i haf to sae.. today was definitely not a good dae ok..so many things happened and for once, i cried in front of the exco com.. i reli culdn tk it le.. ok the story came like this..we were supposed to prac dance today.so dance la.. den aft tt when MOST pple come le.. den we decided to do formation.. tts when i realised tt i was the one hu will always be behind all the way.. but i reli didnt mind, i make my stand clear.. I DUN MIND STANDING AT THE BACK OR FRONT!!! OK TAKE IT AS I AM BOASTING.. I HAF DANCED IN FRONT OR EVEN SOLO B4.. I DUN GIVE A DAMN ABOUT STANDING INFRONT.SO PLS STOP MISTAKING ME. IF U MISTAKE ME.. I AM FINE WITH IT. BUT WHENI ALREADY MADE MY STAND CLEAR.. JUS STOP IT!! HAF NEVER SAID I MINDED ANIONE STANDIN INFRONT OR BEHIND.. so. we did formation. den everyone was like here and ther.. then i got quite pissed off.. den i oso like sian sian le..so i was like.. read newspaper le la.. den pple tot dat i mind abt standing behind,..so they started askin me if i mind.. den i was like no.. i even smiled.. jus sae tt i was too tired.. den aft tt keep dancing dancin den ok lo.. den b4 leavin den ple sae wan to tok.. den tok lo..den in the end the whole session was abt 2 of us.. i was like what the hell la.. ( i m sorry.. pple hu noe me noe tt i dun always use words like this.. bt today.. i m reli too angry)if u wan to jus talk abt two of us, wad for get the WHOLE EXCO.. maybe u dun mean it but wad i feel is that u r trying to get the whole exco to support u.. and it reli cause me to feel idnigant.. then aft tt.. u run away.. jus left lida.. den pple started saein abt how the attitude and that they noe we want to satnd infront n they dun mind ggiving it up.. so does tt mean we r devil u all are angels? i reli duno.. den i reli couldn tk it le.. the tot of my good friend.. 4 yrs of friendship jus.. jus misunderstood me like tt.. and caused the whole grp of pple to misunderstand me instead of jus helpin me or at least get the story from me first.. u dun trust me? tts wad i feel..it reli hurts.. i feel like... friends are not tt trustworthy aft all.. instead of they helpin u to get rid of the misunderstanding. they mite cause the misunderstanding.. i duno la.. i haf lost confidence for everything suddenly.. jus now durin maths also.. i was so lost bcuz i duno anything.. i was like.. i dun wan to disturb anybody but i was jus hopin tt someone wuld like ask me if i needed help..no way! no one cared.. do i reli haf friends.. my dear friends out there.. i m not doubtin u all. but can u all jus tel me.. r we friends? i rlei feel lost.. rlei feel helpless...
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wrote at ;; 11:13 AM