Cassandra Loh

Monday, November 13, 2006

jus realised that quite alot of people know my blog.. but anw i shant keep it a secret animore.. bcuz i want to use this blog as a testimony lo.. to anybody hu needs it and happens to pop by.. that one i leave it to God.. but having said that does not mean that all in this blog will be how God has bless me and all.. my frustrations, anger and thanks and many more will all be inside.. so leave it to u guys to filter wad is wrong. i m not perfect.. i jus wan to look back at all these entries.. and probably see how God is working in my life.

sometimes i reli get so frustrated with this Father i have. reli.. its like.. u noe.. He has a plan for each and everyone of us.. but He so slowly unveil His plans.. we wil jus have to take detours, wrong routes and all.. before reaching His ultimate plan for us.. then He dun answer prayers at times but jus want us to wait... Daddy ar..u noe ur daughter vv lost not? i dn even noe wad to prepare bcuz i dun even noe wad is my road like.. and i m nottokin abt the far future.. i mean i dunno my road that is gg to happen jusin 2 mths time le! how uncertain i can get??

Lord... you inspired someone to write that footprints story.. You will carry us when we are in our darkest and stormiest times... You know the way home..You are sheltering m.. You are my hiding place..Lord i have a choice.. i can choose to believe or not to believe all that i have said.. and i choose to believe! so Lord... please help me instill these into my heart. You know how weak i get.. how easily wavered my heart can be. When problems come, instead of keepin this faith, i often choose to waver and doubt You,dount Your existence, ask if You are to busy to even care abt me.. Lord help me.. keep my faith.. Lord carry me..

i somehow just knew that me serving the children's camp is gg to be vv beneficial for me.. thats why though i m vv busy, i chose to serve.. today i lookeed thru theQT materials.. bcuz its for children, its vv basic.. one QT wasabout Jesus loving us.. simple.. but u noe.. this simple thing.. is a difficult lessonto learn. as we grow and we meet trials, how to built our house on rocks and stand firm in our faith, that is wad's hard. so now though i noe all the theory stuff.. when i m facing my own storm now... its good to go back to wad a child learns. bcuz its when we reli can apply.. so Lord i pray that You reli use this camp to cont to mould me to be a woman of faith. The road in front of me.. may be the toughest in my 17yrs.. i noe i will fall.. i anticipate that i soon start to waver..this flame in my heart is flickering. but Lord.. i am your daught er nevertheless.. so i will be home... i will come home.. with your grace and mercy upon me, YOU WILL CARRY ME HOME...

thank you Lord.. i reli am entrusting my life into Your hands

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