HAPPY BIRTHDAY SAMUEL AND ZACH!!! (:(: another 2 fellow 2H-er turn 18.. when will it be MY TURN!!!!
had a quick lunch with mom at bedok south before she sent me to church..
service was cool.. it sorta spoke to me straight bcuz.. ---------- shant say.. haha.. but i will talk abt the contents of the sermon.. (:
the topic was " the road to death"
pastor Koh started the whole sermon with this phrase "emo kids... these kids, who are mostly in their teens or young adult stage, feel that there is no point living in this world.. prob due to stress, unhappiness etc etc.. they cut themselves, over dose themselves etc.. Pastor Koh asked us..
WHY WILL WE WANT TO DIE? or rather, WHAT CAN MAKE US CHOOSE TO DIE?
Jesus knew why he was gg to die.. He knew He was here to be a ransom for many.. and pastor Koh went on...
but this part ministered to me.. bcuz..----- yea.. oh and pastor Koh quoted this phrase from the main actor of the show Bruce Almighty..
"Everybody has a right to get rich. only then will he know that it is not all that matters."
it makes sense.. Pastor Koh also said smth tt i always knew.. but sorta hid it down the bottom of my heart and did not want to tk it out..
why do we study? why do we do whatever we are doing? it is for God's GLORY!! recently, i met with my first big trial.. i got retained.. k not exactly got retained. i chose to retain, but still it is bcuz i didnt do well.. owells.. tts not impt.. i keep askin God.. why on earth is this happenin to me.. You asked me to come to TJ. You opened the door for me.. alot of hatred in me.. alot of anger.. alot of disappointment.. alot of self pity.. i told Him.. if poly is where You want me to go, den why not close the door of tj? why WASTE 1 yr of my life! now all my peers are gg to grad so much earlier than me!!
but i realise.. i forgot tt i am studyin for God.. He has everythin in His plan! if i didn retain, i wouldn know these pple tt reli helped me grow spiritually, and/or grow stronger..
a) Mr Fun b) Mr Eugene c) Ms Chan d) Mr Wilson e) every single person in RG e) every single person in 26/07, esp the clique
erm i dunno if i missed out anyone.. but anw.. yea.. jus within these 3 short months.. i got to know these ppl.. and each one of them did help me grow in diff ways.. so what if i retained? so what if i waste 1 yr or even 10 yrs of my life.. the point is.. who/what am i living for? am i livin cuz of man's expectations? am i living cux of my future carrer.. or am i living for Christ? if i am living for Christ, and He permitted the 1 yr of JC before poly, it is not WASTED anymore.. it is of good use.. (:
now i noe.. no matter where i go, what i do.. all i need to be, is a shining light for God.. all i need to be, is a living testimony for Him..
but of cos, it aint ez bcuz in reality, we are living in a world full of competition.. and everyone is pursuing the best in the shortest time.. wad's e best? fame, glory,money,position etc... and at times, we will be swirled in it too.. but i pray O Lord that You caution me everytime i am being deceived.. help me to stay focus on who i am living for.. Amen
anw.. praise the LORD!! Owen came today.. was so shocked to see him (he is a J1 this yr in tj..)now tt is wad i mean by God using us in every of our situation.. guess hu brought him? birthday boy SAMUEL GOH!! (: chaw meng came too!! :D total of 4 new pple today.. :D
aft service, i rushed to watch grace's piano concert.. haha made me regret alittle for quitting piano halfway.. but she did well! and so did the others.. there was this girl who is sorta handicap.. like one leg was shorter than the other and all.. but u noe wad.. she could play both the cello and the piano! (: glad she has such a positive attitude (:
aft the concert, had dinner with hui hua.. and short shoppin time bcuz i needed to meet anna and qi xi.. bought 2 shirts.. for quite a reasonable price.. (:
met with my 2 disciples.. jus walked abt and talked..
to anna and qi xi: i may be strict at times, may be EVIL to u all at times, but i do love u all sooo much!! (: btw.. happy birthday qi xi! :D
its so hard to un-mask myself..
prayer: -tmr is qing ming jie and i prob will have to face all the prob with buddhism etc.. pray tt Godwill clear these prob for me - pray for myself to stay focus tt it is God that i am living for - pray for me buyin phone tmr (: - pray for my spiritual walk to be a more intimate one - pray for my bro who seems to be in a rebellious stage now - pray for STEWARDS who are stressed abt studies - pray for ai ning's persecution - pray for * and **'s relationship to be a God pleasin one
