Cassandra Loh

Monday, August 22, 2005

now.. guess where i am.. i m now in lit again.. lolz.. firstly.. thanks son.. the comment was so touching i almost cried in class la.. i wil also miss u alot la.. reli.. u r like not my son but more of like a mentor to me la.. u seem to be more independent and matured den me.. and i haf to like rely on u so many times.. u r like.. i oso duno wad to sae la.. yep but reli thanks alot k.., i will miss u when i leave sch.. u mux tk care kz.. and jiayou in ur studies.. i believe in u. so believe in urself too.. yep...

wow.. cell was so fun on sat la. i reli wana thank GOD for giving me this cell.. it is so full of laughter.. so it is like when u r so weary aft a long wk.. den u go to cell.. u like tkin away all ur burden for the time being.. den like wei xuan and all.. dey can be seriopus when it is time to be serious la.. and when it is time to be playful.. we r playful.. haha although BS supposed to be serious but we playful la. but at least lidat we never slp ma.. heex.. den go To kfc for dinner la.. den it is like I was super stressed.. den I didn’t haf the mood to talk la.. den kept studying my maths.. den aft tt JHONG and ALOY took away my book la.. den ask me to study later.. ask me to relax first.. at first I was vv angry.. den I jus turned ard and jus went to but food la.. but in the end.. I calmed dwn lo.. I noe it I s for my own good la.. den they started cold jokin.. I laggin la.. den they keep laughin at me.. but I reli felt beat.. thanks u all! Den aft tt me ands ly went to arcade while they went toilet la.. den when we finish arcade den call dem.. dey alredy at home.. lolz… den aft tt.. we went to BK.. she read her comic.. I read my failing forward.. den later her mom come fetch her., then I began my lonely journey home.. den went home den do sum stuff den slp le..

Next dae service.. duno wad happened.. like so little pple came.. reli very little la.. den got so cock up.. so luo mu shi was the host and the speaker and the everything.. hais.. see le quite sad la. Yea.. atmosphere like guai guai de… den aft cell went Sunday sch lo.. den had a nice time talking to jing wen and al0y.. den when it finish le.. den I went to 85 eat.. den aft yong hui and Daniel and samuel came dwn. Den we talk abt army and all.. bcu yong hui gg in le ma.. den Daniel cuming out soon. SOON>. Jiayou.. haha… yong hui gg in on the same dae as derrick.. haha.. anw.. ya..den we went to airport study lo.. act so many pple la..d en walk one roundf le den like beta.. so we wemnt to the usual place.. marry brown study.. den aft tt sawe shawn and val and shihui.. den we talk abit. Den I eat dere den go le. Den yong hui go swensen’s eat ma so I went in with him lo… den when we go in rite.. den this waitress.. super nice la.. she pulled my chair for me can.. oh man… SO PROFESSIONAL. Den I told yong hui dat no one pulled chair for me.. den he sae he at work always.. haha.. so I sae I one dae will go dere and disturb him.. heex heex… den aft tt.. I went toilet den when I cum back den he help me pull my chair.. heex.. first frien tt pull my chair for me.. like so gentlemanly la.. yep.. den jiu cont doin abit.. den aft tt… went to tam to buy denise’s present.. den he went with me la.. den I like so blur.. everythin oso forget.. like buy wrapper and everything.. yea.. luckily got him dere la.. den aft tt dfaddy and mummy came to fetch me.. den I like somehow quarrel with dad la.. duno if it is called quarrel.. my dad sae.” U always with yong hui now ar.. den wad happened to Isaac and zhiyong?” den I was like” wad has yong hui got to do with Isaac and wad has Isaac got to do with zhiyong?” den he sae “ I ask onli ma so angry for wad” den I was like” huh? I where got angry.. I jus ask the link onli ma.. “ den he gave me tt face den I nv talk le lo.. yea.. so tt marked the end of yest..

Now.. I am supposed to do my lit.. heex. But nvm la.. hehe.. k lo.. oh and ya! The government will look more into our service industry. Heex.. so my future is even more lit.. heex.. I pray that GOD will reli gif me a sign if Switzerland is reli the place for me.. I mean I haf had a lot of signs and all ler.. like the TJ and VJ thingy.. but well.. ya… and I also asking GOD for smth now.. like show me a sign for something. Dun wan to sae now la.. haha.. jus… im waiting for the sign.. yep…so I shall stop here la.. heex… enjoy reading!! Bye!

