Cassandra Loh

Saturday, March 31, 2007

HAPPY BIRTHDAY SAMUEL AND ZACH!!! (:(:
another 2 fellow 2H-er turn 18.. when will it be MY TURN!!!!

had a quick lunch with mom at bedok south before she sent me to church..

service was cool.. it sorta spoke to me straight bcuz.. ---------- shant say.. haha.. but i will talk abt the contents of the sermon.. (:

the topic was " the road to death"

pastor Koh started the whole sermon with this phrase "emo kids... these kids, who are mostly in their teens or young adult stage, feel that there is no point living in this world.. prob due to stress, unhappiness etc etc.. they cut themselves, over dose themselves etc.. Pastor Koh asked us..

WHY WILL WE WANT TO DIE? or rather, WHAT CAN MAKE US CHOOSE TO DIE?

Jesus knew why he was gg to die.. He knew He was here to be a ransom for many.. and pastor Koh went on...

but this part ministered to me.. bcuz..----- yea.. oh and pastor Koh quoted this phrase from the main actor of the show Bruce Almighty..

"Everybody has a right to get rich. only then will he know that it is not all that matters."

it makes sense.. Pastor Koh also said smth tt i always knew.. but sorta hid it down the bottom of my heart and did not want to tk it out..

why do we study? why do we do whatever we are doing? it is for God's GLORY!! recently, i met with my first big trial.. i got retained.. k not exactly got retained. i chose to retain, but still it is bcuz i didnt do well.. owells.. tts not impt.. i keep askin God.. why on earth is this happenin to me.. You asked me to come to TJ. You opened the door for me.. alot of hatred in me.. alot of anger.. alot of disappointment.. alot of self pity.. i told Him.. if poly is where You want me to go, den why not close the door of tj? why WASTE 1 yr of my life! now all my peers are gg to grad so much earlier than me!!

but i realise.. i forgot tt i am studyin for God.. He has everythin in His plan! if i didn retain, i wouldn know these pple tt reli helped me grow spiritually, and/or grow stronger..

a) Mr Fun
b) Mr Eugene
c) Ms Chan
d) Mr Wilson
e) every single person in RG
e) every single person in 26/07, esp the clique

erm i dunno if i missed out anyone.. but anw.. yea.. jus within these 3 short months.. i got to know these ppl.. and each one of them did help me grow in diff ways.. so what if i retained? so what if i waste 1 yr or even 10 yrs of my life.. the point is.. who/what am i living for? am i livin cuz of man's expectations? am i living cux of my future carrer.. or am i living for Christ? if i am living for Christ, and He permitted the 1 yr of JC before poly, it is not WASTED anymore.. it is of good use.. (:

now i noe.. no matter where i go, what i do.. all i need to be, is a shining light for God.. all i need to be, is a living testimony for Him..

but of cos, it aint ez bcuz in reality, we are living in a world full of competition.. and everyone is pursuing the best in the shortest time.. wad's e best? fame, glory,money,position etc... and at times, we will be swirled in it too.. but i pray O Lord that You caution me everytime i am being deceived.. help me to stay focus on who i am living for.. Amen

anw.. praise the LORD!! Owen came today.. was so shocked to see him (he is a J1 this yr in tj..)now tt is wad i mean by God using us in every of our situation.. guess hu brought him? birthday boy SAMUEL GOH!! (: chaw meng came too!! :D total of 4 new pple today.. :D

aft service, i rushed to watch grace's piano concert.. haha made me regret alittle for quitting piano halfway.. but she did well! and so did the others.. there was this girl who is sorta handicap.. like one leg was shorter than the other and all.. but u noe wad.. she could play both the cello and the piano! (: glad she has such a positive attitude (:

aft the concert, had dinner with hui hua.. and short shoppin time bcuz i needed to meet anna and qi xi.. bought 2 shirts.. for quite a reasonable price.. (:

met with my 2 disciples.. jus walked abt and talked..

to anna and qi xi:
i may be strict at times, may be EVIL to u all at times, but i do love u all sooo much!! (: btw.. happy birthday qi xi! :D

its so hard to un-mask myself..

prayer:
-tmr is qing ming jie and i prob will have to face all the prob with buddhism etc.. pray tt Godwill clear these prob for me
- pray for myself to stay focus tt it is God that i am living for
- pray for me buyin phone tmr (:
- pray for my spiritual walk to be a more intimate one
- pray for my bro who seems to be in a rebellious stage now
- pray for STEWARDS who are stressed abt studies
- pray for ai ning's persecution
- pray for * and **'s relationship to be a God pleasin one

Labels: living for Christ

your name wrote at ;; 10:53 PM

today is a.. argh day..

went to school..and again i was under lt2.. readin my book... and tryin to eat the yogurt ice cream without gettin caught there.. hehe.. oh and i did my BS.. *oops.. it is kinda last min since cell is today*

ate lunch and coach suprisingly came to tj.. haha for lunch and to encourage us.. (: and he told me again tt the one point for me is a sure point. o wells.. i tot so too.. i mean i noe i will be vv mentaly challenged since i most prob wil meet one of the NAS girls.. not tt my skills will lose to them, but since i always have a phobia of them *i dunno why*, i knew my mental will be challenged, and i was ready to face it.

we played.. first singles was ying en vs yi rui, and we won.. first doubles was grace and qi vs yan zi and her partner and we won.. i was the second singles, and as expected, i met the NAS girl..-_- but as i said i was mentALLy prepared.. so i went and won the first set.. then things came into my mind.. things like

" my team alr trashed them 2 points.. i left tpjc, i dun wan to be the one winnin the whole thing"
" anw the doubles will def win.. so can i lose this game"

of cos.. i immediately stopped myself from feelin this way.. but. it was in my mind.. so i couldn stop.. i became vv ball retarded (which was totally diff from the nyjc match when my reaction was like SUPER FAST) it wasnt even in my control anymore! i was like, missing all the easy balls.. my wrist was likemoving like anybody's buisness.. i had to call for a time out myself even!! bcuz i reli needed to settle my mind thingy.. but i couldn.. everyone was shocked when i lost, inc myself. at first, it was jus shock.. i cont to cheer for the rest and all..

but soon, as the thingy set in. i realised.. yes i made tpjc happy.. but HEY I DISAPPOINTED TJ!! wad abt me being a sure point? wad abt tt cassandra tt WOW-ed ppl when playin with nyjc.. wad abt the me who told grace to concentrate on her game.. i started to feel super sian.. reli dunno wad was wrong with me at tt time..

went back to sch.. wanted to stay dere and wait for cell den go.. but jus nice saw mr wilson, and decided to go for dinner la.. got back into my cheery mood.. had a REAL QUICK dinner.. den we walked tog till we reached e home. haha.. thanks for talkin and comforting..:D it isnt tt bad reli..

saw si hui at the lift lobby. haha and we decided to get bubble tea.. we talked and shared.. cheer up girl! got myself ready for cell..

cell was cool.. talked abt our service in xue shen ying.. and talked abt the controversy of the song "Jesus we enthrone You" Got the big picture and cleared my doubts.. did the book.. glad i did it before hand bcuz i could follow (: but i was reli quite tired durin cell. :S

thankful tt shuling's dad came.. bcuz usually is my mom, but today she had a dinner.. but o well.. GOd knows i am tired.. hee.. and will prob waste money on cab to go home ( and this means minus-ing ard 10 bucks from my "money pool for phone") hee.. so i got shuling's dad!! YAY!! thanks uncle! (yea like he will read my blog.. lol)

tt's e end of the day.. kinda.. argh la.. cuz i still cant imagine i disappointed tj team..mmm.. but like wad i said,should let go and look forward.. so shall practice wad i say..(: thanks mr wilson for ur encouragements and comforting. they reli helped:)

to follow Christ was never meant to be easy..

prayer
-ms chan to not be sad over the changing of seat in staffroom
-mr wilson to not worry so much
-me to get over today's lost
-ai ning's prosecution at home
-grace's concert tmr
-Si Hui's emo to be over
-shuling's studies and future plans
-my walk with God..

