all 3am or 4am.. so today i literally pulled myself out of bed.. to reach school for lect at 9am..
prob bcuz of my course, reli learn to rather be early and wait instead of late.. so i reached at 830am.. as i mentioned i was vv tired + noone was dere + i was havin a headache, i went to find a bench to slp..
at ard 845.. i saw jia en,wan ning.. so i went over to join dem.. at 9am, mei chin came and said..
"today no lessons leh"
i totally sian... bcuz i am vv tired + i was havin a headache + alot of my classmates knew and dint come.. i vv sian.. den me, janice, kai xuan and JJ went to tamp int macs for breakfast.. (: chat abt alot of stuff, from wines to beer to girls to guys to relationships etc.. (:
DEN WE LITERALLY DRAGGED OURSELVES BACK TO SCHOOL FOR ECONS TUT
i promise if it wasnt a tutorial i wouldn go bac.. lol..
tut was borin as usual.. so we decided to have some fun. ok maybe not we. it was me. i took a piece of paper, cut and made it a frame.. den i tried the mona lisa smile thingy... tt means i am mona lisa and put my head in the hole.. haha.. it was reli exciting la! bcuz we cnot let e tutor see.. haha so we kept perfecting the shots.. :P den kept laughin.. haha.. best thing is tutor totally didnt noe wad were we laughin..
mental note: cass u beta keep ur naughty side in check!
and ok i have to say this.. i reli miss mr koh.. my ex econs tutor..reli didnt think i would,but reli i do.. hehe..
so aft sch i had proj discussion, before gg to meet rachel.. we had a great time chatting and all.. haha. and she watched me do my last mani and pedi *cross fingers*
reli had a great time chit chattin, and watchin her do stuff for me.. *thanks!! (:* she made a keychain kinda thing for me at the dnt room, and on my wallet, she helped draw stuff.. haha.. post pic some other time la.. :D lazy.. hehe
den i met lemon for short dinner before rushing home bcuz my bro is sick..
now bloggin and watchin tv.. but act, it is time for the mugging season!! :S
thoughts..
8th october 2006 'tml..i will go to service.. and seek from Him a faithful and trusting heart.. Lord.. teach me.. that in whatever i do.. You are always with me.. in what ever i do.. You never forsake me.." 28th October 2006 "i jus told him(chin han ge) everything including my doubts of GOD.. and my weariness and all.." 9th Nov 2006 "bcuz aft all its He who sees hu i am.."
12th Nov 2006 "thank you Lord for planning my life for me. and putting these pple who reli care for m to minister into my life.. Lord u noe at times i will doubt u.. u noe sometimes i will be very frustrsated at You.. but.. i noe You still love me.. and i noe You will still hold me tightly and constantly remind me how much You actually love me and how You will never give me up. at this time when i reli need strength to face all the.. neg feelings and all.. Lord walk with me.. Lord cary me.. Thank you Lord"
13th Nov 2006 " i am your daught er nevertheless.. so i will be home... i will come home.. with your grace and mercy upon me, YOU WILL CARRY ME HOME..."
20th Nov 2006 "i jus need some time.. with Lord and myself.. i still have doubts and questions to ask Him.. but since i noe He loves me nevertheless, He will walk with me throughout this period of doubt.." there r many many more.. these are the posts i found when i was jus randomly browsing thru archives. i chose the posts dated oct and nov 2006. many shd noe tt this was a tough period for me.. real tough. but the faith i displayed.. i am amazed..
dun ask me where did all the faith go to.
where did my alr mustard sized faith go to.. bcuz i want to noe too
now,all tts in my mind: studentcampexamsstudentcampexamsstudentcampexams
they all fall on the same wk thankyou vv much..
and i m not prepared for any.. tts e worst part..
i need to get my priorities right. i need to get my life right