*is it reli time to let everything go and start all over again anew? Is wad I am thinking correct? Is this wad GOD wants to give me?*

your name wrote at ;; 3:40 AM

Saturday, August 20, 2005

this post is to reply to his post.i duno if u wuld see dis.. but all i want to sae is i m glad that u r doing fine and standing up again to move on.. jus wan to let u noe that i m doing fine too.. moving on like anything.. yea... in no time this relationship will be lost in the wind.. good memries will definitely live within me.. guess smtimes will miss those happi daes.. but this missing state is due to the happi memries we had ba...next time got gf muz tell me okie.. =) oh help me congrats ur bro.. haha.. finally got dinner le.. hais.. ke xi i cant go..=( anw.. we now like quite ke bei.. can onli communicate by msn or blog.. quite sad.. but well... duno la.. friends always.. if anytime need me. jus sae kz..i will still try my best to help u as a friend.. yep..

ok.. this wk was a hectic and quite bad wk la.. see ar.. wed and thurs i sick so nv go sch.. den mrs goh called me.. den sae need mc.. so i went to tamp polyclinic la.. den in e end got alot of prob.. dens ummore muz wait for like an hour plus.. haiz.. but now feel abit beta le.. yep.. den i haf been studyin quite intensively..(maths in particular) la.. with yong hui.. he teach me.. so we like stay at airport until like 12 plus. where the last bus will cum... ya lo.. he's reli a great cher la.. like when he nooe tt i m vv tired or like dun feel like doing le, den he will do with me lo.. den like pei wo so that i wun be so sianz... den that dae he tot me trigo la.. which i totally forgotten and i was vv sianz diao by it.. den he tot vv patiently lo.. so in the end.. got back my test.. 81%.. quite happi.. heex.. thanks alot man! then also haf been studying geog la.. wa.. vv horrible ar.. like bcuz sick den cant conc lo.. but anw.. while i was sick and studyin.. (nv go sch ma..) den i was thinkin.. left with 6 daes to study tog le.. let me emphasize.. it is S-I-X daes.. so little.. i suddenly felt like i reli will miss everyone.. reli reli.. it is reli horrible to noe tt i haf to leave grace and qi and chyr and shihui and angela and val and denise and so on and so on.. not to forget our dear 2H'03 peeps..(we r gg to haf a new class tee!) and of cos dear juniors like... son.. and sherilyn.. and more la.. yu bing.. my PET!! haha.. so quite sad.. sobx sobx.. but now muz also tink.. relims are like a few daes to go.. so fast. the time in sec 4 jus wheezed past like that.. mobody realised that everyday was passin so fast. until now when it is ending.. i tink all the chers haf officially fin teaching everything.. test and mock exams come and go.. and everything jus fly past us.. i always rem.. when i was sec 1, me and shihui were saeing,.. WE WILL BE GOOD SENIORS AND NOT FOLLOW THE FOOTSTEPS OF THE SEC 4S THEN.. bcuz they vv fierce ma.. buddent.. we were like.. aiyah still so long la.. we onli sec1,.. how long den will become sec2 and got our own batch of juniors..den time came where we had our first batch of juniors.. den sec batch.. den now.. we retire le.. wow.. time reli fles.. reli it does..