Labels: i'm sorry team

your name wrote at ;; 12:33 AM

Thursday, March 29, 2007

had a major headache today.. so went to school abit later.. but i went (:

before i went, i decided to just on the tv to see wad i could watch to like, wake me up.. switched on the tv, and extreme makeover home edition was on.. randomly, i decided to watch that... but i never thought a show like that would make me tear.. this is the story..

this single mom works as a social worker. it doesnt bring in good money.. but she felt it was her calling, so she continued.. she was a teenage mom, had her child when she was 17.. a pretty girl who is now 10 yrs old.. on top of that, though they are alr rather poor, mom still took in 2 foster kids from the orphanage.. her house was small, packed and.. old.. when the extreme makeover team chose their home, and went there, they were so happy!!! they finally could take a rest, go to disneyland, whilst the team were renovating their house. the team was prob vv touched by how loving the mom was, and had big dreams for them..

in e end, the team turned the one storey house into 2.. and gave dem all they wanted.. a sophisicated room for mom, a dreamy oceanic kinda room for daughter, a space like room for one bro, and a hip hop room for e other.. they were elated.. the girl was screamin and screamin.. they were just so happy and satisfied. (: seeing the joy on their faces, i jus teared.. ok.. when i am typin this, it sounds dumb tt i teared over tt, when i refuse to even cry when i am vv sad.. but yea.. i jus feel so happy for them.:D and at the end the girl said smth.

" i just want to tell everybody, that a miracle can happen to you too so long as you keep the faith."

she is jus a ten yr old girl, who probably does not have alot of money to enjoy her life like her peers do. but she kept the faith.. the phrase "keep the faith" just crashed straight into me..coincidentally, today's QT was on, FAITH..

" if you do not stand firm in your faith, you will not stand at all" Isaiah 7:9

how true.. it is again a reminder to me, to keep the faith no matter wad the circumstance is... even if i am unsure of what lies ahead (which is definitely wad i am facin now), if i do not stand firm in my faith, i will fall.. thank God for this reminder (:

went to school, went for econs lecture, but i didnt have any notes with me.. so started drawin.. hee.. the teacher walked past a few times, and i had to pretend to be VV ATTENTIVE without my notes.. :p

aft econs lect, i was so convinced i couldn tk it anymore.. so didnt go for geog.. sat under Lt2.. read my book.. (: aft tt went for trng..

i was quite sian bcuz there wasnt any coach.. i mean.. i reli dun see e pt in trng without a coach.. like everyone was so slackish and.. jus playin stuff they liked to..i so und wad * meant when she said trng without a coach isnt like trng.. i did try my best to mk the best out of it though.. and finally when i was getting out of my sluggish mode, we had to stop bcuz the pe ppl had to use.. *at this point i was super sian alr..* bcuz trng was supposed to be 5, but bcuz some of them wanted to leave early, so they pushed up.. and in e end, we had to stop halfway. tts when some ppl said they wanted to leave and all.. argh..

at 5 we trained again.. left a few ppl... but it was still those slack kind.. quite a waste of time reli.. like i didnt gain much from the trng.. even to the point i think until my last game, i wasnt even warmed up yet..

but consolation is..we had fun like aft tt.. we were playin those.. haha.. like bend vv low to compete, or tip toe whilst playin, or one legged.. the last game was the most tiring, which was to run to the other side of the table aft hitting the ball once... and thanks to zhi hao, who instigated the whole "aim cassandra" thing.. i lost.. haha.. but tt was fun.. at least for tt i perspired..(:

but o wells.. at least there were good company.. :D

tt kinda sums up the day.. tmr vs TPJC.. and since our team wants to cut costs, i seriously think the coach shdn come.. since, we are gg to play our desired position instead of our real one.. :P

why do i still feel like i am wasting my life away..

prayer
-tmr's match
-tt i will stop feeling useless
-mr wilson will cheer up
-i will go to cell with a heart to praise Him
-* and ** have a Godly relationship

Labels: life wasting

your name wrote at ;; 9:52 PM

WOW!! today is a *WOW* day!! :)

ok.. firstly.. i managed to wake up for morning QT today!! :) decided to give morning a try again.. bcuz aft all, wanna start the day on a high note.. :D and i made it.. special thanks to mr wilson (:

Qt was on isaiah chapter 6.. abt being sent by the Lord.. sorta struck me alot. like.. wad type of impression i am giving to the ppl at school hu noe tt i am a christian.. i mean.. i realised.. my testiomony aint good..like i have not been gg for lessons everyday (bcuz i reli dun see e need to), but wad would the teachers and classmates think.. wad abt being a light shining for God.. thus today, even though i was vv tired, i still decided to force myself to sch.. (resulting in a headache but its ok)

however, i was bored to death in school!! bcuz i didnt dare to go for lesson (fear tt i would get kicked out of class since i haven been in sch for so long) but one step at a time. today i went to school. tmr i shall go for lectures :D

went to CCHMS.. it was decided dat i dun play, at least for the first match.. played against JJC.. the team did well, and we won 5-0.. :D

next school was NYJC, who had quite a no. of rather good players.. we had to make a fast and matured decision, and e moment it was made.. i was so stressed! i tried my best not to show it, but i couldn cux.. i was STRESSED!!

the first singles was quite a waste, but tts bcuz Hui Hua is sick la.. its ok gurl! :D first doubles reli fought hard.. good spirit!! but we lost both.. :S

i was the 2nd singles.. and to be truthful, i was so stressed (did i repeat this twice jus now?) bcuz i was playin the deciding.. sort of.. like if i lost den its e end.. plus, she is e best player ( i think) my hands were jelly, and my legs felt stagnant.. esp since i haven warmed up.. my first service was a out.. i tot.. tts e end!! but i quickly changed that perspective.. and told myself, to stay cool.. in e end, i won 3-0 by God's grace, and also.. with the help of guo wei jiao lian (bcuz yan jiao lian cant come) he reli helped e team alot.. thankew vv much :D sorry i made u cry... i am reli sorry.. hope u will get over the defeat soon..=x

2nd doubles did great!! :) though their opponents were weak, they didnt get complacent.. but they did their best, and YES! we won! :D

