went to school..and again i was under lt2.. readin my book... and tryin to eat the yogurt ice cream without gettin caught there.. hehe.. oh and i did my BS.. *oops.. it is kinda last min since cell is today*
ate lunch and coach suprisingly came to tj.. haha for lunch and to encourage us.. (: and he told me again tt the one point for me is a sure point. o wells.. i tot so too.. i mean i noe i will be vv mentaly challenged since i most prob wil meet one of the NAS girls.. not tt my skills will lose to them, but since i always have a phobia of them *i dunno why*, i knew my mental will be challenged, and i was ready to face it.
we played.. first singles was ying en vs yi rui, and we won.. first doubles was grace and qi vs yan zi and her partner and we won.. i was the second singles, and as expected, i met the NAS girl..-_- but as i said i was mentALLy prepared.. so i went and won the first set.. then things came into my mind.. things like
" my team alr trashed them 2 points.. i left tpjc, i dun wan to be the one winnin the whole thing" " anw the doubles will def win.. so can i lose this game"
of cos.. i immediately stopped myself from feelin this way.. but. it was in my mind.. so i couldn stop.. i became vv ball retarded (which was totally diff from the nyjc match when my reaction was like SUPER FAST) it wasnt even in my control anymore! i was like, missing all the easy balls.. my wrist was likemoving like anybody's buisness.. i had to call for a time out myself even!! bcuz i reli needed to settle my mind thingy.. but i couldn.. everyone was shocked when i lost, inc myself. at first, it was jus shock.. i cont to cheer for the rest and all..
but soon, as the thingy set in. i realised.. yes i made tpjc happy.. but HEY I DISAPPOINTED TJ!! wad abt me being a sure point? wad abt tt cassandra tt WOW-ed ppl when playin with nyjc.. wad abt the me who told grace to concentrate on her game.. i started to feel super sian.. reli dunno wad was wrong with me at tt time..
went back to sch.. wanted to stay dere and wait for cell den go.. but jus nice saw mr wilson, and decided to go for dinner la.. got back into my cheery mood.. had a REAL QUICK dinner.. den we walked tog till we reached e home. haha.. thanks for talkin and comforting..:D it isnt tt bad reli..
saw si hui at the lift lobby. haha and we decided to get bubble tea.. we talked and shared.. cheer up girl! got myself ready for cell..
cell was cool.. talked abt our service in xue shen ying.. and talked abt the controversy of the song "Jesus we enthrone You" Got the big picture and cleared my doubts.. did the book.. glad i did it before hand bcuz i could follow (: but i was reli quite tired durin cell. :S
thankful tt shuling's dad came.. bcuz usually is my mom, but today she had a dinner.. but o well.. GOd knows i am tired.. hee.. and will prob waste money on cab to go home ( and this means minus-ing ard 10 bucks from my "money pool for phone") hee.. so i got shuling's dad!! YAY!! thanks uncle! (yea like he will read my blog.. lol)
tt's e end of the day.. kinda.. argh la.. cuz i still cant imagine i disappointed tj team..mmm.. but like wad i said,should let go and look forward.. so shall practice wad i say..(: thanks mr wilson for ur encouragements and comforting. they reli helped:)
to follow Christ was never meant to be easy..
prayer -ms chan to not be sad over the changing of seat in staffroom -mr wilson to not worry so much -me to get over today's lost -ai ning's prosecution at home -grace's concert tmr -Si Hui's emo to be over -shuling's studies and future plans -my walk with God..