i would like to dedicate this para to my sec 4 friends... (dearest u all!) : hey friends.. thanks reli for being there for me.. reli no amt of words can express my gratitude to GOD for puttin u all into my life.. u all haf reli taken a big space in my heart.. and i reli promise.. i will never never forget u all.. time past so fast.. 4 yrs we had tog.. there were times.. we were the lamest of all.. doing so stupid things that i cant imagine CASSANDRA did.. and some serious things we had tog like studyin or.. quarrelin? den we had those sad times like when.. 2H had to split.. den we had those times where we persevered tog.. with the team spirit in us.. oh and not forgetitng.. chiong ing to the canteen for cai fan..i had one senior who told me.. that sec sch friends are the ones hu will reli leave foot prints in ur ife.. i didnt belief that then.. bcuz i tot.. pri sch de.. got 6 yrs tog.. sec sch onli got 4.. wad mks u tink we will be so close.. but den i relaise.. reli. without u all.. i duno wad will haf become of me.. grace.. rem how u wud cum to my house to play with doggy.. u had memries with doggy.. and he reli took u as a family.. jus like i haf already made u a part of me..i m not jokin yea. u r reli a vv impt person in my life.. no matter wad happens.. promise to be my friend always k.. to qi.. rem those times when we sang and sang like nobody's business in chi class..? and we wud talk and laugh.. yet we still oways get kit kat.. and the best thing was when one of us had the kit kat.. we wud share tog.. u r reli a wunnerful friend.. and a captain.. love ya loads! to chyr.. wow.. we reli gotta thank zy le.. for bringing us tog.. bishi bashi.. galilee.. all these times we had.. and all the times u listened to me as i groaned and moaned.. and when i realise tt i omost got THAT... i suddenly felt.. how impt ur frienship was to me.. when i saw tt u cried..my heart totally shattered... thanks for being a soul mate to me... and to shihui.. rem the time we managed to call into 9.3.3.. but we were to frieghtened then nv tok.. tell u ar.. that was the first and last time i eve managed to call thru.. haha tt time we were reli dumb man.. and those tmes aft training when we wud go to the pao pao cha dian.. and make pur own pao pao cha.. talk to aunty until late late and eat instant noodles.. haha.. now onder my wast den was.. ARGH beta not sae.. haha.. i tink GOD reli planned my way for me le.. like i am not even supposed to be in AHS.. by results or by spoirts.. also no way de.. but.. GOD wanted to gif me u all.. so HE brought me here. tanks u GOD!! and for those names that i didnt mention.. to the 2Hers.. u all were the best thing that hapened.. i made good friends.. exp wad reli is friendshiop and class bond ang all.. and most impt.. team spirit.. rem sec 2 to prove to the sch tt we r capable of being good.. we nv got a single demerit pt.. NOT A SINGLE ONE!!!!!! we reli rawkls man.. so gan dong.. and to the 4B.. though we didnt manage to be reli close as a class bcuz we already had our own cliaues and lal.. but i am sure GOD put us tg for a reason.. no matter wad.. as 4B.. i also enjoyes alot like whnen we wud rush to class bcuz chem was next.. and go online during peach's lesson. haha.. like do lit but if go ol see so many pple on. to all my friends.. these memries.. will always be in me..

to junior.. like son and pet.. hais.. we go le...u all muz jiayou k.. do glory to ahs k.. and jiayou in everything u all do. i definitely will miss those time we wud travel all e way to TOA PAYOH thanks to jiao lian =p jus to lian qiu.. haha.. and when we go bi sai tog.. when we sit in the bs tog.. when we et tog.. when we jiayou for each other.. when we comfort each other.. when we pat each other on the back.. these r reli precious memries to me.. AHS table tennis reli muz cont to jiayou k.. and also muz rem our cheer that our dear jiao lian gave us.. " cheer ni de tou ar cheer"... haha

and to u.. thanks for once being part of my life.. though it was short. i reli did haf a nice time with u that i wuldn forget... guess u shd noe tt i will be gg switz to further my studies.. rem tt time we were saeuing if we go overseas den duno how le.. will miss each other like crazy.. but now. at least break le.. den wun misseach other le lo. yeah... u muz jiayou k.. i see ur results r not bad. cont to jiayou.. and haf more confidence in urself!

lastly.. i will like to end wit.. " yu ni men fen xiang de kuai le.. sheng guo du zi yong you.. zhi jin wo ren shen shen gan shou.. hao you ru tong yi shan chuang nen rang shi jie bu tong.. i wana sae.. thanks u thank u thank u..." I WILL MISS U ALL MY DEAR FRIENDS

your name wrote at ;; 1:51 PM

Saturday, August 13, 2005

ok.. here i go! hahas... now lit again.. haha.. poor mr peach la.. i keep usin internet in his lessons.. but welll. everyone is too. haha.. kk.. i jus got back my CL results for o's.. guess wad.. a1 and distinction!!! =) i was like so worried ok. bcuz i noe i was sick den didnt do well for it ma.. den i was like regretting that i studied so late bcuz i didn finish studyin.. den eveyone expect so high from me la.. everyone is like saein.. casss sure a1 de. dun a1 i chop my head.. so is like everyone expect so high from me.. includin my parents.. so is like.. e whole time i dread getting back the results la.. maybe sum pple will think tt i already expcted a1 but NO ok.. i didnt..bcuz.. i noe 9i was sick ma asi said jus now.. so when i saw my results and i saw a 1 i was like so happy.. den aft tt.. e cher sae i see wrong column.. i was like.. WAD!!! den i went back to chek ahgain.. luckily still a1.. phew.. at leastr got a 1 le.. feel more relieved.. okok.. enuff le.. anw.,. to those hu didnt get 1... dun be too upset or wad k.. jus cont to jiayou bcuz i m sure u all will definitely make it de.. i m reli damn sure u all will get 1!! so all e way kz..!