3rd singles was ying en and i mus say the atmosphere was.. super heated.. she was laggin behin 2-0, but got it back :) well done girl! though she lost in e end (close fight), i noe she gave it her best shot so we dun have any regrets :)

we were alittle low aft the defeat.. but jus a little.. we got over it quite fast, and started jokin ard.. :D

aft tt, me, en, val, qi, jaren went for dinner at TM food court.. chat chat chat. and okays.. my hokkien is lousy.. lol.. they were laughin all e way... on e bus.. but was sorta relieved tt everyone was happy again.. shdn hold on to defeat for too long.. we even outrightly talked abt the game infront of en, val and hui hua hu unfortunately lost.. *proud tt u girls could pick urselves up so soon*

aft tt.. i treated them to the promised xiao long bao.. :D it tasted sooo good!! haha.. yum yum..:D

we walked ard and chatted for awhile.. before we left to go home.. *and we tot of the strategy and politics when playing with rjc :D*

i'm reli so touched tt u all had e faith in me

*anw.. there are photos below.. :D pls tk a look! *

prayer:
-mr wilson to cheer up
- team to get over defeat and still play well
- my ears- tmr i have prepsared myself for all scoldings :D

Labels: TJC TT TEAM 2007

your name wrote at ;; 12:39 AM

the girls team :)

the guys team :)

en and val getting some rest (on e bus on our way there)

the xiao long bao i treat them :D

look at their SHUANG faces aft eating!!

* TJC TT TEAM 2007!!! *

though we didnt win..we did our best. everyone played a part :) we shd be proud of ourselves and the team:) and we sure did bond during the games:) and most imptly, we enjoyed ourselves :) though there may be disappointments, we will get over dem, train hard, and win the next time round!! rawk on TJC TT TEAM!!! WE can do it!! :)

Labels: TJC TT TEAM 2007

your name wrote at ;; 12:12 AM

Wednesday, March 28, 2007

and this is also my bro bowlin.. and it is a STRIKE AGAIN!! (:

your name wrote at ;; 12:45 AM

this is my bro bowlin!! and it is a STRIKE!!

your name wrote at ;; 12:44 AM

Tuesday, March 27, 2007

! WOoo.. i am TIRED!! (: its a good sign

went to support my bro today.. (: he was competing in doubles catagory today.. and though they didnt get champion.. they got 2nd!! (: their fighting spirit reli amazes me.. they got quite low at the start.. i mean the score.. not their spirit.. their spirit.. is always up.. when one doesnt play well, the other seem to do even beta.. they jus cheer each other on.. and i am so encouraged by dem.. slowly they persisted on.. and they got 2nd!! yay!! * i am gg to post the video.. they are jus like 20s so pls watch k.. its reli reli cool..*

went to TJ for trng.. played comp with samuel and then for fun paired with YQ to play against samuel and shi he.. and ok fine we lost.. by that mere 2 points. this means we are on par ok SAMUEL GOH!! haha... we were like mkin so much noise la.. lol.. but i reli enjoyed myself.. (: me and samuel funny.. 2 singles players playin doubles.. lol..

tmr is the big day for TJC TT TEAM.. (: both guys and gals.. playin the same schools i think.. at least for the gals.. JJC and NYJC..i noe we will do our best. i jus noe.

anw..i jus got my debit card.. YAY!!

Team:

lets reli give our best tmr k.. i will try my very very best to be the best supporter and coach *ahem with special instructions from coach* i am reli sad tt i cannot play with u guys.. but nvm.. being a supporter/coach is the same.. we wil jus do our best.. and God wil do the rest.. hee..fight fight fight teams!! (: *come to think of it.. we will def trash JJ and NY rite!!!!!:P*

*at this point, i jus cut my toe. :(*

i am tryin to hard to contain my disappointment

cheer up buddy (:

prayer:

-mr wilson to cheer up

-me to cheer up

-team to do well tmr

-i wil be of good help tmr

-i will get a life tt is honourable to You

Labels: all the best teams

your name wrote at ;; 11:47 PM

whee!!! i've managed to put a slide show on my blog.. ALL BY MYSELF.. but took alot of efforts though.. :)

today was a ULTIMATE slack day..

3PM-- woke up

4pm-- went to tp

5:30pm-- reached home

6:30pm--left for airport

nope i didn type wrongly.. i woke up at 3pm.. -_- this shall be e last time i am so slack.. reli.. cnot stand myself at all..

went to tp for all the disappointments.. begged dem for extension of registration.. but got rejected.. o wells..

met lemon at airport.. long time since ive been dere i think.. went to popeyes *long time since i ate tt too*.. den we went SWENSEN's for dessert (: and i had my YAM ice cream.. (: had a good chat with him.. talked abt anything and everythin.. had a good laugh and everything was comfy.. reli treasure this friendship.. (:

to nadiah:
darling just saw your paragraph on ur blog for me.. you've also been a wonderful wonderful supporter.. one who understands everythin, and one who truly wished me well.. thanks for walking with me through this tough period of time.. i reli enjoyed all the shoppings, laughings, crappings, sulkings, whinings, rebellings*prob to counsellor onli*.. please take good care in TJ.. and i reli hope we can meet up always.. stay strong always gal.. love ya.. :)

if there is jus one thing i can be thankful for bein retained, it is to get to know you guys, RG... let's not let anyone belittle us.. but stay strong and prove to all tt we aint any less smart than them! :D

some things are best left unsaid
i'm tired of being so sluggish.. i need to get a life

prayer:
-tmr's trng to be a fruitful one
-team to be bonded and play their best
-my registration to poly
-* and **'s relationship to have You in the middle
-lemon's prob
-me to get out of this sluggish attitude

Labels: friendship rules

your name wrote at ;; 3:30 AM

Monday, March 26, 2007

i so miss doggy.. me and my bro were thinkin.. would he still rem us.. dats when both of us actually teared.. we're sorry doggy.. den we failed to keep u by our side. we're sorry tt all we could do was to cry..

i so miss ur whines for food, your barks and your snuggles..

Labels: missing doggy loads

your name wrote at ;; 12:33 AM

went to church in the morning for first service.. and i was a little late. jus a little. haha.. made it in time for worship (:

i went into a mode of reflecting.. then Cui Fen Jie... who is the WL, asked a qns..

