Cassandra Loh

Sunday, March 12, 2006

hey!! to start of.. ok guys.. i am in TJC.. dun haf to feel too happy for me as yet la.. bcuz i m not reli sure of how i m feelin lo.. it is like so stressful over dere and i dun wish to get retained or kicked out of school lo.. and moreover.. i like sort of let 2 of my friends down by gg dere la.. one is HIM and one is him.. ok we wil tok abt him first la. it is like i also duno y la but he seems kinda upset tt i got into tjc.. i think he thinks that i dun deserve it or smth bcuz i last tym sae wan to go poly ma.. but i changed my mind like so long ago lo.. and u act gave me ur blessings b4 ma.. as in u didnt disapprove until i got in and u didnt.. do u noe i cherish u as a friend den u like that.. den to HIM... reli sorry la. i noe we were to stay in TPJC tog.. but my ma dun let me transfer.. i m not bein sacarstic or anyting.. but i reli reli miss tpjc.. i m serious.... ok.. anyway.. DUH

counting down to the 18th march le.. didnt think it was so hard to get over lo.. as in.. ya i keep setting datelines for myself and all.. but it will stil cum back to this lo.. i still miss him lo... k i tell u guys my next dateline is 18th march.. but how many of u will believe that i can get over aft that? well i wun blame u guys if u dun believe.. bcuz i dun even believe myself la... ya.. 18th march marks one yr.. wad a joke.. wad an irony.. one yr.. 3 mths we were tog... 9 mths we were apart.... out of these 9 mths.. ard 2 mths.. he wanted me back.. but i didnt want to.. why?? bcuz i am stubborn.. bcua i am a fool.. bcuz i dun noe wad i m thinking... and the rest of the 7 mths.. i want him back but he doesnt want me.. why?? bcuz he thinks i m a fool.. bcuz he thinks it is reli over.. bcuz... HE DOEN NOT LIKE ME ANY MORE... HAHA... =)=)=)

reading the messages that he sent me last tym( yes i haf not deleted) im sorry i cant let go of u jus as well as u let go of me.. i noe i asked for it.. i noe everythingis my fault and noone else's fault....but u haf no idea how much i miss u.. u haf no idea how much i reli m thinking of u everyday. i ask myself.. WHY IS IT SO HARD!!!!!!! u all were like tog only for 3 mths.. can u stoop makin it sound like u all haf been tog for decades?! i know!!! i too want to let go.. bcuz on;li when i reli reli let go den will i and u finally ends dis torture.... but,.. i dun wan dis to end.. i reli miss u.. i reli want to tell u tt if given another chance.. i wun haf let u go so easily.. if given another chance, i wuld have given u the absolute faith that u onli llike me.. if i were given another chance, i wuld haf had more confidence in myyself. if given another chance.. i wuld cherish u more and cherish the tyms tog... IF IF IF IF IF.... even the prisoners are given the yellow ribbon.. why cant i haf tt yellow ribbon?!

o well.... o well.. ok.. i m jus in a down mood ba.. i can get back to me and my smiley me.. soon.. jus gimme sum tym to face my real self pls... gimme sum tym...

do u noe how much i miss u?

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