k.. den now... abt sumone else.. i read his bvlog. den he said he was disappointed in me.. when i read tt i was vv hurt.. bcuz i never like hearing pple sae that they are disappointed in me and wad more from him hu supposed to noe me so well la.. so i was like vv hurt lo.. but well.. i dunno la.. den maybe i misunderstood wad he said. but i also feel tt.. he is not hjim le... so.. i dunno la.. does tt mean tt that time when i didnt follow my heart and go back to him. it is e rite thing to do? bcuz we do not noe each other so well yet.. i reli dunno la.. aiya. anw..

later orals o's for eng.. at least io haf a quite light heart to do it la.. hope will do well la.. hmmm.. tml leading worship for cell... jiayou cass!! heex... quite excited la.. haha.. but quite nervous.. wa nerve wrecking daes for me.. today b4 get back CL nervous.. den waiting for o's nervous.... den tml.. nervous.. haha.. but at least i noe tt the onli audioence is GOD>. so i m sure HE'l be happi with me. =) thanks to those hu helped me hor.. heex..

kk i shall end here or else poor pple like son and grace haf to strain eyes le.. hehe... ciaoz!

your name wrote at ;; 2:30 AM

Thursday, August 11, 2005

hais.. long time since i blog.. okok.. i shall jus my startin... hi! long time since i blog! haha.. sounds beta? hmm.. where shd i start.. ok start from thurs la.. investiture.. ok as those hu read my blog shd noe.. investiture got a little bit of prob.. e dancing part la.. but all turned out well la.. reli.. our dance was reli good la.. tts e comments i heard from the audiences..heex.. so happy.. everything was a happy ending la.. yep yep..we danced and all the friendships were still intact.. haha.. sound so mian qiang.. ok. all e friendship was dere la.. den we went to eat lo... dinner.. den sit dwn chat chat bridge bridge until... 11plus i tink.. den went home.. den like wa.. so late le.. haha.. den next dae 2.4.. god diarrhoea.. den dad got stomachache aft tt.. so in the end late la.. haha.. den late le go dere nv do warm up den start le.. den like leg pain oso.. den nv at breakfast plus diarrhoea so got like gastric...den e end felt tt i was in a vv bad condition to run la. but CCP sae jus try.. if cannot den turn back.. so i ok lo.. den jus try lo.. yeah.. since promoised grace to run with her.. den in the end... ok.. shall stop here la..anw i didnt do well la.. but oh well.. den aft tt went to bowl with cyyr.. den keep gastric-ing.. den didnt do well. but again.. oh well.. haha..ya..den went hm.. borrowed 2 shows.. den go hm watch le.. den slp halfway bcuz too tired. ya lo.. anw noe while writin smth wrong with com but cant copy.. so i jus hope dat wun suddenly gone la.. dis post..ok back to story.. ya.. den no dinner.. no appetite la mainly.. so went to watc den slp den dae over.. den next dae.. went TP for a talk.. den realised that i from a S-I person bcome a I-D person le.. i oso noe tt i changed alot la.. duno wad caused my change oso.. haiz.. den went to church for U-CONNECT.. den pull shawn along la... hah den we called for cab..bczu reli no cab..den when cal le den got cab.. den dun wan waste money ma.. den in te end e uncle called my hp to scold la. den i dunw an answer de.. den shawn wanted t ans so he ans lo.. den in the end e uncle scold. this time is reli our fault la.. sorry sorry.. k den we reach le.. abit late la.. missed abit of worship =(.. den listened abt hungry ghost festival.. den aft tt sit dwn chat chat lo.. aft the whole thing i mean.. we sat dwn outside fu tang den chat chat.. den shawn chat with J Hong ma.. bcuz they both BB.. den is i bring shawn ma.. so i cnot go away.. so i sit dere listening abt BB stuff la..den aft tt gab came.. den want to do disc la.. den b4 he do all his bud sae he sure S de.. haha.. in e end reli S.. haha..den vv funny la.. his expression and all.. den aft tt YH came and do. den he is a D la.. haha.. den chat again lo. den suddenly bro call say go FOP.. den i was like HUH!! 5 le.. go oso no way can go in ma.. den he sae his friend queuin so can cut.. den i ok lo.. den i again pull shawn. haha den YH was near me ma.. den i noe he oso vv shaung kuai de.. so ask him along oso lo.. den in e end he go.. den ly oso go.. so we all squeeze at the back lo.. mummy send ma.. den we go dere den like WA! so many pple.. den cannot cut quue le.. den i was like sure cant go in le ma..den YH qiang.. he pbserved e queue le.. den brought us to cut.. den got in and got quite gd sits oso.. (except for the part whetre we haf to read the lyrics upside dwn.) but aiya.. be thankful la.. can go in v gd le..thanks YH! haha.. den it was gd la.. haha.. suddenly like vv gd at reading words the other way round le.. haha..den i saw isaac dere.. den me and him and ly took a quan jia fu la. den like not bad.. reli look like a quan jia fu lo.. den i took one with him perosnally.. den vv nice oso.. den took with YH and LY.. den they ar.. aiz.. shall not sae.. haha malu