"can you think of just 1 incident that you really wanna give thanks to God. that everytime you think of it, you have endless thanks"

the first incident tt came to my mind was my baptism.. i wanna share the story of my baptism

my parents were vv vv against me going to church. especially when i went to AHS. I secretly went church since sec 3.. rem tt time me and sherilyn will totally fake our parents tt we were gg to study, when act both of us would go church. i would even have to run out of church to answer my mom's call. my parents found out abt it when i was in sec 4.. however, instead of scoldin me, they jus gave me a warning abt not gettin baptised and all.. but they allowed me to attend the services and cells.. when things got more stable in J1.. i asked for permission to get baptised.. tt was in Feb i think.. they gave me a straight no.. subsequently i asked and begged.. but no was always the ans.. till J1 Dec.. i asked again.. this time, they got so angry they chased me out of my house. (first time ever) *at this point, i wanna thank my master again for all the listening and talking* when i knew tt there was gg to be a baptism course in feb this yr, i so wanted to go.. but of cos, i didnt dare to ask.. however, one day.. i was so at peace tt i took the step of faith and asked again. i got a yes for ans!! (: i was so overwhelmed.. its like.. so the doin of the holy spirit *praise God!*

i got baptised in 4th March 2007.. my whole family were present at my baptism. (: Praise to be the Lord!

tts my baptism story.. smth tt i will always give thanks for (:

coincidentally, today was my first communion..(: was shivering with joy.. like literally shivering.. haha.. i love to be in Your family!! (:

oh today i also acted in the video for XSY.. me and wx were acting tog.. he was supposed to be a waiter and he was supposed to pour water for me, and get distracted by smth so he will pour on me. he must have been SOOOOO glad!! lol.. we were 2 fools. i mean.. sportsplayers.. acting.. NG and more NGs.. it was totally not naturale... haha.. * i added the e to mk it look more.. stylish? :p* my pants were reli wet aft the acting.. =X but i had a good laugh la.. haha.. cant wait to watch the video :p

went to meet bro at cineleisure.. had a good time talkin to him.. many things have changed for him, since he is at this everchanging stage.. (: but glad he was willin to talk to me (: and i am so glad me and my bro are act...friends (:
today i was on the mrt with you, jus u and me. but we didnt talk..not at all.. for the many many stops. we were silent.. ok maybe except for the bye. it was awkward.. an awkward silence. not onli u but me too.. why is it tt this is happening betweenus. if nth is between us, we shd be like friends.. real friends..but y is it tt u and i are feelin this weird annimosity..

the day all the people in the world will declare that He is our Lord (:

prayer
- **.. i noe he is feelin vv low abt bball and team and all.. but hey.. all for the glory of God k..i am learnin tt too.. so i pray we will learn it tog
-**.. that he will cheer up
-* that her ankle will not injure again
- myself, to get over all the -------- and -------------
- tmr's outcome.. tt wadeva outcome, it is God planned

Labels: awkward silence

your name wrote at ;; 12:10 AM

Saturday, March 24, 2007

yawn!!!

i woke up at like 7plus today!! so unlike me.. haha.. the plan was to meet the rest of the loveus at harbourfront mrt at 930.. and since i am a CGL.. i need to be on time at least! so my cell members wun haf to wait for me.. so this was my motivation to drag myself out of tt comfy bed.

gotta reli thank MOMMY for sendin me to punggol mrt.. so i jus have to tk a straight train.. and so i could slp on the train. :)

i reached early!!!!!!!!! *applause*

we made our way to sentosa.. palawan beach.. seein those ppl tannin there jus made my heart itch.. haha.. i want too!!

we were there to further explore the old testament, which is vv often neglected by youths like us.. first task was to do puppets of the 12 descendants of Jacob... as my cell is sec 1 cell, the puppets may look a little.. kiddy.. but it was our hard work and i am SO proud of themm :)

these were the 12 descendants we made.. wanna find out more.. check out genesis chapter 49 i think..(: vv interesting..

after all the games in the exhalirating heat tt caused EVERYONE to complain (maybe except me bcuz i love the sun, esp if it tans me :) ) wehad lunch and sorta rushed back for service..

after service, went with van,shuling,qixi to shop shop.. it was reli enjoyable talkin to shulin and van. esp when we reached the climax.. - mount k!!! me and van were like.. so heated talkin abt our climb and prep beforehand.. haha.. seriously i dunno where did all the perseverence come from.. to conquere tt huge mountain.. *huge is too mild a word* ask me to climb again.. hmm.. i prob have to find tt missing perseverence first.. =X

oh ya! i walked pass my dance studio today.. had a vv nostalgic kinda feelin.. like.. i used to spend 2-3 days of the week in tt studio, perspiring like anything.. all the free movement and character and pointes.. my my.. this reminds me of the big day again..

i was wondering.. how come wad happened during the sentosa trip would happen.. why me... then i realised.. y do i care.. it is His expectations and His attention tt i need.. man's?? i jus gotta put it aside.. smth to learn. but still.. why do u treat me this way.. is there like some kind of misunderstanding? or is it me?

prayer:

- myself..to reli let go of seekin man's pleasure and attention

-tmr's video tkin for XSY

-my commitment as a group leader in XSY

-tmr activities??? -dunno wad yet

Labels: God's expectations

your name wrote at ;; 11:10 PM

me and nad in the audi waiting for it to start :)

the j3 member singing as guest star

zach engrossed!

sam engrossed!

po kiat too! :)

the group.. SPZ!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

me and the j3 band member..

the pics arent vv clear, cux i took them from my seat which was rather far from the stage.. =S but still,nice shots! :)

your name wrote at ;; 12:16 AM

Friday, March 23, 2007

i was lazy.. yet again.. :S

woke up at 12.. lazed on bed.. till 415 to meet nad.. boring eh..

cabbed to SATA medical clinic to get my report.. and thank you very much, the first thing i saw was..

chest size : SMALL

and nad jus laughed all the way! -_-

went to bedok for dinner... but stopped at this cool shop.. which sells cheap stuff.. and we started..SHOPPIN! haha..like i bought a pair of earrings and bracelet and toe ring. and she bough braclet, braclet, and hairband(braclet still since she wears it on her hand) its always so fun to be ard nad.. :) dinner-ed, and off for TI

the atmosphere was GREAT! i screamed my lungs out, and now my throat's like hurting!! i support SPZ and ARTHI!! :) though SPZ didnt win, ( I DUNNO WHY!) but i reli think they did their best. so they still RAWK!

one of the judges was this guy from the superband show channel U hosted.. the band is called J3 la.. i aint a superbig fan of him.. but since ive seen him on tv before, i decided to try get a pic of him.. and MISS CHAN WANTED TOO!!! but she decided tt was too studently, so she chose to be my photographer instead.. haha.. i will post the photos on a seperate post.. :)

i reli enjoyed myself, maybe bcuz of the company.. thanks so much nad for sticking with me.. :) all the jokes and laughter.. :)

anw, i was wondering the whole week. how do i noe if i am acting myself infront of the rest.. then i rem smth mu shi said before.. the person u reli are is the person u are when u are in the toilet.. point to ponder..
i'm sorry to be mean but i have to keep a distance first.. till i noe u dun like me and i will definitely be ur friend again.

faith is all i need
i think i have given up! :) thank u mr wilson bcuz after talkin to u, i realised my own intepretation of God's grace.. and it is reli by His grace tt i could go thru so much but not be defeated :)

prayer:
-tmr's activity, that the sec1s who are comin will enjoy themselves and learn smth
- grace and her sensitivity towards guys
- J who likes me now, but i dun like him so i am ignoring him now
- ** and *'s relationship.. they look sweet jus now.. may they always be as sweet. :)

Labels: faith and more faith

your name wrote at ;; 11:41 PM

eventful day =)

event 1
went with mom to support bro today.. B div bowling championship.. at the stand, u will hear things like..

