Cassandra Loh

Saturday, June 24, 2006

today.. i was looking through all the posts i haf written since june2005.. i realised that it's been one yr since i started blogging.. and in this one yr.. so many things haf happened.. guess the reason i first started to blog was because i wanted to use this as a form of place to channel all my thoughts to isaac.. i lied abt the reason of our break up.. i lied in my blog.. whilst reading my entries.. i realised.. how up and down i was reli feeling.. probably it's e music ba.. my blog music so sad...lol..when i read, there's this lingering taste of memory la... like when i first lied to isaac abt our break up..to when i was so strong abt the break up... to i started breaking down bcuz i realised how much i missed him... to i told him the truth.. to him becoming so cold to me... to i tryin to get him back.. to me completely broke down... to me starting to heal.. to me now healed i guess.. all in one yr.. these memories are reli sweet as i read in the blog..

of course.. the memories also included the tyms when i wanted to gif upfor o's bcuz i was reli dying!!! it was like so stressful and all... but o well.. i tied through this..and i reli wana encourage all my dear sec 4 juniors lo.. i reli noe how u all feel la. but jus endure lo.. bcuz if u studied hard rite.. when u get back ur results and u look back.. u realise how much it's worth it la.. like me now.. jus like any other jc students, i m stressing over my JCT la.. as in reli.. im dying.. haha.. feel vv not confident and all.. but i jus tell myself to push on lo.. yea..

realised that one yr flies vv fast.. but oso.. in that fast one yr..many things will happen.. and if we do not cherish the time we haf.. we will realise that this tym jus slips off our hands.. jus like i can never get out of ahs, jus like i can never re take my olevels as an ahs student.. jus like i cannot go back to tpjc for my first three mths.. jus like i cannot go back to they tyms i dun need physio.. jus like i cant go back to the tyms i was with isaac.. all these memories... are so.. real.. yet so far away now...

i cant deny tt i miss so many things tt happened before.. i miss those happy and sad moments i experienced.. those tyms i had to pia like crazy formy prelims and o's... the timei cried when i got my chi results.. the tym when i realised i can achieve results and i m not dumb.. for those hu dunno.. i appealed into AHS and i m the bottom five students.. my PSLE got onli 224.. i jus felt tt compared to these smart students here, i will never do well. but when i saw my results, though it wasn fantastic, i reli thanked God.. for allowing me to come to AHS.. feel so value added.. =D

act i duno why am i writing all these reminisce stuff when exams are like the day aft tml!! haha.. but i jus feel tt.. these shd be noted down lo.. may i always remember.. the happiest and saddest moments of my life.. and always thank God for them.. bcuz without them, i wouldn grow. without them, i wouldn haf realised i haf a bunch of money friends ard me.. =P hu always were dere for me lo.. i thank God for them too..i will cherish my life.. i will cherish every single event tt happened to me, be it good or bad.. bcuz these are footprints tt will always be in my heart lo..

to my dear friends, i love u

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