Cassandra Loh

Monday, November 20, 2006

i realise... how some distant friends.. hu u never tot will even give a damn about u act do care.. a bro has jus brought tears into my eyes again..

he gave me a verse, Isaiah 41:9-10... he reminded me of the Lord's love.. and how He's strength is enough... He told me not to give up.. he told me He has a plan for me...

He is a vv unexpected person.. i never tot he would have cared... i noe some close friends do care.. i noe even if dey dun say it out.. they care... and when one close friend, sudd dun care much, the disappointment u get is so great.. but when a distant friend, a friend that u never tot would care.. would stand by ur side.. sudd say such encouraging words upfront.. my heart jus warms up..

thanks wen yang..thanks for being such a great brother. thanks for that verse.. more imptly, thanks for showing our Lord's love..

to those hu have cared, worried, prayed, encouraged me.. thank you.. cassandra met with a downfall.. but she will rise in due time.. jus gif her some time.. but for now.. the Bintan camp and the children camp...i will use it as a retreat for myself.. i reli need to quieten down and think.. where did i go wrong.. wad shd i do next.... i realised.. tt i need time to reli be by myself and think.. think quietly without the influence of anyone.. i probably needa talk to someone.. and probably the someone is either pwj, fu shun mu shi or marg jie.. i wont go into depression though dun worry =) to those pple hu wonder, why do i tok to them and not some others, i jus hafta say.. prob it is not too easy to talk to my dearest close friends.. bcuz i dun wish for u all to worry.. but reli dun worry.. bcuz.. i will be fine.. i jus need some time... i will be back fighting on...

i jus need some time.. with Lord and myself.. i still have doubts and questions to ask Him.. but since i noe He loves me nevertheless, He will walk with me throughout this period of doubt..

lastly to my friends, i m sorry tt i haven been a gd friend... im sorry i have given u guys less care... sorry guys..

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