"sports school leh. dun do well throw face la"
"sports school sure win wad"
"they dun win they train for wad"
"that's mike.. heard he is good!"---mike is my bro

honestly, if my bro isnt in sports school.. i prob would have said these stuff too.. but with my bro in SSS.. i und the pressure he and his team mates feel.. no doubt they train more.. but they are stil kids.. same age.. the pressure they face jus because of the jersey on them.. i feel quite bad for them too.. to add on, my bro faces a higher expectation due to the achievements he had in the past few yrs.. :S

in the end.. my bro didnt do too well for singles.. not as others expected..ppl whom my bro dun even noe will ask him.. "mike wad did u bowl" and when mybro tell them.. they will be like"oh.. how come".. frankly speaking, i am not disappointed with my bro.. and he aint didappointed with himself either.. i asked him if he feels upset.. he said..

"i will jus reflect, but i wont let today's not too good performance affect me"

at tt point of time. i was shocked.. he is jus a 15 yr old boy. and he has a mentality tt is far more matured and far-sighted than some 50yr old aunties. i am proud of him- MIKE LOH XIAN YAN

event 2
went to support AHS B and C girls.. C won.. B lost (ironically, to SSS).. but they did try their best :) talked to zhen lao shi.. heard alot of stuff tt i dun wish to say.. jus summarise..that sometimes ppl are too results orientated.. =x

of cos got to talk to a few jiao lians.. namely jiao lian Lim (sec 3-4 coach), jiao lian Li (sec 2-3 coach) and guo wei jiao lian (not my coach at all.. but got to know him few mths ago.. ) jiao lians.. are reli.. nice ppl.. they always seem so sporty and fun lovin... and usually NOT RESULT ORIENTATED.. :) at least for the coaches i noe... :)

and i got a free shirt. fullstop.

event 3
had training.. didnt do too well..my hands were shivering most of the time ( idunnowhy). but i played my best :) coach didnt come.. so we jus competed ourselves.. oh but i so enjoyed the doubles with qi.. hee.. we were strong k! haha... =) too bad we never get to play tog :(

event 4
went to visit my grandad who got admitted.. he is fine le. :) thank God.. :)

event 5
got to know this gr8 teacher (yr 3) Mr Wilson.. enjoyed talkin to him though we jus knew each other.. :) great follower and steward of Christ.. =) hearing and sharing testimony was great.. +D

o.O tts all.. haha.. eventful rite.. now for tmr..

event 1
pack my room.. =x k why does tmr's event sound SO MUCH MORE BORING

event 2
collect med checkup report -_-

event 3
GO FOR TEMASEK IDOL! I SUPPORT SPZ!!! =D now this sounds so much better.. +D

some thoughts for today.. who are we doin every single thing in life for? if it is for ourself, we get result orientated.. if it is for pple ard us/ expectations, we get result orientated.. but if we do it for God.. we get God orientated.. i wan to do things for Him!! i wan to dream BIG DREAMS for HIM!! and HIM alone :D

faith is the essence

prayer
-pray for mr wilson's busy day and interview
-pray for my attitude towards life and towards pple
-pray for my buddy's spiritual growth

Labels: faith

your name wrote at ;; 12:15 AM

Wednesday, March 21, 2007

emo-y

sudd i realised.. what i thought is not what it reli is..

sudd i realised.. what i expected is not what i reli wish..

sudd i realised.. what i reli want is not what i can ever reach..

but.. i aint gg to fight anymore..

Labels: EMO-ING

your name wrote at ;; 11:31 PM

went for check up today.. :) NO BLOOD TEST!! some interesting things happened..

a) i was walkin into the clinic when i saw this girl in this robe la.. then i told myself.. "wah monks also come here do med checkup ar.." 10mins later.. i was in the robe myself.. for xray :p
b) i was so scared cux got blood test, but in e end, DUN HAVE.. so i scared for nothin..
c) I didnt noe how to do a urine test :(

after the long wait, *thanks ziqi for pei ing me*, i am finally done!! hee.. one step closer to entering the new phase of my life.. went to meet lemon.. to check out phones..

haii.. the phone i want.. samsung ultra 12.9... i need twohundredandsixtyeightdollars.. yes.. tt much :( shall start saving..

went to TP for friendly..was quite ok la.. :) not too tiring though..

did i do smth wrong again??
i jus want to be friends.. but why do i keep screwing up? i wish someone would jus help me explain.. tt i reli jus wan to be friends with u.. and tt i keep screwing up bcuz i dunno wad i shd do le.. i feel like i am under ur control.. when u r happy, u r nice to me, and i am happy.. when u aint..everything goes wrong.. is it reli me? or is it reli impossible for us to ever.... be friends? jus friends..

prayer:
-my friendship with isaac
-** self esteem
-my ankle
-my saving money for phone

Labels: what wrong?, what's right

your name wrote at ;; 11:08 PM

slack day yet again..

went to school at 2.. to let the school confirm that i have withdrawn -_- dunno how many times i must assure them

then went for breakfast/lunch with hui hua. had a great chat.. telling each other stories.. :) i will miss u girl..

did pt.. jus 3 rounds, but i sorta twisted my ankle.. luckily its jus a minor one.. :S i hate weak ankles jus like anyone else..

trng was kinda...sian.. cuz i was onli pei-lian-ing.. but towards the end i got to play match with samuel. heh..and now his life is mine!! yay!! :) aint meant to be anythin scandalous.. jus a small bet we had.. :P

tmr is gg to be exciting!! :) got loads of things to do..
a) meet ziqi to go for medical checkup
b) meet lemon to go see my PHONE
c) buy deodorant (dove/addidas)
d) friendly at TP again

still holdin on to that thin strand of hope...

Prayer:
- my grandfather who jus got admitted to hospital
- for me to be able to play in A DIV
- * and **'s spiritual growth
- gq and his unresolved prob with God church

Labels: weak ankles

your name wrote at ;; 12:41 AM

Monday, March 19, 2007

today is independent day.. :)

woke up and went to make my ez link card and posb card and debit card.. :)

den went to tamp to buy things myself.. feels so good to have access to my atm card again. but hey i am not spendthrift anymore. i jus bought some stuff i need..

went to ntuc to buy groceries for dinner. fish n chips! :)

i dunno if He is tryin to tell me smth or wad.. yesterday i heard 2 stories of young bgr, and 1 story of 1 person leading another. today i hear another young girl who has a crush on my close friend. i will learn from every single situation.. and honour You in all my ways.

i did all these by myself.. proud of myself.. im learning more and more to be independent, to be real.. reli give thanks to the Almighty.. i noe i will never be able to change any bit if it is not His will or without His strength..

each different day as a different challenge, and i am going to overcome each of them with Your strength

Prayer:
- church pple havin block test
- my disciple's crush
- me and unoehu and **
- grace

Labels: independent day

your name wrote at ;; 9:48 PM

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your name wrote at ;; 9:48 PM

Sunday, March 18, 2007

feeling better le. i am feelin better, and my laptop sudd ok le.. :)

part 1

went church today.. talked to 1 disciple.. facing with someBGR prob..then talked to a grandmother.. she came to find me.. she is reli concerned abt her granddaughter, who is also in a bgr.. i felt kinda helpless.. jus said i will talk to her...

as i slowly grow older, and take more disciples.. as more parents come and look for me.. and talk to me abt their children, i more and more understand.. why do parents worry.. i understand how they reli care.. and i am gettin tired of all these... bgr for fun, flirting with guys etc.. i dun dare say i never do these before.. act.. all these i have done.. sadly.. but aft hearing wad parents and all say.. i dun wan to be like that. i wan to be real and committed..

had cell today.. more of like study cell.. for those hu has block test to study.. and for those pple like me and the tjcians who have no exams.. we movie-ed.. watched saw and mean girls.. haha.. 2 extreme shows.. but was great:)

2 words have been screamin to me today.. after all the counsellin i gave and all the stuff i heard..

