Cassandra Loh

Tuesday, February 27, 2007

ok i shall say it clear now..

i jus stepped down from being the captain of the team.. and.. stepped down from tjc tt team as well.. it wasnt easy.. sayin to the 10 over ppl who jus stare at u.. those ppl who u noe shd be down dere playin the game with u.. we shd be a team.. we shd be wearin tt jersey tog.. and supporting each other. i held back all the tears.. and told dem all tt i needed to say.. somehow it was tough. tougher than i tot..i couldn say alot of stuff tt i wanted to.. but i noe the team will und all tt i wanted to say.. i hope.. =s

today was a lazy day. i woke up officially at 11.. haha.. and went to sch.. jus for 3 reasons.

1) pei wen qi bcuz she is the onli 1 in class hu dun go for chempract besides me.. (but now elaine joins e gang)

2) cel Na kakak's bdae.

3) go for trng

well well well.. see how slack =(.. but things came out of it.. =D

aft chem pract..mr low came to find me under lt2.. we talked for half an hour (acc to wen qi, though i tot it was onli 5-10min).. at first it was superficial.. we jus talked abt whether i have tot thru carefully.. and whether i reli like e course i gg to.. den we went into more depth.. we talked abt calling and God's will.. i must say.. God reli spoke to me thru Mr Low.. 2 things tt deeply impressed my mind.. basic things..... but... impt basic things...

a) God canmake any wrong decisions right
b) God will be with me no matter what decision i make

simple logic.. anyone noes.. but... somethin tt requires faith.. as small as a mustard seed it may be.. but faith.. to believe.. thanks mr low..my my... God works in wonderful ways.. wad can i say.. i never knew mr low.. as in i know him but he doesnt know me.. started reading his blog last...june? and felt tt it was kinda interesting so it started becoming a routine blog, which means i will def go to his blog when i am online...this yr.. he became my chem prac cher.. but.. i dun need tk chem prac! but we ended up with this talk.. hmm.. amazing huh..

played freezbie today.. whoa. it is more tiring than i tot it'd be.. haha... den went for trng..

coach told me tt i will do more of.. trng the newcomers.. hmm.. i accept tt.. though it reli do get boring sometimes, esp watchin others playin comp and i playing basic strokes with them.. but i reli wan the team to be well..=x played with desmond and hui fen.. it jus brings me back to when i first started..learning from scratch... aww.. some real scary memories.. =p but.. every bit of those scary memories accounts for wad i am now.. =) not tt i am vv good.. but o wells.. :D

to tjc tt team:
i am reli sorry i had to go.. esp when this is.. like one of the toughest time ever.. i struggled.. and i mus admit i am being selfish.. i reli hope the team will cont to strive hard.. i promise... the new captain chosen will be a good one. i will ensure tt..its e least i can do.. :x i will trymy best to go for every game.. in the jersey u all wear.. i will try to come down for all the trngs.. to train e newer ones.. i promise to come for march camp.. i reli hope.. that wadeva happens to the tt team will be a push factor.. not a stumbling stone.. nth is impossible.. so lets our fix our eyes on our goal.. and work tog as a team.. inc me.. i will be e best audience and supporter.. cheerin u guys on from the sides.. thank u all for being such wonderful team mates.. thank u all for all e memories we had tog( like laughin and crapping tog, doin pt tog) .. even e bad ones (like me chokin on fish bone, or like samuel injuring his toe) i will miss u guys.. alot alot... do your best... and lets have no regrets.. :) lets trash and stomp on the feets of all e competitiors.. esp **JC.. ;) love u guys :)

to 26/07:
you guys... reli made my days in tjc this yr. much much easier.. this is a tough yr.. but knowin u guys and havin u guys ard.. jus made everythin perfect again.. =) those cam hoggin times.. and those vandali**** ahem.. and those gigglings.. u guys are sweet :) thanks audrey for sayin u miss me.. though u said u miss my nonsense too.. =p thanks for bein such a sweet bunch.. oh and eunice and elaine.. thanks for even rem wad i eat and dun eat in sch..my my.. we onli noe each other for a mth plus? but u guys even noe wad i eat and dun eat.. i was so touched... i will reli miss u guys.. i thank God tt.. i retained.. in time to know u ppl.. all the rubbish times and all e fun.. i will never forget them.. love u all.. :)

i dun wan to leave.. i cant bear to.. but at this point of time, i jus have to hold back all the tears..and leave, with a smile...

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