myself. haha.den we nv eat dinner la.. all of us.. in e end gastric.. haha.. den went KFC to eat.. den bcuz got refill drinks.. so we bught one cup den keep refilling... for free.. haha.. first time i see such things in KFC.. haa.. den i eat one duno y vv full le.. maybe my gastric de wen ti la.. so YH ate the other of my chicken... qiang rite.. haha..den he was like sheepishly saying "popcorn!" when he take e popcorn chicken la.. now i sae not funny but if u were present.. quite funny...haha den my mummy send all excpet shawn hm.. bcuz he went of first and bu shun lu.. den send one by one le.. den not so cram.. haha.. den go home lo.. yea.. den sunday.. i went to church for service.. i was late.. alittle la. den aft tt went sunday sch.. despite slpin so late previous nite.. i dint slp... heex.. den aft tt luo mu shi saw my dad den dey talked tog.. den laugh at e good old daes.. u noe wad i mean.. yea.. den went out with them.. go bugis.. spent $218d in SnK alone... haha qiang rite.. den jiu crap crap crap den go hm le la.. mon.. i wanted to go sch de.. but overslept.. so didnt go.. den afternoon meet qi go play pool.. den play lo. den at first saw breandon.. den aft tt saw.. nixon.. den aft tt saw zhiyong..haha.. like bonding..d en when zhiyong came.. duno why la.. maybe want to prove top him i zhang da le.. er.. haha.. den i played until vv well.. won shawn by 4 balls leh! haha..w hen he so pro.. but.. anw. is onli once..lolz..den aft tt.. play photo hunt.. tt one funny sia.. we play awhile..d en ask chyr lend her tap card to play.. den she tap. de she didnt noe she tapped 8 credits.. haha which is = to 16 games.. 16 games of photo hunt k!! no joke.. haha.. den play until wa.. pek chek.. haha.. deni go play bishi bashi.. den quite disappointed.. my skills drop le.. haiz.. den suddenly got urge,.. den tk pic for portrait.. u noe those comp type.. yea.. den stuck.. den aiyah alot of am fan la.. den i n the end got it la. haha. den jiu go DG with shawn.. den went to sit at gelare.. got impulse of paintig nails.. so bought nailpolish den paint.. super funny.. haha.. den paint and tok.. den PWJ and JHoNG and others came la.. den went to eat.. details shant sae too.. den went to watch charlie.li dint eat my dinner so gastric.. so nv concentrate.. and not my type of movie la.. haha..so.. didnt reli enjoy.. den like keep kicking marcus while i was fidgeting.. oops.. sorry.. haha.. den went to walk to esplamnade for firworks la.. den ya.. went to lau pa sar to eat.. i nv eat.. haha.. den on e way.. got a sudden feeling.. oh oh.. dats bad.. muz stop le.. hmm.. den was quite sad la... hais.. nvm.. it will go away.. ya.. den went hm.. den mum nagged abt my green nails and my late home bcuz i reached home... at 2 plus.. haha..oops.. ya.den aft tt went to slp.. den the next dae.. go to this ultra big house.. bro's friend's house. is super big ok.. the toilet.. is bigger than my room.. i m NOT EXXAGERRATING.. i m SERIOUS.. it is dat big ok.. with own swimmin pool and all..ok shall stop here.. haha..wait.. still muz add.. they invited the roti prata man himself to the house to do pratas for us ok! and the ice cream man was invited too!!!!!!!! okok.. enuf! haha.. oh and dey haf a complete sound system at hm.. okok!! enuf!! haha.. den was quite bored la.. kept talkin to huang shu fang.. u noe the channel u de.. ya... onli chat with her lo.. den share prata.. haha.. but she no airs of actress la.. so quite ok.. haha..den jiu talk talk talk lo.. den go home. den next dae.. which is today,. morning go gym with twin.. den went to play pool.. heex..legally hor..!den.. went to her house frist.. wait for her bathe denm go airport tog.. den her douse not bad la. except for 5 mosquitoes tt keep flyin ard me.. maybe i smelly.. haha.. den the dog so cute la.. but i haf a twuin who has sum predjudice against dogs.. haha wad can i do.. haha.. den went by cab.. so ex la... 8 dollars kaz,. hhaha.. den went to find ly den aft tt.. wen marry brown.. haha first time hear abt it. den aft tt denise came.. den ly went den ju came den ju left den ly came den we all left to staff canteenf or dinner..haha.. den i put chilli not knowing it it so la.. so in the end i was la until canot mk it.. den we go wait bus den bus came omost immediately.. yea.. den ly told me abt her gd friend la.. dne i quite sympathise her.. buit i still think dun gif her the rights to.. ok.. nvm.. shant gossip.. den.. came m.. den sum weird things happenin.. hope the LORD will jus carry me thru all these la.. it is reli scary la.. wana noe abt it.. ask me.. haha.. dunw an to write here.. den now i m here lo. wa my posts are like getting longer and longer le.. haha.. goo dtime readin! hha/./ wow.. it is 12am! i dun wan to be late for sch!! mugging from tml start! nice eng..lolz.. kk go le.. thanks GOD!! the post nv get deleted or wad.. and the prob on my comn solved.. THANK GOD!! give my daddy up dere a big kiss!! MUACKS!! heex... byE!