GET REAL

i am committin this feeling to You.. You take charge, and You lead.

part 2

i am sorry.. sorry team.. sorry mr fan.. sorry mr ng.. sorry everyone.. disappointment.. i didnt expect it to be so soon.. i am out. out of tjc. out of A div. only can be a supporter.

sorry jiao lian. he always tell me that i am a sure point. sorry. :(

its not abt wad others think, its abt wad You think

prayer:
-STEWARDS and DURACELL pple hu has block tests tmr
-grace's awareness of her reactions
-myself to let go of the disappointment
-yh, zx, kl and bf hu are in young bgr stages..

Labels: GET REAL

your name wrote at ;; 9:32 PM

my laptop is DOWN!!! :(

i'm not feelin well.. :(

prob too busy..not feelin too well..

to u: jiayou

prayer
-shuling,aining,corine,lianghan,weixuan,sihui's tests
-** i dunno wad he is facing, but pray he will rely on God's strength always
-myself to get well soon

Labels: sick...

your name wrote at ;; 12:19 AM

Thursday, March 15, 2007

this is the team..

not in pic: me (camerawoman). hoishek, samuel,liwan,magdalene,yichen,joel,shi he

your name wrote at ;; 1:01 AM

had table tennis camp for the past few days..

monday
reached sch at 645.. was SUPER tired.. met dang shi to final discuss the remainin stuff.. training was tough.. those 3hrs kind of trng with coach being super strict aint smth real fun.. lol.. we have sort of finalised who's playing singles and doubles..

had games in the afternoon.. poor them..had to play under the hot sun. but i guess they enjoyed.. i hope..it was reli tiring.. but at the same time.. hope they learnt to trust each other more more more.. :)

played captains ball for leisure.. was playin halfay but decided to stop.. cuz i was wearin slippers. and i dun wan the same thing to happen again this yr..

pt was tough.. but they gained from it (i hope again)

me and dang shi started on our video at night.. BUT were too tired aft plannin next day's prog so wasnt reli gettin anywhere..

tuesday
woke dem up early. had breakfast and told dem their task today.

they had 2 routes to choose from..
tjc-->pasir ris-->tampines-->simei-->bedok-->east coast
tjc-->bedok-->simei-->tampines-->pasir ris-->east coast
all by foot... it was tiring.. reli i noe it was.. but glad they had integrity and didnt tk bus.. :) great job team!

eveybody died-ed when they reached ECP.. some complains here dere... but most didnt.. rested.. and walked back to tjc..

at first i was vv sian cux it was raining for BBQ.. but we decided to go on with it.. 1 person held the umbrella, 2 ppl bbq, 1 person spread butter, 1 person standby to bring the cooked food into shelter and 1 person to put uncooked food on the grill.. haha team bondin ehs...i was mostly the umbrella person.. and it was freaking tired! plus the smoke into my face but NO WAY I COULD RUN FROM IT.. haha.. but at least we had dinner :)

showed them the video.. wasnt professional.. but gload they enjoyed watchin and they had a good laugh.. :)

no lights off so alot of us slept at 3 plus 4.. supposed to wk up at 7..

wednesday
in e end.. everyone was too tired.. i had to call coach to change the trng time to 9 am.. mm tts for discipline? played comp.. argh.. wasnt too good..

went long john for lunch. tts when i got to know zhi hao better.. :) esp after me and qi wanted to set up the 2 who were already scandalous during the whole camp to become more scandal for the last time!! took a cab home with him..

reached home and i slept.. all the way to now.. and ihaf no dinner!! shall go back slp again.. tmr is church chalet.. mmmMMM..

organising a camp aint easy at all.. but seein the campers gain smth and enjoying, the feelin is jus so so so great! :)

season is warmwarmwarm.. it is comincomincomin in 2weeks2weeks2weeks... we will doourbestdoourbestdoourbest.. we willnotbedefeatednotbedefeatednotbedefeated.. :)

pray for today and tmr's sec1s who went for the chalet. that they open their hearts to the gospel and turn up for em on sat
pray for * and **'s individual camps
pray tt i get my competiton attitude right
pray for good rest for the team

Labels: trng camp is officially over

your name wrote at ;; 12:33 AM

Sunday, March 11, 2007

had a great day today..

went for PABA today.. as usual i cnot tAke LONG meetings without being restless.. :X

celebrated my dearest disciple Anna's bdae. :) it was a surprise thingy.. cuz i told her i wun be going.. which made her so disappointed.. aww sorry darling!

this is anna with her new specs :)

the sunday sch peeps.. all sec2s.. :) my pioneer batch of cell tt i took.. :)

me and anna, with the prezzie and cake i got her.. :)

a shockin kiss from anna when marg jis counted 3 :D

was reli great seein her so happy.. te relationship built with my disciples, i reli thank God.. :)

aft spendin time with my disciples, time to spend time with my discipler.. haha... me,shuling,corine,pwj,wx,aloy.. went for swensens (again!)

played like fools, war-ing with ice cream and thanks to wx.. we were observing shuling's ahem.. okay maybe it was jus wx.. :P

on our way back, we realised mrt has new colour seats!

cool huh.. 2 shades of red.. woots

fools on mrt.. =s

tmr is the tt camp.. i hope to do it well.. still got quite alot of uncertanties.. =x hope it will reli be one tt bonds the team, and also one tt let us be more focused on our goal.. though the grouping isnt vv good again (as usual), try our best, and best is enough. :)

attn: I HAVEN PACK MY BAG. ITS 11:15. i need to be in school at 6:30!

is this march hols even a hols?

pray for camp to go smoothly
pray for anna to have a closer walk with God
pray tt my dg will be closer and closer.. :)
pray for eunice, who is kinda on off in church now
pray for ** and *'s spiritual walk with You..
pray for *'s burden of sharing the gospel with friends..

