter
but none of them is labelled right or wrong"

den from the bible:
" He has made everything beautiful in its time........
That everyone may eat and drink,
and find satisfaction in all his toil-
this is the gift of God."
- Ecclesiastes 3: 11-13

i shall take my route..
disregarding the time i take
but enjoying every process
tt He has painstakingly planned for me
all for the glory of You(:

argh.. i cnt find the files in my thumbdrive
and they are like impt!!
grrr... i am irritated
stupid trojan rubbish virus
beware
I BITE

xiao ~~wu gui~~ tuo niao

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