your name wrote at ;; 3:04 PM

Wednesday, August 03, 2005

i haf to sae.. today was definitely not a good dae ok..so many things happened and for once, i cried in front of the exco com.. i reli culdn tk it le.. ok the story came like this..we were supposed to prac dance today.so dance la.. den aft tt when MOST pple come le.. den we decided to do formation.. tts when i realised tt i was the one hu will always be behind all the way.. but i reli didnt mind, i make my stand clear.. I DUN MIND STANDING AT THE BACK OR FRONT!!! OK TAKE IT AS I AM BOASTING.. I HAF DANCED IN FRONT OR EVEN SOLO B4.. I DUN GIVE A DAMN ABOUT STANDING INFRONT.SO PLS STOP MISTAKING ME. IF U MISTAKE ME.. I AM FINE WITH IT. BUT WHENI ALREADY MADE MY STAND CLEAR.. JUS STOP IT!! HAF NEVER SAID I MINDED ANIONE STANDIN INFRONT OR BEHIND.. so. we did formation. den everyone was like here and ther.. then i got quite pissed off.. den i oso like sian sian le..so i was like.. read newspaper le la.. den pple tot dat i mind abt standing behind,..so they started askin me if i mind.. den i was like no.. i even smiled.. jus sae tt i was too tired.. den aft tt keep dancing dancin den ok lo.. den b4 leavin den ple sae wan to tok.. den tok lo..den in the end the whole session was abt 2 of us.. i was like what the hell la.. ( i m sorry.. pple hu noe me noe tt i dun always use words like this.. bt today.. i m reli too angry)if u wan to jus talk abt two of us, wad for get the WHOLE EXCO.. maybe u dun mean it but wad i feel is that u r trying to get the whole exco to support u.. and it reli cause me to feel idnigant.. then aft tt.. u run away.. jus left lida.. den pple started saein abt how the attitude and that they noe we want to satnd infront n they dun mind ggiving it up.. so does tt mean we r devil u all are angels? i reli duno.. den i reli couldn tk it le.. the tot of my good friend.. 4 yrs of friendship jus.. jus misunderstood me like tt.. and caused the whole grp of pple to misunderstand me instead of jus helpin me or at least get the story from me first.. u dun trust me? tts wad i feel..it reli hurts.. i feel like... friends are not tt trustworthy aft all.. instead of they helpin u to get rid of the misunderstanding. they mite cause the misunderstanding.. i duno la.. i haf lost confidence for everything suddenly.. jus now durin maths also.. i was so lost bcuz i duno anything.. i was like.. i dun wan to disturb anybody but i was jus hopin tt someone wuld like ask me if i needed help..no way! no one cared.. do i reli haf friends.. my dear friends out there.. i m not doubtin u all. but can u all jus tel me.. r we friends? i rlei feel lost.. rlei feel helpless...

your name wrote at ;; 11:13 AM