Labels: disciples and disciplers

your name wrote at ;; 10:57 PM

Saturday, March 10, 2007

blessed day :)

went to tj at 10.. yawn.. =x

went to see vp.. den pass the present to mr eugene and miss chan... :) glad they like it..

slept at lt2 =s for manymanymany hrs

went with grace to kallang sunsport to order jerseys.. thank God for jiaolian.. hu fetched us from KFC with his car, den gave us such a good price, den gave me a free jersey, den sent me and grace all the way to simei.. when he was act gg to NTU.. thanks man.. u rawk!! :)

went shoppin with grace.. loads of crap. haha.. aft crappin and bla bla bla.. den we left..

went to pwj house SUPER EARLY.. first time. thank God for gui zhen jie.. she see me eat cup noodle so ke lian.. den she help me add vege. den i wan to put all the liao in the cup noodle bowl den put hot water.. den she was like cannot cannt.. wun cook! in e end she cooked for me.. thanks loads gui zhen jiE!! :)

had a great time at cell.. God reminded me of how at times i use God as an excuse to disobey Him.. and one eg jus popped into my mind, which later i brought up to the others and we had a fair share of discussion. if the person we like is a non christian and we like him.. we may think we are tryin to bring him to salvation. but as a matter of fact, it is jus an excuse. solution? shd jus flee from the whole thing.. :)

had a great chat with my dear sister shuling today.. ahem.. haha..

tmr is a BUSY day...

shall use this instead of personal blog for some reasons.
pray for ning.. that whatever is bothering her, she will got to the Lord for strength.
pray for shuling, coring, ning, si hui, (liang han) block test..
pray for tmr sec1 cell. that the sec1s hearts will be opened, and co operation between leaders
pray for gq and grace friendship.
pray for * and **'s relationship, that they will compliment each other, and have God in the centre of their relationship

Labels: blessed day:)

your name wrote at ;; 12:14 AM

Friday, March 09, 2007

today was an okay day..

went to school at 12 plus.. to watch the temasek idol lunchtime concert.. ranted on abt my lost wallet. God help me forgive that person and put this past me..

spent alot of time with grace and hui hua.. chat.. then had to go for counselling.. jus dun like counselling :X good thing is i dun think i need to go liao.. yay! :)

thank you Mr Fun and Mr Ng.. i think i can play for tjc.. :) *crossing my fingers for now*

Grouping:
a) Temasek Jc
b) Tampines Jc
c) Nanyang Jc
d) Raffles Jc
e) Jurong Jc

went for bc meeting.. thank God we had some ideas.. :) and managed to catch up with marcus and son.. hee.. then finished my present for the teachers.. (thanks son and marcus for ur help :D)

tmr i need to go see Mrs LOke with mr Moi.. ZzzZZ i am sorry but i reli reli dun like him :S

shd i get a bike... i reli wan one..

thank u * for that secret msg.. act i thank God that we act share a friendship.. and one relationship that keeps encouragin each other.. though ** is in e middle, but i promise i wun get in e way. i thank God for *.. thank u for your encouragements. i will be praying for * and **'s relationship..

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your name wrote at ;; 1:16 AM

Thursday, March 08, 2007

RAH

im freakin disappointed..

expected a fun day.. well i had.. at first.. met chyr at simei to eat lunch. ate at jacks place. den went to east coast.. bladed vv vv long.. at least 7km i think. den met alvin,ziqi,johnson. ate dinner den went bowlin.

and tts when i lost my wallet. which has the 100plus dollars.. the money which i saved to buy my bike. it was STOLEN.. wad a big freakin disappointment.there goes my bike. :(

whoever who stole my wallet.. get a life! =x even being a beggar seems like a better choice.

thanks alvin for sayin you would lend me ur bike when i wan to cycle
thanks ziqi for keep helpin me search and ask ard.. for my wallet
thanks johnson for sayin tt you will go find a job with me to earn the money back
thanks chyr for being by my side

and my mom is irritating me now..

argh! dun irritate me these few days. I will bite.

Labels: disappointment.

your name wrote at ;; 1:04 AM

Tuesday, March 06, 2007

a short but sweet chapter of my lfe officially ends today. x(

went to sch early in the morning.. wasnt late somemore.. to sing the vv last of the national day anthem.. today onli like 1 period... to get posting results.

i got into Hospitality and Tourism Management in Temasek Polytechnic by results.. jae... not dae! *finally FINALLY smth i can be alittle proud abt*

aim of gg to sch today was to tk pic with some teachers.. hmm.. first cher i saw was mr fan. But i realised.. it is reli quite weird to ask for photo taking with a teacher.. one on one.. esp a male one =x ended up tkin him without me.. diaoz..

managhed to tk with ms chan and mr eugene though.. :D

then went to meet ziqi to go for some job thingy.. sounds not bad. will discuss with dad first :) who ask him to be some buisness pro.. :)

went to meet 26/07 for last dinner.. hmm not so sad la.. jus.. dinner.. haha.. supposed to meet 430.. i was late so told them nt to wait and to go first.. i reach at 530 and saw dem waiting.. so i said.. i tot i ask u all go first.. den they say, we are expecting another 8 more.. lol. my class is so like me.. hahas..

we went to marina south for steamboat.. it was pourin.. so steamboat was so wen nuan.. we ate and chat and laughed and tried eating crabs (which aint easy since it is one whole crab) and laughed at olivia again.. haha.. had a great time!! :D i reli love this class..

on the way home, we were reli vv yi yi bu she.. esp for those gg to another school.. sianz.. i reli hate the leaving part..

esp leaving aud and elaine.. esp elaine since she is gg mjc.. no more cam whoring.. no more.. acting bimbo (or being one) no more crappin with them... boo

i realised i got busted.

told **today tt i got into the course i want.. ** totally heck care me.. which mks me wonder.. am i not even a church mate to him? i msged * today.. to help this gal whom i dun even noe to get in. i am letting go.. i think.. ok maybe i tk that back for the moment..

Labels: emo-y

your name wrote at ;; 11:38 PM

Monday, March 05, 2007

woke up at 11.. officially at 12.. hmm... cass is bcoming LAZY.lol

went to meet the 26/07 peeps at parkway.. went to k box.. had a great time laughin and laughin.. esp at our dearest olivia.. :) u rox girl! hehe..

sang sang sang.. den sudd.. we felt like being mean..

we complained abt k box.. havin no eng songs so poor aud and charlotte cnot sing though they paid.. aft negotiation and arguing, we managed to get a refund for 2 peep.. yay! saved ard 4 bucks each :p

aft tt i RUSHED home to watch tv.. but to find that i lost my keys.. argh.. had to wait downstairs for mom.. but she wun be done till at least 2h later. so i decided to go meet wei xiong to help him find and do his farewell presents.. haha.. everythin turned out fine.. and i NEVER knew wei xiong had tt side of him.. *e dedicted side* woots!

tmr i gg sch... last day. :( gona tk pics with everyone! all e teachers all the pple!! :)

the outcome of wx's dedication..and mine! :p

i will so miss 26/07.. thank God tt i was in time to haf this friendship with this group of WHEE ppl.. e few tt i could reli be me in front of.. and be appreciated..thank you guys! u all RAWK! :D

do u think i can take pic with the 2 of u? hmmx.. i guess it will be easier for me to get over aft i leave.. :S

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your name wrote at ;; 11:33 PM

today is e big day...

woke up early.. but constantly reminding myself of the true meaning of baptism.. kept tellin myself its not to wear nicely or wad.. like brother Daniel said.. it is also not a question of whether my life is smooth sailing now or not.. it's about proclaiming my faith to God, pple ard me, bro and sis and also satan...

went to church.. was vv jittery.. grace and gq reach le.. haha.. as usual i am not early de.. =s went inside and sat with the bro and sis tt are gettin baptised oso.. :) was thinkin alot durin the whole service.. like whether my parents will sudd stop me.. i was also askin GOd.. my my.. why do You choose this toughest period of my life to get baptised.. i still dun haf an ans.. but i trust that God noes wad He is doin best.. so i shall jus give thanks and give more thanks..

