Cassandra Loh

Wednesday, April 12, 2006

creative@ jurong east... my mp3...your house.. the ahs tt room.. GALILEE... NTUC..plaza sing.. airport... chicken rice stall.. sin ten.. bugis.. EAST COAST PARK... RING..FEATHER SHAMPOO... NOODLES AT YOUR HOUSE... memries.. reli r memries.... i miss u. i reli do.. e amt i miss u is reli far more than u and i expected... i duno.. i duno how to deal with myself.. someone slap me.. someone pls wk me up... pls!! i m gg insane.. i mean insane.. e pain.. unbearable....

broke down on sat.... in church.. "even when u feel that noone loves u. or tt u are all alone.. or tt someone dun accept u for hu u r.. or u jus broke up with ur bf.. God still loves u.. He still accepts u..." this was wad e pastor said.. Daddy.. can u feel wad i feel now? i noe u can.. Daddy.. ur daughter's heart is gg to shatter... Daddy... ur daughter needs ur amazing love.. Daddy... ur daughter cant get over a guy hu dun like her anymore.. Daddy... ur daughter wants ur embrace.. Daddy... ur daughter needs your warmth.. Daddy.. i m feeling so so cold... i m feelin so so.. helpless.. i m falling down.. Father....... pull me up.. pls pull me up...pls pull me up...

i told my friends recently... i dun wan to let go le.. i shall jus cont liking him in my own world.. i shall jus cont dremaing abt this hope tt i hjaf.. this virtual hope tt he'll cum back to me.. give me a warm embrace.. i am too tired to let go.. i cant.. i cant bcuz i haf no more energy... today i talked to hoi shek... he asked me alot of wad ifs.. wad if isaac rejects u when he meets u.. wad if.. isaac dun wan to meet u? wad if.. aft u all tog u make e same mistake again? wad if wad if wad if....of cos i cant predict.. of cos i cant assure.. but i want to promise.. i promise.. i wun let u go le.. i wun hurt u le.. dar.. i am still ur dar.. i m still e same cassandra.. the same cassandra tt needs ur care and love.. the same cassandra that still loves u so much.. i am still e cassandra hu always msgs u at nite.. i am ur blur dar... i am ur princess dar hu cooked salty fried rice for u.. i am e silly dar hu always want to cheng qiang even when my ankle cannot tk it.. i m still e dar hu goes galilee and wait for u to appear.. i miss u i so miss u.... my new friend ka munn scolded me" CASSANDRA GIVE UP!" I DUN WANT TO!!! I DUN WANT TO LET GO!!!!! it was my fault.. i shdn haf let u go.. pls give me a chance to mi bu.. pls gimme a chance to correct my mistake.. pls gimme a chance to care for u again... pls gimme a chance to love u again..

isaac... i so wanna ask u.. how r u now? how's ur back? are u having enuf rest? how's ur ping pong? ur studies? how do u feel abt me now? m i irritating u.. do u hate me? do u reli not want me in ur life anymore? do u not love me?

can u answer me? bcuz i m fallin deep down.. i m not strong animore.. i cant.. 9 m ths le.. i haf endured for 9 mths. it iss enuf.. i m letting go off e rope tt kept holding me.. i m lettin go.. i want to fall.. free fall... without a rope.. wad will happen to me?

i miss u i reli do.. pls gimme another chance.. i will learn how to fold e hearts... i will fold dem back for u... bcuz i miz u so much..

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