finally it was baptism.. wa.. so nervous lo.. i never walked the aisle with mu shi they al b4..ok maybe when i am late for service :s but its diff la.. haha..

used gong dao shu and all..i was the 2nd to get baptised.. i didnt noe wad to do at all.. but e moment mu shi drew a cross on my forehead.. i was alr convicted that i will carry the cross for Him and trust in Him..

aft baptism.. was like my marriage.. ppl were congratulating me.. tkin pic.. it was like... a whole bizzare thing.. but it was reli enjoyable.. and also nice to see ppltk time down to witness this event.. thanks loads :)

went for lunch at sakura with wx and aloy.. ate ALOT.. aloy had to leave early..and me and wx cont eating.. :p den aft my whining skills proved UNSUCESSFUL, i went home.. act wanted to watch movie de..but wx say tired..den nv go lo.. i went home.. and u noe wad.. before i even received wx's msg tt he was tired and sorry.. i alr fell aslp.. :P i reli torture my body man.. dun even noe when i am so tired.. haha.. slept till dinner time..

went to grandma's place for dinner. i was still supER full so jus ate an egg.. haha.. aft tt we had the usual catchin up sessions, tt usually start with cousins-cousins, adults-adults, den MERGE.. the merge is the most scary de.. haha.. like waR!!but thankGod they didnt disapprove of my baptism.. they even told my mom never to ask me go temple.. hehe..thanks relatives.. :D

ok enough of all the happy things.. sad thing is.. i am havin bad diarrhoea.. =s from 12 -now, which is 1am.. i had 3 diarrhoea sessions and 1 pukin session.. reason?

a) i am not used to eating SO MUCH

b) food not clean

but i think it shd be the former.. bcuz wx is fine! *pouts*

ppl i wanna thank

a) God- for Your amazing works again and again

b) family- for being so understanding

c)STEWARDS- who came for my baptism, or at least msged me..

d) Grace and guo qing- who didn go their church today jus to witness this baptism

e) all the darling sec2s who said the infinite congrats to me..

f) other 2H-ers like aloy and samuel for wkin up so early..

g) all the other church peeps. :D

h) I HAVE TO BOLD THIS.. THANK YOU WX FOR COMING AND WITNESSING THOUGH I NEVER EVER TOT YOU WOULD.. see i so nice give special attention=p comes with a price k.hehe

now for the pics..

STEWARD gals..plus mingli who also got baptised.. thanks for coming darlings :)

this is my mushi! who is also my relative!! :)

me and dearest grace :)

sportsclass ppl..:)

me and my dearest cell leader.. :)

this is one of my fave pic.. cux i had to donate $$ to tk with them. haha.. cute bing bing and joel.. =)

this is yan ning.. cute and gentle girl. jus like wei ning =x

this is guo qing.. :)

and my DI!!!! haha.. *wx u beta nod ur hear*

my presents

thank u Lord.. thank u Daddy.. for all the amazing things You did for me.. the path infront is definitely not straight.. its far from smooth.. but i am sure.. You will walk with me thru my ups and downs..

i wasnt disappointed u didnt come. i was more of thankful tt i could be focused on the whole baptism thing. and u noe wad.. i always thank God for u.. i dunno y jus always feel that u will def be here for me.. i may be stubborn.. i dunwan to think otherwise.. am i silly.........

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your name wrote at ;; 12:20 AM

Sunday, March 04, 2007

thank u Lord...

thank u Lord that You had to plan for fu shun mu shi to talk abt a call in the wilderness... that being a failure is ok.. bcuz God embraces failures.. like how He embraced Peter, who disowned Jesus 3 times.. i reli didnt want to hear it at first.. felt like i was stripped naked.. and i had to sit directly in front of mu shi.. and i dunno if its me, but i felt he kept lookin at me.. as though he noes i dun wan hear, but he got a msg for me.. thank you Lord for this msg..

thank u Lord that durin cell.. though the topic was evangelistc tools, brother Jeremy shared abt his life and how inferior he felt before, and how he didnt love himself.. and shared the 2 songs, "who am I" and "dao gao" which spoke straight to me again..

thank u Lord that by Your grace, i am getting baptised tmr.. esp since this is my down-est moment, and my spiritual life is so on the rocks.. but You still cleared all obstacles for me to get baptised..

thank u Lord that by Your grace, i managed to do well for my chinese though i didnt put in much efforts..

went for dinner with my 2 disciples.. =) had a great time talkin and laughin.. as well as sharing abt our lives.. mm nth much to say.. jus some photos.. =)

my two dearest disciples, qi xi and anna

my fellow cell mates plus my discipler

me and small teeth!! bdae boy!! haha and wx tryin to steal the limelight from the back

taken in toys r us.. =p not supposed to i think =x

my bro.. both of us are tryin to keep our eyes opened.. i guess i succeeded.. =p

my baptism photo!!

tmr is the day..

one more thing to thank u Lord.. thank you for letting ** msg me.. the first to congratulate me.. thank you that * is feeling better now.. I want to be the first to give them all the blessings...

Labels: thank you Lord.. many many thank yous

your name wrote at ;; 12:54 AM

Saturday, March 03, 2007

went to school today.. was late for assembly...again.. =x

ended lesson at 1040.. den went to hub all e way until 1230 when nad fin.. then to cool ourselves down (we were vv nervous abt our mother tongue alevel results i dunno y), we went to eat lunch at bedok.. which seemed far enough so it felt like escaping for awhile..

me and nad almost went CRAZY with the tension.. seriously.. i dunno why were we so freaked out.. when we were onli tkin 1 paper whilst our seniors were takin all.. but i was still vv scared la..

went to lt1.. took my results.. did ok.. its all God's grace.. thank you Lord..

went to meet ziqi.. talked alot.. thanks ziqi aka stubborn+concern+loso man.. =p for listening to me and all..=) aft tt went to meet alvin to go meet the other 2h-ers for dinner.. thanks alvin too.. didnt noe u could be serious.. =p

ordered food at 85.. but e moment food came, me, wx,wx,samuel,aloy had to rush up to church for prayer meeting.. was SOooOOO hungry.. =s had a fruitful prayer meetin.. felt God's peace in me at this messy time.. had a nice time prayin with samuel too.. aft prayer meetin, for the first time, i was one of the first to disappear from the room (last time always need yu lan jie to chase us) reason y i left? i was TOO HUNGRY!!!

bought guan guan.. was so sian with the stall holder.. i told him i sit at table 45 when i ct 42 i think.. den he like made a big fuss la.. i was like sorry sorry.. den $3 i accidentally gave him $2.70 (saw a 20cent as 50) den he like say alot.. sorry i was blur la.. but u could have been kinder =x

yes i am fickle minded.. oh shite.. i reli am...

hope * is not too upset abt ur results alr.. although you are with **, which mks me a little envious at times.. i still regard u as a friend.. =) hope u will cheer up soon.. *i reli am giving my blessings to the both of u.. and i reli do care for u.........*

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your name wrote at ;; 12:06 AM